A/N: Hey, this is a companion piece for 'Feeling A Moment' so it's set in 4x05. I don't really like this to be honest but I'm posting it anyway. It was so hard to write as Sam and not as Addison!
I just posted a new Addisam fan video, go to my YouTube page to watch, my username is KellyLouiseYeahx :) The video is called 'This is Beautiful', there are 2 other Addisam videos on there, 'Shattered' and 'Confide in Me' but the new one is definitely the best! Have a watch and let me know what you think!
Reviews much appreciated!
Captivated
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He lets her fall asleep against him, his hands stroking through her hair, skin against skin. He knows she'll never quite believe that he'll never hurt her, but it's true, he will never hurt her. He thinks back to the time when she wasn't with him, the time where he had to watch her with someone else, watch her be happy with someone else, but he quickly forgets it, because she's there, she's right there with him, in his house, in his bedroom, in his bed, in his arms, she's right there with him.
He smiles softly when she lets out a content sigh in her sleep, moving slightly against him, he pulls the sheets up a little on her body to keep her warm. He knows their problems aren't over, he knows when the person she loves like a sister returns from her foundation business he might not be able to be close with her around their friends, and she might even pull away again, and one day the baby issue will come up and this time she will need to know how he feels but he tries not to think about it, he tries to focus on the moment they're in, where all that matters is that they're together, that they love each other, that's all that matters.
He can feel his eyes closing, he knows it won't be long until he's asleep himself, but he wants to stay awake for a little longer, he wants to watch her for a little longer, he wants to feel her steady breathing against him for a little longer. She captivates him, in a way he didn't think possible, everything about her drives him crazy, her hair, her smile, her smell, her pure beauty, the way she laughs, how stubborn she can be and how frustrated she can get, especially how cute she looks when that happens, he loves it all, and he won't lose it, he won't, because if he loses it he'll lose a part of himself, because he's just that into her. He can't lose her.
He sometimes wishes he'd got in there first, not that he regrets his marriage or his daughter, he just sometimes wishes that when he asked her out in med school she'd said yes, because maybe they would've worked, and they would've got married and had kids and all the drama of the past year wouldn't have ever got a chance to exist. He knows he shouldn't think like that, he has to think in the now, right in that moment. Where his love for her overwhelms him.
He breathes her in for one last time, as his eyes finally close and sleep falls upon him, and he dreams of her, he'll always dream of her, and the moment that he never wants to end.
End.
