"Jacob!!"

I scampered through the forest as fast as my erratic legs would carry me. I wasn't going to loose him, I couldn't go through that pain again. What was he thinking, taking off like that? Did he want me to suffer that badly?

Sam had said he had headed south…I was sure I was travelling in that direction…oh, who was I kidding; I'm no tracker. I don't have a clue when it comes to hunting someone down! But still, I have to try.

"Jake!"

He couldn't keep ignoring me. It was just plain rude! I mean, here I am, practically throwing myself to my deathbed and he's skirting around the forest, having a field day. He must get his kicks from making me freak out like this; he does it more often than spending time with me, that's for sure.

I wiped angrily at the tears spilling down my face. Snap out of it, I thought to myself, you're never going to find him if you fall over and break your ankle. I kept my eyes down and trudged through the thick mud, though it didn't prevent me from tripping over nothing more then my own two feet and covering myself in sludge.

It was hopeless. I was never going to find him. He was probably half way across the country by now. But I just couldn't understand it. Where was his motive? Everything was fine…he didn't know about the wedding and there was nothing else to my knowledge that could have gained such a reaction from him…unless…

I came to an abrupt halt.

"Damn it, Edward!" I screamed, jumping to the one and only conclusion I could think of.

He must have told Jake about the wedding. There was no other explanation. Alice wouldn't have told him – I made her swear blind after promising her she could plan the ceremony. She wouldn't risk such an opportunity, no matter how much she knew Jacob meant to me. Why was it so impossible for Edward to follow the rules? That's all I asked of him and it's not that much, considering I was about to commit myself to him for the rest of eternity.

Oh, Jacob. I couldn't begin to imagine how much he was hurting, I didn't want to. Knowing that I'd caused him so much pain was unbearable to me. If I allowed that grief to set in even for a few seconds, I knew I would never be able to pick myself up off the floor again to find him.

Why did I have to love both of them? Why not just one? No – wait – I didn't mean that. I couldn't live without Edward, I loved him too much. Then again, I loved Jake too. He was my sun. Ugh, this was just too hard!

I threw myself to the uneven ground, smacking my elbow on a rock.

"Argh!"

Growling unimpressively, I snatched up the rock in my shaking hand and flung it with all the force I could muster.

After a solid clunk, a resounding "Ow!" emitted from the bushes from which it had landed.

My head snapped up.

Was it him? Was it my Jacob?