Rose POV

"Hey Liss, what's up?" Liss was looking like hell, literally. She turned to me with puffy eyes that had bags under them. Shit. She's been crying, how come I didn't know through the bond?

"What happened Liss? Why were you crying?" the mental block she had been holding up crumbled and a wave of emotions came over me. Guilt. Ashamed. Sorry. Sad.

That's when I figured out what happened, along with the emotions came memories of what had happened last night and this morning. Shit. Christian had accidentally walked in on Adrian and Liss.

"Liss what the fuck! How could you do that?!" What the fuck! How could she do that to Christian after all they've been through she does this? Unbelievable. This was so not like Lissa and I knew she was prone to compulsion.

"Look, we were both drunk I didn't know what was happening." She started pleading, but I wasn't the one that was hurt, Christian was. Sure, I was disappointed in her and pissed as hell that she would do this, but I wasn't the one that was really hurt out of this. I guess I should go find him.

"You fucked up real big this time Lissa. Just don't talk to me for a while, okay" I wasn't yelling at her, I had a calm voice on somehow, but I didn't wait for her reaction, I got up and walked out of the room.

Right, now if I was Christian where in the world would I be? His room maybe?

I walked to the moroi dorms in a hurry to find him, but no such luck. He wasn't there. Okay, let's think the church attic maybe? I started walking to the church hoping he'd be there, but what would I say? I'm sorry my best-friend fucked up big-time or I'm sorry you walked in on them, I'm sure it was nothing.

And while I was waking up the stairs to the church I saw Adrian. Please god, let him not see me. Please god, let him not see me. Please god, let him not see me.

"Rose!" Adrian called. I turned around I mustered up the worst death glare I could. If only looks could kill, I'd be as happy as hell right now if they could. He was smiling. He was fucking smiling! Did he not remember what happened last night? Was he trying to be killed?

"Fuck off Adrian" I said and turned around heading into the church. I knew that if I talked to him for at least 10 seconds I would quite possibly strangle him to no end.

He grabbed my hand pulling me back outside. "What's wrong?" yep, I'm going to strangle him. I was already pissed and now I was super pissed.

"What's wrong? You seriously have to ask that? Are you really that stupid that you don't know?" how dumb could one person be, seriously?

"No, I don't know and I'm not that stupid, you should give me some credit. I may not go to school anymore but I probably know more than most people, maybe even you." I'm going to punch him soon, he seriously thinks that nothing's wrong. This was about him more than me anyway. How could he not know? And he said he was smart, he could quite possibly be the stupidest person I've ever met.

"Adrian, you know more than me but not in the way you think" I was fighting to keep my calm voice throughout our conversation. He raised his eyebrows. God, not in that way you stupid idiot! Get your mind out of the gutter! Jesus Christ.

"About what happened last night" I looked back up to him. He looked guilty for a second but then it was gone. He swallowed, looked around and then focused his eyes back on me.

"Look, what happened with Lissa, it meant nothing okay? I don't really care for her that way, you know that. Things just got out of hand, I barely knew what I was doing." Yeah, right.

"You're a lying piece of shit, you know that right? You knew exactly what you were doing but you did it anyway! You didn't care what would happen if you did! You did it anyway despite what would have happened if you did! You don't give a shit about anyone but yourself-"He cut me off from my ranting right when I was going to hit home.

"I do care about other people especially you!-"

"Bullshit, you're a fucking royal; it's practically in your blood! Do you even know what you've done? You've ruined Christian without a though to spare!-"

"Since when did you give a fuck about him?" We were both screaming at each other now and I was pretty sure the whole school would be able to hear us.

"I care about other people unlike your royal fucking-"He cut me off again.

"I care about you! Can't you see that? The only reason I stayed was because of you!" Bull-fucking-shit. He didn't stay here for me, he probably stayed for her!

"You stayed here so you could fuck Lissa! And fuck up Christian! Don't fucking lie to me!" God, help me not punch him. God, help me not punch him. God, help me not punch him.

"I didn't want that to happen! I was hoping you wouldn't find out so it wouldn't fuck up the way you thought about me! I was drunk Rose! Please, we can just forget about this, please!" his eyes were tearing up now. But really? He thinks I'm just going to forget about this whole thing because I said it was a mistake?

"Adrian I don't give a fuck if you were drunk or not what happened happened you can't just forget about things! You fucked up Adrian!" I wanted so badly to punch him right now and just walk inside the church and find Christian. But yet I remained standing because Adrian had to realize just how much he fucked everything up.

