Grell Sutcliff walked down the street slowly as he sighs softly letting his head fall back as he looked up at the dark star filled sky. His normal bright red hair was darker in the night as he stared up at the bright moon hanging in the sky along with beautiful small pin prick lights the stars gave off but he sighed again his green eyes looking dark as his brow furrowed in a way that one would describe as sadness. When he went to the Phantomhive manor he had been bombarded with 5 screaming little children much to his faint horror but then Ciel and Sebastian had walked downstairs looking at Grell, Sebastian's arm had been around Ciel's waist lovingly. It was then that Grell had left and he'd been walking for almost hours just looking at the sky when he was able too. He could face the truth, he knew what it was and he had somehow known for a long time how Sebastian had felt towards Ciel but Grell had wanted Sebastian for himself, it became very clear to him when Claude had taken the boy that the demon was angry but it seemed he was also a touch jealous and he knew that Sebastian wouldn't give up until he had Ciel again and then the children, their children came into the picture and Grell knew he must move on which was what he hoped to do by walking putting distance between him and the manor. I won't cry if he's happy that's what matters right now, Grell thought to himself his eyes dry yet looking bright with hidden tears but he refused to give in to the urge to cry, he was strong and resilient, he was a reaper for the love of God! He could push past this one demon and he would do it to live his life simply.

"Grell."

Grell looked up blinking rapidly then he smiled crookedly seeing William standing there looking the most serious Grell had seen him be and he walked to the red head his eyes looking cold and it made Grell step back quickly afraid he was in trouble once again and he kept backing up as William advanced forward slowly his footsteps sounding loud in the silent night and his eyes widened just a bit then he squeezed them shut bracing himself both physically and emotionally in case he would be hurt in either way until he felt arms sliding around him making a soft gasp push out past his lips in shock his eyes shooting open widening slightly looking over William's shoulder as his cheeks heated up slowly making him blink rapidly at the closeness. He stood in William's arms almost stiff with complete and total shock his heart fluttering slightly and he closed his eyes resting his head on William's shoulder his hair ruffling softly around his face the red standing out against his dark hair hair and Grell smiled softly his own arms moving up to hug William back. When William pulled back Grell felt suspiciously cold and barren without the dark haired man in his arms and he looked at William turning his large green eyes on William's own green eyes that looked soft like he cared for Grell but he couldn't let himself hope.

"William. . . . Normally I'd be overjoyed at seeing you but. . . Why are you here? I thought you would be away on business type things whatever they were called." Grell says waving his hand about in an offhand gesture as if to state what he meant. "But you've never done this before, its. . . . Different."

"Grell. . . . I simply hugged you because I know about Sebastian and Ciel. I gave the hug because I thought you looked sad." William says his voice a matter of fact about the situation which made Grell sigh inwardly his face taking on a faint pouting look as he listened to William talk and his mind all but drifted off on its own but he tried to make it look like he was paying attention to whatever William was saying. He wanted something new. Something different to him, but he wasn't sure what it was that he wanted and he didn't know if he would ever really find it but he hoped he did so this longing and wishing for something would go away. It was only then that he realized that William had stopped talking and was looking at Grell his brow furrowed deeply a soft frown on his face making him look angry. Grell backed up out of the mans arms hesitantly staring at him his green eyes a little wide.

"I'm sorry William, I just. . . . Can't focus tonight and I'm so lost in my thoughts. . . . I'm sorry." Grell stammers out softly looking down feeling guilty and shameful that he hadn't been paying any attention to William's words at all. He kept looking down until William's hand grabbed Grell's chin tilting the man's head back far enough so that he had no where to look other than William's grim face and bright green eyes. He leaned in closer and closer to Grell until their faces and lips were just a hair length away from one another's as Grell felt the blush crawling up his neck to his cheeks turning them into a fire ball red as his eyes widened into moons for the thousandth time that night as he stared at William. "W-William. . .?"

William began leaning in further his lips just barely touch Grell's when a loud noise made him jump back quickly his own green eyes wide with what he had just been about to do as he stared at Grell before turning and running leaving Grell there feeling more confused than ever and he went to the one place he began to enjoy more and more and the most closest person to Grell. The Undertaker. He ran as fast as he could to the Undertakers place the heat in his cheeks dying down and he stood in front off the Undertakers place that began feeling like he was going home every night he came here and right as he walked up to the front door it swung open and he was welcomed with a tight embrace from the Undertaker and it made Grell smile. He hugged the man back closing his eyes his red thick lashes resting on his cheeks and he squeezed the Undertaker gently before pulling back slightly so he could look into the face of the Undertaker. Besides the man's long white thick hair, the hair that hung in front of his eyes if he pushed that hair away, so his eyes would show, that man would be the most beautiful yet sexy thing Grell would or could witness other than Sebastian and its probably why Grell almost ached to see the Undertakers eyes again it was strange to him but he pushed it away as he and the Undertaker walked into the place and then the Undertaker pushed his hair out of his face his eyes showing and he walked over to Grell sitting on a coffin looking at the red haired man and Grell saw an almost soft tender look in the man's beautiful eyes and face as he stared at Grell.

"So Grell what did you do tonight?" The Undertaker says softly but it sounded loud in the quiet place and Grell smiled softly sitting down on his own coffin he knew he would be sleeping in for the night.

"Well. . . . I went to the Phantomhive manor today."

"Oh really?"

"Yes. . . ." Grell says quietly looking down his hands clenched together in his lap that shook very faintly and he felt the faint burn of tears.

"Well you seem distressed please take rest and I'll look after everything and then I'll be retiring for the night." The undertaker says it softly almost like a comforting coo to Grell then leaned down kissing his cheek softly making him blush bright looking after the Undertaker as he walked away when Grell climbed into his soft comfortable coffin bed closing the top as he enclosed himself in utter darkness and closed his eyes again. He hoped he found the source as too what he was longing for and he hoped it was soon and that he wouldn't be looking for it, for too long cause if it is Grell was sure he'd go crazy from the loneliness and longing for what he can't have and that's so out of reach.