A/N: I did this at work while doing a bit of warm up in preparation for writing some more content in Chapter 20 and future chapters. I realized that it's been ages since I've written any poetry at all. No surprise that HisoGon made me do it... So have this, some six pages worth of Unexpected poetry (lol I crack myself up get it? Unexpected as in the story this poem is for and also for the fact that this poem was an unexpected development too? Hahaha *badumtss* lol anyway =.=), I wasn't going to post it but some people wanted to see it. I hope you guys like it, I'm not sure if it's style is free verse or prose poetry but meh, I can no longer tell... I think I fried my brain with all the writing I've been doing.
As I said, you can consider this an extension to Chapter 19 since Gon's thinking of this stuff as they're lying in each others' arms right after Hisoka asked him to stay with him.
References (if you're interested): The stuff that Gon reflects on was seen across the series; specifically (in no order):
Episode 36 after their fight when Gon was thinking that Hisoka was so far away but not out of reach and that he would train in Nen to get a power that was just as strong as his.
Episode 5 when he had that first contact with Hisoka which left him confused
Episode 16 on Zebil Island when Gon was thoroughly humiliated
Episode 24 from 1999 when he spent about 3 angry, sad and lonely days recovering from the paralysis drug on Zebil Island and the humiliation of realizing that he still wasn't strong enough to face Hisoka . He felt that he was too weak and desired to be stronger (my heart always breaks when I see Gon in this episode oh gosh...*gross crying*)
Manga chapter 10 in the second exam where Gon was thinking that the rush of excitement he got from hunting the pigs was nothing compared to what he felt when he'd encountered Hisoka
Episode 36 after his fight when he told Killua that what he understood from fighting Hisoka was a secret
Episode 131 when he attacked Pitou
Episode when he was in the hospital
And then everything else is the summary of his experiences in the story up to present (Chapter 19)
NB: One last thing, this is not the type of poem that rhymes in every line! Now let's go!
Wanting To Meet You, See You Again
Today it feels like so long ago…
So long
Since that day when I first met you
So long
Since the moment when I did not know
That the day you left me utterly confused…
And bruised…
Would be the day I'll start always wanting to meet you, see you again
XXX
You exposed my weaknesses and you…
Looked down on me,
Even as I was forced...
To look up at you, towering over me
I was one of many
Trapped
A face in the crowd of those you desired to subjugate
Put on a waiting list and made to wait
Patiently...
For the day you deemed me
Worthy…
Worthy to kill
Regardless...
From that moment on I desired to meet you, to see you again
XXX
Whenever I thought of meeting you
I wanted nothing more than to surpass you
Whenever I thought of meeting you
Your very essence...
Everything about you...
I wanted to subdue
Make you do more than just notice me
Or seek to break, destroy and subjugate me
Instead...
I wanted to force you to acknowledge
Acknowledge that I was not worthy of killing
Not because I was too weak, but because I was too strong
And thus it remained, that need to meet you, see you again
XXX
The thought of meeting you stroked something in me
Something I could tell no one of
But that something was always in my eyes
A desire I could not disguise
An excitement so profound
A lust so dark, so dangerous
Yet you were always so far away
So out of reach
And I struggled to meet you, to see you again
XXX
I dreamed that one day I'll show you how much I've grown
How strong I'd become
Make you stop chasing after others who shone brighter
And compel you at that moment to see only me
I could not understand why I felt that way
Scared, excited and hopelessly dismayed
So I told no one of this, this urge to meet you, see you again
XXX
You were like the exam
The test I had to take
A rite of passage
Spurning my desire to never give up
To never see you mocking me
And to finally defeat you completely, whenever I met you again
XXX
And whilst the shadow of your humiliation
Haunted...
Haunted my subconsciousness
I searched for you in my own way
Seeking a power that would wipe that smirk off your face
So I trained my Nen
In hopes that we'd meet again
I trained my Hatsu
Desiring to one day defeat you
Thinking all this time of my hope to meet you, see you again
XXX
In the end I went too far
Kissed the cheek of danger
Made a pact
Hurt, maimed and bruised myself more than even you have done to me…
In my quest, my lust to avenge
I'd given up my soul...lost myself
And at that point I no longer wanted to meet you, see you again
XXX
You always blurred the lines of right and wrong
I followed your light
Craved for its brilliance
But the price I paid was in blood
Blood…
Red as your crimson hair
Burning...
Hot like the pain I felt
I was ready to die, but even then one last time…
As I felt the life leave me
I foolishly wished to meet you, see you again
XXX
I had searched for power and lost much more
My quest for strength
Left me worn
I went to sleep
Tired
Plunged into a night so dark, so deep
Nightmares, loneliness
Wraithlike in my own consciousness
Drained, crippled, tormented and laid bare
And even if I wanted, I could never ever meet you, see you again
XXX
I did not want you to see me like this
You…
Who I hated
Me…
Who'd been baited, humiliated
Made decrepit
By the darkness you call your domain
And so I'd thought the book had closed on our tale
I would no longer meet you, see you again
XXX
But the gods intended that we meet again
Fate made you see me weak, without my Nen
Desire made you want me, even as I was
But it was fear that made me pause
Because I realized that this time you had sought me out
Wanting to meet me, see me again
XXX
I tried to run because that day we met I realized
That deep inside
There was a dark desire
That set me afire
One I was powerless to restrain
One from which I could no longer abstain
Why...why did I ever wish to meet you, see you again?
XXX
I fought those feelings…those desires
I fought you
I tried to run away
Get away
From the slumbering part of me you'd awakened
But you persisted, finding me every time and calling from within my body the things I could not…
Did not
Want say to you
And as your hands molded perfectly to every part of me
Your lips, tongue and kisses showed me forbidden things
Things I'd never heard of
Dreamed of
Things that caused me to shudder, arch and desperately crave for your touch
Making me addicted and training...chaining my heart to yours
XXX
You…
After having taken my innocence, my freedom, was left unsatisfied
Decided that my heart you'd pacify
Nothing less than all of me
Hopelessly
Was what you'd make me surrender
Forever
And whilst once being the one desiring to subjugate you
I became the subjugated
Now I'm hopelessly trapped
Unable to tear myself away from your spell
Unable to break the chains you've wrapped around me so well
This pleasurable prison must be my punishment…
Punishment for having always wanted to meet you, see you again
XXX
If someone were to offer to save me now, I won't go
If someone were to take me away from this, I'll return
Because days spent without you will be days spent in aching silence
Empty echoes in a lonely room, a heartfelt penance
I don't want to meet you, see you again – I want to stay with you
XXX
From now on
Now that I've met you…now that I'm with you
I want nothing more than to spend my days wrapped in your arms, my heart set ablaze
Because your love, your light and your embrace
Is all I need to go on.
A/N: Thanks for reading! I'm not sure if I'll do more of these, but we'll see :)
Although I was hesitant to post this at first, a little HisoGon poetry on an early Sunday morning can't be bad at all. Especially since I can't update yet.
See you guys soon!
