A/N I got an idea from an edit on pinterest lol. This is Ziva writing a biogrophy. So basically she gets word that Tony left she tries to get him to find her. Using all alias' she writes her story up to current day. Hoping that Tony will figure out it is her and find her before someone else does. Small trigger warning for suicide mention.
I am Sophie Ranier. And my life has been hectic to say the least. I am hoping that the love of my life, Jean-Paul will see this and come find me. But before we get into that lets start at the beggining.
I was born on November 12, 1982 as Shifra "Sophie" Devri Ranier. I was born to the head of a federal agency and a mother who wanted to escape it. My Ima had trouble having children even though she always wanted them. My Abba had an affair with a women we shall call Zaina Hur Tuma. Zaina got pregnant and had a child called Halim Noori Tuma keeping her last name. My Ima, Asriyah, was very hurt by this and her and my Abba, Imam, drifted apart. A few years after I was born my Ima had another daughter, Yarah. In my young years there was a lot of yelling. I loved my Ima, and I thought I was supposed to love my Abba so I always did what he asked and tried to impress him. My half-brother, Halim, lived with us and my Ima treated him as her own.
Halim was a solid 5 years older than me and when I was just 8 my abba started making him work for him. My Ima tried to protect Yarah and I from my abba but nothing she could do could stop him. When I was 13 my abba started training me. We left at 0430 every morning and didn't come home until 2100 each night. My ima worried.
When I was 16 and Yarah was 13 she started her training. She trained for 3 years she was our best undercover officer. When she was 16 and following orders she was killed in a bombing. I had just gotten home from my year with the Israeli army. 3 years later my ima commited suicide. She had been depressed ever since Yarah died, and abba never helped. I returned home earlier than abba and Halim didn't live with us anymore. I found ima laying on the bathroom floor, bullet through her head. I checked her pulse, just to make sure, and she was gon. The worst part was Abba's reaction. He expected us to live our lives as if nothing happened. Carry on like we always did.
2 years later I was sent to America to retrieve Halim and bring him back to Isreal. He'd gotten himself into trouble, and soon he'd be killed. I ended up meeting a man named L.J. Tibbs. He was the head of a MCRT team from NCIS. They had just lost one of there teammates and claimed that Halim had killed her. The first time I met one of them was when I first walked into the building. That is when I saw Jean-Paul for the first time. I first thought that he was having phone sex, but I then found out he was imagining his ex-partner. That was the first time I really realised that the people we, Mossad, killed, they had families. They were mourned.
I was then introduced to Thom another member of team Tibbs. I made a deal with Tibbs that if Halim really was a rogue agent and he threatened to kill Tibbs i would be his backup. Halim pulled a gun on Tibbs and I pulled the trigger on him.
Let me make it very very clear that Halim was not a bad man. My abba was. He brainwashed him. Halim and I used to run through the forests and pretend we were astronauts or that I was a ballerina and he was a superhero. But my abba killed all of that. Brainwashing at its finest.
A/N I am aware that these are not there names but Ziva is writing this in all alias' so for a guide here.
Ziva- Sophie
Tony- Jean-Paul
Gibbs- LJ Tibbs
Mcgee- Thom
Eli- Imam
Ziva's Mom- Asriyah
Tali- Yarah
Ari- Halim
Orli- Zaina