"I know I fucked up! I'm trying to say sorry if you'd just let me-"I cut him off. He wasn't going to get forgiveness from me today or any other day. Hell, I didn't know if I ever wanted to speak to him again, no one has ever pissed me off this much before.

"You're not getting forgiveness from me! I'm not the one you hurt, remember? Christian?"

"Rose, I know I hurt you too otherwise you wouldn't be yelling right now! I can see it in your face how much you hate me right now! I'm sorry!"

"You can take your sorry and shove it up your-"

"Rose it's not all his fault" The voice that spoke came from Lissa.

"Sorry for the mistake Vasilissa" yep, that was it. I was pretty sure what it meant when I called her Vasilissa. It meant that we were no longer friends. I just couldn't stand looking at her anymore. The thought of what she'd done made me want to puke.

"Rose please, it was just a stupid mistake. I can't stand losing you! Not from a mistake that happened while I was drunk!"

"Drunk? You two keep saying that like it means something, like it's a fucking excuse for what you did but it isn't. It's two royals not giving a shit who they hurt." They hurt Christian and now I'm hurting them. They're the ones who fucked up. They're the ones who should pay the price, not us.

"Rose, please." She was crying now. Quite frankly I didn't give a shit if she was crying or not, the answer was still the same. I turned my face onto her, glaring at her with my now icy eyes.

"I'm sorry I cannot forgive you princess" imitating formal speak. I was making sure she knew I hated her right now. There was no way I was going to turn my head and just forgive her. I'm not the one she should be saying sorry to.

"Rose, I love you and I'm sorry for what happened. It was a big mistake" ha-ha, right. I turned my face back to Adrian. He has some fucking nerve saying that shit.

"Yes, you love me so much you had to fuck my best-friend" Note the sarcasm.

"Rose, I didn't want to do that-"

"Yet, you did, so why don't you just leave me the fuck alone and shut the fuck up?" I didn't say it like a question but he answered it anyway.

"I can't stand having you hate me" too bad.

"Well I do" it's as simple as that. "Bye"

I walked into the church and I noticed that it was completely deserted. I wonder if Christians even here. I started walking up the stairs to the attic when I heard movement that sounded like footsteps. I walked through the door to find Christian huddled in a corner. Wow, he might be crying. Shit, he must be really upset.

"Christian?" god, I hope he's alright. I'll kill Lissa if he's hurt himself in any way. When I said his name he looked up at me. His eyes were puffy and red but he looked pissed as hell.

"What do you want Rose?" not bothering to look at me.

"I wanted to see if you were okay" he looked up at me with a questionable look.

"I know you don't actually care so you can just go down and talk to Lissa and Adrian about how happy you are that she finally got rid of me" what? He thought I was happy about what had happened? Jeez, guys can be so dumb.

I walked over to where he sat and sat beside him." Christian I know that we've never particularly been best-friends. But Lissa really hurt in a way that I can never forgive her for, I mean you loved her so much and what she did to you is well-disgusting really. And what pisses me off is that she keeps saying that she was drunk or that it was a mistake and I don't think she grasps that she did it on her own free will, that no-one was forcing her to. I swear I'm going to rip Adrian's head off too, he had no idea what I was going on about until I started being blunt. And he said he was smart." I said shaking my head. Throughout my rant I had begun rubbing his arm trying to sooth his pain.

"Rose you have no idea what it felt like to walk in on them, I think I could literally hear my heart break" His voice trembled when he said it. I pulled him in close, hugging him tightly and rubbing him soothingly. I just hoped I was making this better and not worse, he's already been through enough shit in his life.

"It'll be okay. It'll be okay" I kept repeating the words willing them to come to. Any idiot knows things don't change overnight. I just wanted Christian to be okay. I hated what Vasilissa had done to him. Why was she drunk anyway? And why was she in Adrian' room to start off with? Ugh, I hate her so fucking much right now. I bet she wasn't even drunk.

"Are you okay Christian?" I asked after a few minutes of just holding onto him.

"Not really, Rose. Have you spoken to her at all?" yeah, neither of us wanted to say her name right now because I was sure we'd just get pissed off.

"Well, kind off. I did speak to both of them a tiny bit." Yeah, more like screamed at both of them not talking.

"What did you say?" he groaned. I wasn't really sure if he wanted the answer to his question but, well he did ask.

"Well, I saw princess this morning and I found out what had happened through the bond and told her not to talk to me. Then while I was walking over here to find you Adrian called out to me and we-umm-well, we-kinda talked—"

"What do you mean, kinda?" isn't he a curious one, huh.

