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Rose's Diary:

Chapter One: My Doctor:

Dear Diary,

I don't really know why I'm writing this. I guess I just want to talk about the Doctor, and I don't want to talk to Mum, Dad or Mickey and no one else would understand. I could talk to Poppy, but a 6 month old baby is hardly the best conversation. So I'm writing.

In all the time I travelled with the Doctor, I never really understood who he was. I learnt more about him the more I travelled. But I still don't think I ever properly knew who he was. Since I lost him, he's all I think about. And I've done a lot of thinking about who he really is. And I still don't think I know, I don't think anyone will ever truly know. This is what I do know though.

He's a Time Lord. I know that from the start. He's 900 years old. I'm not sure if that's Earth years or Gallifreyian years. He's from the planet Gallifrey, and all he has is the TARDIS. I never realised before how lost and lonely he must be.

His planet and all his people died in a war. A Time War. The Time Lords fought the Daleks and everyone lost. Other species also died in that war, but the Doctor survived. The only Time Lord in existence. He can travel in Time and in Space. He tried to save people, aliens whatever, he always tried to save them, but often he sees them die. And the one thing he can't do is go back and save his people. The Time War is a fixed point in Time and he can't go back and stop it.

I don't know what the Time War was like. I don't know if I'd want to know. But the Doctor was there. He fought in the war. He saw his people die and his planet burn, and he has to live with the memory of that. The Time Lords died but they took the Daleks with them. At least that's what they thought. They were wrong though, the Dalek emperor survived, and created a new army. Even after they were defeated there was more. The Doctor lost everything and the Daleks survived.

As well as having to live with the memories of the Time War the Doctor can see the whole of Time and Space. When I looked into the TARDIS I could see it, just for a while. I don't know how he can cope with all that. He can hear and feel all the pain of all the species. He can see all that is and was, all that ever will be, and all that could be. He can see all the things he can't control as well as all the things he can. He can feel the turn of the Earth. And he doesn't age. He told me once 'You can spend the rest of your life with me, but I can't spend the rest of mine with you. I have to live on. Alone. That's the curse of the Time Lord' He always ends up alone. With no home to go to, just the TARDIS.

He regenerates, when he's dying he just regenerates. He looks completely different, but is really still the same person. That's how he's survived this long in Time and Space. He doesn't die, he just regenerates.

And that's who he is, or rather what I know of who he is. He has to come with all that but still manages to smile, and rarely cried. He is so amazing, and I love him. And I miss him so much. I just hope he finds someone else to travel with, just so that he isn't completely alone. But more than anything, I wish I was still with him. I know that can never happen though. I'll never get over him, or more on. I love him too much. And I always will.

Rose Tyler.