Hey guys!!!!!!!!!!!!
i hope everyone had a lovely Christmas and New Years!:)
i had this story in my head and had to post it. i hope everyone likes it.
xo
A Letter to my Alpha, Friend & Love
Dear Jacob,
I remember exactly when you became my Alpha then after awhile you became my friend and then what I believed would never happen happened. I fell in love with you. even after everything that I've been through, first with Sam, then me becoming a wolf, my dad dying and then me having to watch you go through what I did, getting your heart torn apart.
I felt my heart break for a second time as I stayed by your side. But then you left Sam's pack and took on your rightful role as Alpha, and to protect Bella and her bloodsucking family no less. I couldn't and still don't understand why you did it. You said it's because she was your friend but I reckon she's just a spoilt brat. Even though I absolutely hate Bella it was worth it to get away from Sam's and the others heads.
And by being in your pack my heart began to repair itself. Including the parts that Sam broke. You became my friend after awhile, and it was nice to have someone to hang out with who didn't call me a bitch or a bitter harpy. With this in mind you consumed my thoughts. But what hurts me is that you didn't notice my love for you before you imprinted. Every time I saw you I wanted to run into your arms and never let go. But once you imprinted on that half-breed it was her who got to be held in your arms. and that really hurt.
I blame all the shitty things that have happened to me on Bella and the Cullen's. If Bella had never of moved to Forks you wouldn't have fallen in love with her and wouldn't of had your heart broken. But also if the Cullen's hadn't of moved here I would most likely be married and be able to have kids, my dad would still be alive and I wouldn't be transforming into a bloody wolf. I would never admit this to anyone, but the Cullen's also brought me some happiness. I got to get away from Sam's and the others horrible thoughts, and I got to fall in love with you. And I'll never forget it.
I wrote this letter mostly to just get it out, I really needed to tell someone before I go. And I thought the best person would be you since you are the one I'm I love with.
By the time you get this letter I'll be far away from La Push… and you. I don't know how I'll be without getting to see you in person all the time. Mum and Seth are the only people who I said goodbye to in person but I didn't tell them where I'm going, because even I'm not too sure. I hope you have a happy life and I hope that I do, but if not I guess I'll just keep searching until I'm happy enough to actually make something of myself.
Anyway all I want to say is that I LOVE YOU and I always will.
All my love
Leah xxx ( your Beta)
She never slows down
she doesn't know why, but she knows
that when she's all alone, feels like
its all coming down.
she won't turn around
the shadows are long and she fears
if she cries that first tear
the tears will not stop raining down.
sooo what did everyone think?
please review and let me know what you think.
xo :)