"He asked why I was pissed off so I told him" I spoke really quickly so that maybe he wouldn't question the told.

"Told? You mean screamed?" well watta-ya-know it's a smart male.

"Did you hear me?" he might've, since the whole school pretty much had.

"Nah, you always scream at people when you're pissed" eh, it was probably true but at least this time it was in his defence.

"I wasn't screaming at the start and I was pissed off" he laughed. It felt good to hear it considering the circumstances.

I was getting pulled into that bitch's head. She was in Adrian's room and they were—

Oh, fuck no. I pulled myself into my own head" I have to go Christian I just remembered something, but I'll be back later okay." And I started running towards the guests dorms. That fucking liar of a son of a fucking bitch! Ugh. This whole time they were lying about being drunk and saying it was a mistake. I'm going to fucking kill them!

I was running right for his room and swung the door open making a noise when it hit the wall. Sure enough there they were on his bed not exactly in a normal seating position might I just add. I shook my head; I knew for sure they weren't drunk, I could tell through the bond. Shock ran through me from her body. She obviously forgot about the bond and that I knew what she'd be doing.

"Rose, it's not what you—"Adrian started to say.

"Think? I think you've been doing this for a while behind his back and not giving a shit. I also think you're both just like any other royal" I spat the royal part out. They were speechless and they didn't even bother to move from their position which pissed me off even more." What? You're not going to even bother to move? I mean that little to you. Well then have fun." I turned around and stared walking to the church when I felt a hand grab my arm and spin me around to look at them.

"Rose, Lissa's really shook up about losing you and Christian—"

"It's her fault and that doesn't mean you have to have your way with her again" he took a deep breath as I tried to turn away again.

"Rose we're really sorry and we thought that this would be the only way you'd talk to us freely" pfft.

"So you kissed her so I would scream at you? Nice excuse—"

"It's not an excuse, Rose. We just want to talk to you—"

"Then talk" I'm not buying his story but I figured I'd listen to what he had to say anyway.

"Okay. Well, then. We were practicing spirit when I accidentally bumped into her and we fell onto the floor, nothing actually happened, Rose." Ha-aha I can't believe he wanted me to believe that.

"If nothing had happened you would have said that earlier" I stated. Did he really think I was going to fall for his excuse?

"I said it was a mistake as in you've made a mistake, not that it was a mistake. I would never do that kind of thing with her when I have you" God, he can be hilarious sometimes. Everyone knows Adrian as a man-whore for Christ's sake.

"I still know what I saw just then and I'm not going to buy your story because Christians not stupid and neither am I" looking at him made me feel sick. Why couldn't he just own up to it? I saw it with my own eyes and that was enough without him saying he hadn't done it.

"But it's the tru—"

"No it's not. How on Earth could you know if I would come or not?" I asked waiting for his reaction.

"Because Lissa has been your Best-friend since you were five. She knows you inside and out and—"

"If she knew me she'd know not to talk to me right now so that just proved you're lying about everything and you were actually just having your way with her right now. You should stop lying to everyone around you Adrian; it's not healthy for you. Tell Vasilissa that I never want to talk to her again—"

"You don't understand Rose! I fucking love you! I was just trying to get you to talk to me! I know what it looked like but it wasn't real! I don't like her, I only want you! And don't fucking say that I'm lying or that I'm royal because it's the fucking truth!" He screamed at me. There were tears starting to form in his eyes from emotion. Shit. Now he's making me feel guilty.

I hadn't noticed until he spoke but Christian was standing right beside me looking pissed off. "We can tell that your fucking lying so don't bother. I know that you don't want to lose Rose but you might have already had" he said flatly. He was lying? Right, I knew that. Ahhh, fuck I hate him so much, trying to make me guilty for his own fucking fault the fucking—

"I'm not lying Christian and it has nothing to do with you" his eye's glared at Christians in an unnerving way.

"It does have something to do with me because I care about her unlike you who keeps on lying to her over and over again. What do you thinks going to happen? She's just going to forgive? C'mon were talking about Rose not just another one of those girls you fuck and then leave in the morning." Well I can honestly say I didn't see that coming since he's never been the least polite to me but oh well.

I opened my mouth to speak but Adrian started talking, cutting me off. "I know it's Rose and I'm not treating her like that—"

"So you admit you do that? That's gotta be really reassuring for Rose don't you think. Finding out the guy who's trying to tell her he loves her is an absolute fuckhead"Adrian's head snapped up and was looking down on Christian.

"This has absolutely nothing to do with you so back off!" Adrian yelled at Christian pulling me to his side.

