. Slapping the alarm. 'Yay, I didn't die in my sleep' she said sarcastically. After the ordeal she had last night and what she put him through she really wish she was dead. One panic attack after another, she stopped counting after 3. The first one all started with a simple text from him Okay if you need anything, I'll be here if you needed me… the thing is she did need him, more than ever. The way he was the only one she could trust, confess everything to. She told herself she didn't deserve him. He had her heart. Now if she could have his.
Dressing up for another day of school, faking happiness. Wearing a dark blue pair of maurices jeans, and nice flowery shirt, than his sweatshirt to cover it all up. Her dark Ombre hair goes straight to a pony, ashamed she spent the money just to throw it up. The only thing that makes her smile in the morning is spending those sweet 15 minutes of just sitting in his car, the holding of each other, the kisses that were stolen from her lips, 2 years of this wonderful thing in her life. It wasn't easy being her, she fought depression and anxiety, she would wake up thing that one day she wouldn't want to wake up. The only reason she does is because of him. She knows people think she is crazy for loving him this much but she doesn't care. He is her knight in shining armor, or camo sweatshirt.
She always had issues thinking what other people think of her, was she annoying, was she pretty to other people, was she that girl that everyone wanted to stay away from? When people in the hallways would laugh she automatically thought it was about her, was there something on her face?
Double looking in the mirror to check if she was okay. You could at least wear something else your fat is showing she thought. But it was too late she was off to school. Driving a 2003 Ford Escape down county road one was actually calm to her, she enjoyed the ride, she listened to the station, something about Miley Cyrus, suprise suprise, but she actually liked Miley for some odd reason.
"Hey. Its freezing out." said Byan.
"I know babe." She leaned in for a kiss hoping she would get one, he leaned in and gave her the electric feeling kiss.
"I love you Sam." those words made her heart melt.
"I love you too. How did you sleep last night?"
"I slept about you?"
Was she the reason he spelt okay "I have had better nights."
Those 15 minutes flew by next thing they were headed into the dark school to say their goodbyes until third period.
"Bye. I love you."
"Bye have fun, love you too."
Once again he made her heart melt by just say 2 out of those 3 words. This is what true love is suppose to be like she always told her self. Then it hit her, What If i do something to destroy this.
