Note: I don't own Fairy Tail or its characters. Sorry for grammar and spelling mistakes. I need to update on my story more often. I'm sorry! This is in Juvia's POV. Based on a true story. I don't own facebook either.
I go seek a great perhaps.
- John Green, Looking for Alaska
It was always like this, I always was depressed. But, I never showed it. If I did, my best friends wouldn't like me that much anymore. I only wanted to fit in, but I was the loser, the nerd. I didn't even dress like a nerd, just because I follow the school dress code, and have good grades doesn't mean I'm a nerd.
I don't know why people always think I am. I don't fit in also because I'm not pretty like the other girls that are popular. I'm considered a 'nerd'. I have pale skin compared to the others, and bags showing because of staying up late. I have odd blue hair that's shoulder length, and would sometimes curl up at the ends.
I have this crush on this guy, but I know he will never like someone like me. He is considered a popular person. He had those amazing onyx/dark grey eyes, and that dark blue/black hair. He was a tall guy, and had a stripping problem which showed those abs he had. He had a model-like figure, and surprising cold on the outside. But, my crush was caused of him picking up my books when I dropped them, and giving me a tiny smile.
But I know, he will never notice the nerd with her pale complexion, and black bags under her eyes. I tried wearing makeup before, but all it did was nothing at all. I have insecurities too. I wear a sweater that's bigger than my curvy body to cover up the curves I had since I hated showing my curves.
I was always the one who was self-conscious. I wore black jeans to cover up my legs since I hated showing skin too. I also hated the sun. I always thought of cutting, but never did it since when I had PE they would show. I thought about suicide too, but I also thought about the things I never did and what I would miss out on if I just died right there and then.
I have best friends and their names are Erza, Levy, and Lucy. The others are just random friends I talk to. I hate people, and is afraid of what they think of me at the same time. That caused me to stutter and be shy when random people that are just classmates or strangers talk to me.
But I'm not actually shy, and my best friends can prove it. Once I actually open up to you, I would become the craziest, and funniest person you'll ever know. Except my depressing side which I would shove it down deep in my heart. I would always slap on a smile, and say I'm alright.
I always joke around even though deep inside I wasn't really in a joking mood. I was always quiet in class so, nobody would notice me unless they would ask a question or want an answer. I never liked attention, and the judging stares of people. I always wanted somewhere where I can be alone and have some peace.
But, in this jacked-up life I had, peace and quiet was a hard thing to get. My parents never really loved me. They just saw me as a tool to use to earn money for them. They never knew I was depressed, and never will. They would always criticize me, and tell me to get skinnier or something.
I would always brush it off with a rude comment or just ignore them. I always wanted to run away, far away from this place. But, I was always stuck here, in this town full of nothing that I would like. People always were judging people even though they say they hate people judging them.
My best friends always drifted away from me like Lucy would talk to Levy more than me, and Erza would go off in her sweet cake mode with someone else. I never knew who though. I try to be always cheerful, and converse with them. Trying to start a conversation with Lucy while she's talking to Levy is like trying to talk to a brick wall.
They would always dicuss the newest books they read, and all the new episodes of their favorite tv show. I would always listen, and try to say something. Eventually, I'll give up, and do something else.
I would always stare at them, and always wonder if I could get another friend like that. But, I doubt it since I don't asscioate with people that much, and most of them are stuck-up. I always hated the popular people, but my crush was one so, that doesn't count okay?
Trying to be all cheerful, and shit was like trying to cheer someone who their special someone is dying. I always wonder what life was for since the days always past by without nothing exciting happening. I never would confess to boys because I got rejected one time, and I knew...that they rejected me since I was ugly.
So, I never asked a boy out again, and that embarrassed me so much. Getting rejected in front of all those people, I could hear my classmates talking behind my back about me getting rejected. They would think I never heard them but I could hear, and feel their stare burning into my back.
Being yourself is what society says to do, but why do they judge you if they told you to be yourself? That's what I always think, and I know I'm not the prettiest creature you'll find on this planet. I hated people always staring at me and whispering to their friends.
I sat at the chair in front of my computer, and turned the computer on. I typed in my password, and clicked on Firefox. I typed in Facebook in the web bar thing, and logged in. I looked at the people online on my friends list, and when I added my crush, he actually accepted the friend request!
I opened up another tab, and put on my favorite anime episode I'm on. I was chatting, and watching anime at the same time.
I saw Lucy and Levy online, they're probably chatting about something already I thought to myself. I saw my crush was online too, and other people from school. I clicked on my notifications, and noticed he liked one of my posts.
I clicked on Lucy's name, and a chat box popped up.
Juvia Lockser: Hiiiiiiiiiiiii Lucy!
Lucy Heartfilia: Hiya!
Juvia Lockser: You're starting to act like Natsu. He sure is rubbing off on you. Awww someone's in love.
Lucy Heartfilia: WHAT? NO! WE'RE JUST FRIENDS!
Juvia Lockser: No need to shout woman. Calm your nips down.
Lucy Heartfilia: Its your fault that I was like that, and btw did you read Paper Towns by John Green yet?
Juvia Lockser: YEAH! IT WAS SO FUNNY WHEN BEN WAVED AROUND THAT BEER CAN SWORD!
Lucy Heartfilia: IKR! IT HAD A SAD ENDING THOUGH!
When I was about to type in my response, another chat box appeared with a message saying:
Gray Fullbuster: Hey.
I panicked, and typed to Lucy first.
Juvia Lockser: LUCY! GRAY MESSAGED ME!
Lucy Heartfilia: OMG! WHAT DID HE SAY? AND WHY DID HE MESSAGE YOU?
Juvia Lockser: HE JUST SAID HEY. AND IDK
Lucy Heartfilia: Well, then say something back.
Juvia Lockser: Okay.
I clicked on Gray's chat box, and typed in hi.
Juvia Lockser: Hi.
Gray Fullbuster: So, wyd?
Juvia Lockser: Watching anime and talking to Lucy.
Gray Fullbuster: So, what do you say about going on a date with me?
Note: Introduction complete! Now I can go on with this story that I randomly created for some reason, but don't judge me. I still has to go update my other stories *crying face* Anyways if you liked it, leave a review. Also it can be anything. Until next time!
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