"She doesn't want to have anything to do with you!" I felt like saying that she does have a name but I felt that maybe now wasn't the best time.

"You have no idea how she feels. Just because you told her your sad story doesn't mean she wants anything to do with you!" Adrian stated gripping me tighter to his side.

Adrian actually thought that I had already forgiven him but really I wasn't the one who needs to forgive, Christian was. Christian was in pain right now and needed someone to talk to and she has Adrian so why would I just turn my head away from Christian when he needed me?

Christian looked at me "Have you already forgiven him?" He asked incredibly with his eye's wide.

"No. I haven't forgiven either of them for what they did and they keep making sorry excuses to explain what they did." The last sentence I said was directed to Adrian implying that I never actually had a second thought about what he'd done with her.

"You see, Adrian, she's not like the other girl's you fuck over. She can think for herself and she's not stupid." Christian said pulling me to his side away from Adrian.

"I know. I'm not trying to control her I'm just trying to talk to her alone so she'll understand—"

"I understand perfectly. You're royal and so is she and you don't give a fuck who you hurt. It's not like it hasn't happened before; it happens all the time." I said, finally speaking up to my defence. Adrian turned his face to me, looking intently into my eyes.

"You really think I would do that? That I would turn my back and go with Lissa? You're wrong. I'm not really like that, I care about you! This is just a misunderstanding, Rose!" he pleaded, reaching for my hand but another hand was too fast for him to hold it.

"Keep your hands away from her!" Christian growled, pushing me behind him. Shit. This might turn into a fight.

"Christian, c'mon, let's just go. It doesn't matter anymore he knows what he did." I said pulling at his hand, tugging him away from Adrian.

Christian turned slowly away from Adrian and started walking beside me in silence. His hand was still locked in mine while we sped away, walking fast to get away from Adrian. He started heading us towards the Dhampir dorms. I knew we were heading to my room but I was surprised that Christian was going there with me.

We were outside my door when he asked, "Can we talk inside?" still looking straight ahead.

"Yeah, sure." I opened the door to my small room which had no chairs or tables. All I had was a bed, couch and T.V. I turned the light on and turned back to the door where Christian was walking through.

"Rose, can I ask you a question?" he asked while he shifted his feet uncomfortably. His eyes were on the floor showing that he was all of the sudden shy.

"What is it?" I wondered what the hell Christian would be worried or shy about, he nearly was never shy.

"Well, since I'm not with Lissa anymore does that mean we're not friends either?" Ha. I wasn't talking to her either which would mean that it was really just me and him now.

"Christian, I'm not talking to Lissa either, so I have no idea why you'd think we wouldn't be friends." He looked up and smiled. Yes, folks, Christian actually smiled at me. It must be the end of the world or something.

The weird part was that he was smiling because I said that we would still be friends even though, before today, we never really were. We usually always fighting with each other and pissing each other off. Today had changed a lot of things though. The way I thought about Vasilissa and Adrian, the way I saw Christian.

"Thanks Rose. Are you ever going to talk to Lissa again?" hmm. I have no idea. I was still mad at her but I don't think I would be forever. What would happen to Christian if I forgave her?

"I don't know. I'm still pissed at her and Adrian for what they did. I can't believe they started to do it again!" Shit. I blurted the last part out accidentally forgetting that he didn't know why I had ran out on him and over there in the first place.

"What?!" He bellowed.

"Nothing, Christian. I didn't say anything." I turned around trying to hide my face before he could tell that I was lying. I didn't want Christian to be anymore angry at Adrian or upset at Lissa for what happened without there being a second time.

"Yes, you did Rose. You said 'I can't believe they started to do it again!' They were about to do it when you ran out of the church weren't they? You stopped them though and he started to tell you lies again didn't he? Rose? Rose?" I turned back to face him with a sympathetic face that showed that I had walked in on them and that I felt sorry for what Lissa had done to him.

"I'm sorry Christian, I have no idea why she's doing—"

"It's because she loves him not me." He said roughly and looked away and explained. "You know that I had always suspected something Rose, you just never thought anything of it because she learned how to block you away mentally without you knowing. She told me she could block you but I had no idea why she would want to. I guess I know why now, so she could be with Adrian secretly without either one of us knowing." I was speechless. Christian actually made sense and it could be true I just didn't want to admit it because Lissa had been my Best-friend since I was five and she had never even remotely done something like this before and I was surprised she'd do it with Adrian of all people. She'd told me that she loved Christian countless amount of times but not once had I seen her interested at all in Adrian.

I didn't know why she would do something like this, she was always a nice person who would never want to hurt a person intentionally, yet she'd done this behind everyone's back without thinking about who she was hurting.

She deserved to be hurt. She deserved the pain of losing people over this because I was nearly certain I never wanted to speak to her or Adrian again. Ever.

I was staring at Christian with a blank look on my face when he had turned back to me. I blinked and composed my face again back to its normal appearance.

"Oh. Guess you didn't know that part of the story. I only figured it out because she was always so happy around him. She could hide her feelings and emotions from you without you knowing so she could get away with it." He explained slowly drawing deep breaths.

I guess it did make sense to some degree since I had been able to learn how to block out her feelings. Lissa had gone out of her way to deceive both Christian and me.

I could feel my eyes drooping and starting to get heavy so I had asked Christian if we could sit on the bed to be more comfortable. I turned to Christian but he spoke before I could open my mouth.

"You don't have to hate Liss because of me, you know. I'm used to being alone." He whispered looking down at the floor while he fidgeted with his hands.

"Christian you're not the only one that's been hurt and it's not like I'm just going to walk away from you when you need someone to talk to." Even though Christian would never admit to it, we both knew he needed someone to talk to.

He reached over and took my hand "Thanks Rose. I just don't know why she wouldn't have broken-up with me first." He shrugged pulling his legs up so he was sitting on the bed. "She's just made it hard to believe that she actually had loved me to some degree. It's like I didn't even matter to her she just didn't want to say the words." Christian's voice was rough with thick emotion he was trying to hide from me.

I pulled jerked my legs up and knelt on the small bed and hugged him to me. I could feel his silent tears coming down from his face, into the crook of my neck. I tightened my hold on him and buried my face into his hair and started rubbing his back in small circles. "It's alright Christian, you have to let it all out sometime." I told him soothingly as he started to sob. I'd never really been all that nice to Christian but seeing him like this over something my friend did, made me angry. I wouldn't let my anger get to me because of my friends behaviour, all I could do now was hold Christian and tell him it'd get better and that the pain goes away.

We eventually broke apart, both of us looking like hell. "You're a good friend Rose." He whispered, half-hugging me.

I started to lie down and I was surprised when he did the same. I yanked the only pillow on my bed down so that we could lay our heads on it. I closed my eyes listening to the slow beating of both our hearts.

I woke up hours later to banging on my door. "What the fuck" I muttered as I jumped up from the bed to open the door.

Adrian was at the door, drunk as usual but looking worse than I had ever seen. I bet you could smell the alcohol on him from a mile away. "Rosie, I missed you so much!" he nearly yelled while he threw himself in front of me in an attempt of a hug.

"Adrian, get the fuck out of here." I murmured, starting to close the door but his foot was in the doorway making it impossible.

"No Rosie-Posie I came to say sorry for what I did." he looked back into the hallway "Can I come in, Rosie?" Adrian asked while stepping in to my room uninvited.

Christian had woken up and walked up to stand beside me so Adrian was blocked from coming into the room. "Get out!" Christian growled at Adrian who was standing there dumbfounded, looking from me to Christian and then me again.

"Rose? Why is he here." He pointed at Christian and then let his arm fall.

"Because he needs someone to talk to and it has absolutely nothing to do with you so GET OUT!" I all but screamed at him. He has no right at all for being upset because Christian was in my bedroom.

"Rosie I'm the one that's supposed to be in here not him." He pointed at Christian again.

"Since when!" I wasn't the one to speak this time, Christian was. I looked at Christian and sure enough he looked furious. "You can't tell her what to do! She doesn't want you or anyone else in here!" Christian hissed so that no-one who was sleeping in the dorms would wake up.

Adrian took a few deep breaths before speaking again. "Please Rose I need to talk to you." He pleaded looking miserable, his eyes were boring into mine and his forehead was crumpled. There was no way that I was going to talk to Adrian about what happened when he was drunk because he would least-likely remember even seeing me when he woke up.

"Fuck off Adrian and get out." To my surprise he stepped out of the doorway and walked away. I breathed in shaky breaths as I turned my body to face Christians.

He reached out and closed the door and led us both back to the bed. He pushed me down on the edge of the bed as he sat beside me. He moved his fingers through my hair slowly holding me next to him.

"What are you thinking about?" I asked him, pulling back so that I could look at him. His brow was furrowed and his lips had a slight curve.

"I don't like how Adrian always just expects you to do whatever he wants. He expects you to just forgive and forget. I don't know how you think of that Rose but most people don't just forget about stuff like that." He said earnestly looking at me straight in the eyes.

"I can't forgive them Christian." I whispered and withdrawed from his grasp. I moved to the middle of the bed where the only pillow was situated. I lay down on my back and stared at the ceiling, watching the fan rotate around and around.

We both lay in silence and fell asleep until the sun went down.

--

I woke up to the sound of my alarm going of and jumped out of bed to get changed. I wore the usual guardian uniform- which was all black- and kept my hair down. I walked back into the main room and saw that Christian was already dressed and waiting for me.

"You ready?" he asked opening the door.

"Yep." I answered my voice tight. I didn't know what I was going to say if I saw Lissa and Adrian together. The Rose I know would go ballistic, but the Rose right now that didn't want to talk to them, decided I would just ignore them if I had to.

We walked into the cafeteria where I noticed Adrian, Lissa, Mia and Eddie. Adrian and Lissa were sitting next to each other but they were far apart, practically sitting on the edges of their seats. Mia and Eddie were involved in their own conversation and were oblivious to the tension between Adrian and Lissa. Lissa was staring blankly around until she caught our eye and whispered something to Adrian. Adrian replied with a short nod and looked over to us, his eyes rested on me and then he glared at Christian's hand that was intertwined with mine.

Christian started to pull us in the opposite direction of Adrian but I pulled back harder and walked us over to where they sat. Me and a reluctant Christian sat down next to each other refusing to take a peak at either Adrian or Lissa. Mia and Eddie had been talking about Guardian training and I joined in the conversation quietly.

Christian hadn't said a word since we had sat down so I refocused my attention him. He had been staring straight ahead and he looked miserable. I felt guilty for making him sit here with me but he had to know that he had to face her sooner or later. He looked at me with a painful look and I was about to ask if he wanted to leave but I noticed that Adrian and Lissa weren't here anymore.

"Where'd Liss go?" I asked rather bleakly.

"They went up to Adrian's room." He said through gritted teeth while he faced away so I couldn't look at his expression. I guessed his face would've exposed what I knew he felt inside. Anguish. Agony. Hatred. Pain.

Of course I already knew how he felt and what it did feel like but he never shows it in public, he tries to keep his emotions bottled up. I've learned that if you suppress your feelings for a long time you'll snap at the smallest of things and your emotions boil over and get the best of you, this was why I was trying to get through to Christian, I was trying to get him to talk instead of keeping it all pent up.

But there was no way I was going to let Lissa just act like nothing had happened between her and Christian and just fall over Adrian in front of him.

I got up from my seat and ignored Christian who was calling my name. I raced over to Adrian's room and knocked on the door viciously nearly breaking it down. It had been 30 seconds and no-one had answered so I opened the door to see Adrian with a bottle in his hand while he cried loud enough for me to hear.

"Go away Liss you're just going to make things worse. You've already fucked up things with me and Rose." He mumbled and took a swig of his drink before looking over to where I stood speechless.

"I-umm-I just-I was-erm." I was literally speechless. Adrian Ivashkov was actually crying. And over me! I had a lump at the back off my throat that refused to go away. Tears were welling up in my eyes for what I thought was the first time in my life.

"Rose?" he asked and I nodded blinking back my tears that were on the verge of escaping.

"Can we talk?" he asked his voice breaking and he wiped away his tears. I sat down on his couch and rested my hands in my lap. "What do you need to talk about?"

"What happened the other night. Rose I'm so, so, so, sorry." He pleaded with me over and over again. The only thing that my body was capable of doing in response was run.

I was running so fast with tears streaming down my face that I hadn't noticed when Christian was running towards me as fast as he could and was asking me what was wrong but all I did was shake my head and cried while he held me to him.

Christian POV

I started walking back to rose's room when I saw her running across the field crying. I had never seen Rose cry in her life which obviously meant that something bad had happened. I swear if Adrian had hurt her at all I'll rip of his head.

"Rose, what's wrong? Rose?" All she did was shake her head as she cried into my shoulder. We stayed like that for a few minutes before she mumbled Adrian's name into my shirt. Fuck. Adrian had said something bad to her I was sure of it.

"Rose, c'mon, tell me what happened, why are you upset?" I asked her breathing into her hair. She turned her head to the side so she could speak clearly.

"He was crying." Rose said breaking into another round of sobs. So she had spoken to him. It wasn't the way I had expected but I was still mad at him. He hurt her and now he keeps hurting her.

"Rose, go back to your room I need to do something." Rose looked up at me questioningly. "Go." I told her heading her in the right direction.

When she was out of sight, I turned on my heel and started jogging over to Adrian's room. I knocked on the door but instead of waiting for him to answer it I opened it without invitation. He was sitting on the couch with bottles all around him. Fucking alcoholic. He was hurting everyone and used this as an excuse.

"We need to talk Adrian. Now." I didn't give him a second to reply as I went on saying, "You keep hurting Rose and I'm sick of it. Stay away from her. You'll keep on hurting her and the more you do the more she'll hate you and so will I." I quickly said making sure he heard every word I had said.

He looked up and whispered, "I don't want to hurt Rose. I don't know if she hates me or not because she doesn't talk to me. She only talks to you about this." The last part was true for both me and Rose. We had only talked to each other because we were the only two people that had been hurt and knew what had happened.

"Just don't talk to her. You're only going to hurt her again and if you do I'll kill you." Though I hadn't really meant kill only to hurt, I knew he wouldn't go near Rose now. He saw how much I cared about her now and every time he fucks up I'll be the one cleaning up the mess and comforting her.

Adrian nodded and I walked out heading to Rose's room. Everyone was looking at me while I raced through the corridors, they must have seen or heard what happened. Rose was still crying as I knocked on the door. I opened it and saw that she was in the middle of the room with her hands glued on her face. She was curled up in a ball and her hair was fanning around her head.

I marched over to Rose and put my hands around her waist and puller her onto my lap. I stroked her hair and held her close to me whispering "It's not your fault Rose, don't worry" over and over again in my attempt to calm her down and have her in a fixed state. I rocked her back and forth, holding her tightly, wishing she would stop crying over that idiot. He had no idea what he gave up, I mean sure, he was trying to get her back and shit but I wouldn't let him get to her easily.

She laid her head on my shoulder as she cried her heart out endlessly. I wiped away her tears and kissed her on her forehead. "Rose, its okay. It'll be fine. Everything's fine." I told her hoping it would calm her down.

Her tears had stopped falling and she looked up into my eyes. Her eyes were red and bloodshot. She looked pale as though she was sick and her hair was sticking all over the place. "I know but sometimes I just break down." Rose had just admitted she broke down sometimes, which was weird since it was Rose but I guess we had actually grown close after what had happened. Adrian had hurt Rose and Lissa had hurt me. Lissa had probably hurt Rose too but not ion the same way of course, they had been best friends since they were five though, so you could understand how Rose was upset about what had happened. Lissa had lied to both of us, over and over again so she could have her little affair with the person who was supposed to be in love with Rose.

They way Rose looked; it was the only thing that could make me even more angry at them. She looked like hell and I'm guessing she's feeling like it too. She looked worse than I had when I had my little breakdown. I hadn't expected Rose to actually come and find me to comfort me, but I guess I never really paid that much attention to what Rose was really doing.

Rose was actually the prettiest girl I had ever seen. She can be a bitch sometimes but it's for a reason. Rose isn't fake either, she's upfront about what she thinks and feels. I loved that about her, she doesn't lie unless she's forced to.

"C'mon we'll go for a walk." She interjected my thoughts of her as she pulled me up from the floor. God, she was strong, but then again all Dhampir's were. We walked out of the room with our hands in each others, it felt good and I had no idea why. I couldn't like Rose could I? Sure she was good-looking but she's going through shit right now and I'm not going to ruin that.

"I don't know what's going to happen for graduation anymore. I don't exactly want to be Lissa's guardian anymore. If I don't get assigned to Lissa I don't know who I'll get, and if I get Jesse I'll kill him." She probably would kill him too. What if Rose had got assigned to Lissa? I would probably never see Rose again and Rose wouldn't want to be her guardian even though I know she would try her best to protect her no matter how bad things had gotten.

"What if you do get assigned to Lissa?" I asked her, curious for her answer.

"I'd still protect her Christian; it would just be a job though nothing more. I don't really talk to her anymore besides when I'm yelling at Adrian who's right beside her." She shook her head thing about the guy who supposably loved her.

"Do you think you'll ever be friends with them again" I took her hand and pulled her in front of me. I looked down to watch the words form on her lips.

"No." She whispered, looking down and fidgeting with her fingers. She looked so cute right now I just had to touch her. I brushed my fingers against her cheek and down her jaw-line. Shit, we both knew this wasn't exactly a friendly gesture so I pulled my hand back to my side where I wished it had stayed. She looked away nervously and her eyes went round at what was standing a few metres away from where we were standing.

It was Adrian. Shit. Why did I have to do that? Why do I always act before thinking? Why does everything always have to be fucked up around me? Probably because I fuck it up, but still, it was started to get really annoying.

I reluctantly turned my gaze on a really pissed off Adrian. He looked like he was going to kill me. It wasn't like they were ever together. He had only ever liked her. He'd hurt her, so why was he so pissed about it. I had only barely touched her.

"What the fuck was that, Christian?" he yelled stepping closer.

"What was what?" Pretending I didn't know what he was angry about was probably the stupidest thong to do.

"TOUCHING HER!" he screamed standing right in front of me. Rose was behind him pulling his hand back and whispering to him softly.

"Were friends."

"THAT'S NOT WHAT FRIENDS DO! DON'T TOUCH HER LIKE THAT! EVER!" FUCKING IDIOT. He thinks he owns her or something. Dickhead.

"YOU DON'T OWN HER; SHE CAN DO WHATEVER SHE WANTS WITH HER BODY!" I yelled back at him releasing some of the anger I was keeping bottled up.

"I KNOW THAT. YOU CAN'T TOUCH HER!" What the fuck? He was controlling me now?

"IT'S GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU!" The voice had come from behind Adrian. It was the first thing Rose had said throughout our screaming. Adrian had looked over his shoulder to look at her.

"Rose, I love you, don't you understand that?"

"Don't you understand that we will never be together? I will never be friends with you and I'll never be friends with Lissa again. You're just like the rest of your family. You use people and then fuck them over. You and Lissa can have a happy life together, I don't care. I just don't—"

"I don't like her! I like you! I love you! What happened was a mistake and it will never happen again. I can't bear not having you in my life, I hate not talking to you." He was going to try and win her back now. I had to stop him; I can't have Rose go back to them.

"You hurt her Adrian, just give her some time." I said in an unnatural calm voice.

"JUST BECAUSE YOU LOVE ROSE NOW DOESN'T MEAN YOU CAN SPEAK FOR HER." Shit. Was I in love with her?

"He doesn't love me; he's just being a friend. He knows how I feel about you. How I hate you." Then she walked away without a second glace in our direction.

I was speechless; I never thought she would actually say that to his face then just walk away. This was Rose, she would always tell people the truth if they asked or pissed her off.

Adrian glared at me. If looks could kill I'd probably be dead. "What did she say to you?" if you ask me it was more of a demand then question.

"She never wants to be friends with you or Lissa again. Ever." It was the truth and I hoped it hurt him. She seemed to hate him, not as much as me though. I would kill him if I could but he was next in line for the throne, so I wouldn't kill our future King. I'd make his life hell though.

"Does she love you back?" Wow, where the fuck did that come from.

"I don't love her; I just care about her like a friend." Guess he doesn't know what it means to be nice to girls with good intentions.

He shook her head and walked past me, leaving me all alone in the hallway. I only cared about Rose in a friendly way. I hated what Adrian had done to her but it wasn't out of love, it was friendship. I cared about her, but not in that way.

I was slightly tired from the lack of sleep I had gotten throughout the last days. I felt like I was going to collapse so, for the first time in days I went to my bedroom. It was down the hall from Lissa's which used to be great, but now it was a big inconvenience. I didn't want to be near her.

I nearly knocked my door down and I ran over to my bad, collapsing.

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Someone was lightly knocking on my door. It was Rose.

"Hey, I just didn't want to go to breakfast alone." I nodded my head. I understood how she felt; yesterday I had been just like her. I hadn't wanted to talk to anyone but she and I knew she couldn't do this alone. She needed me to be there.

"C'mon then." It was all I said to her. She was a nervous wreck right now so I didn't want to set her off. I wouldn't make her cry or shed a tear. What had happened to her last night was heartbreaking. It was the saddest I'd ever seen Rose besides the times where people were downgrading her.

I won't let anything happen to her. She won't cry anymore. She won't feel sad anymore.

We were in the lunch area again where there stood Adrian. He turned away from us heading in the opposite direction. Guess he felt bad but he deserved it. I peaked at Rose out of the corner of my eye; she was looking at where he had departed. She stared after him, not noticing my intent gaze on her.

I pulled her down next to me. We were opposite to Eddie and Mia who I had nearly forgotten over the last few days. They were talking about graduation. I wish Rose didn't get assigned to Lissa. She'd hate that; instead she should get assigned to me. I'd be a better person to guard; I actually care about her unlike Lissa.

Lissa. She had just walked in and had started heading in out direction. My gaze fell on Rose who was probably feeling all the emotions that were surrounding Lissa.

"Rose, do you—" I was cut off by that fucking—

"Rose, can we talk?" her high pitched voice was like a screeching sound replaying in my head.

"No." she knew what she would say and she didn't want Lissa to waste her breath.