"I'm a coward not a fighter, disguised as a lover, in disguise […]"
This Providence….
He woke up, and felt his head just about to explode, took a deep breath, lifted the sheets and sat on the corner of that queen sized bed, thinking what to do next, he opened the drawer and took a purple notebook and a pen, he looked for a comfortable position to write, and took a look at the man sleeping next to him, before sighing and focusing on what he wanted to say to him. With a frowned look, he wrote his first line, no greetings, no name, just feelings…
"I know I promised you a forever, but we both know it'll never come, you said everything would be fine, that no one would point us, but, who are we kidding, right? I'm leaving Gabey, I can't give you what you deserve, I'm not what you need, I've seen the way you look all the happy families when we go out, I can't give you that, I love you, more than everything, but this just can't be anymore, I'm a coward baby, want to know why? It's easy, if you look me with those charming eyes of yours I won't be able to let you go, to set you free, I know you'll find a beautiful girl, fall in love, and marry her"
A tear fell down and stained the letter, he tried to cleaned and continued writing.
"You're so gorgeous Gabriel, maybe you'll think I'm leaving you because I don't love you anymore, but the truth is, that I love you enough to look forward to your happiness, Good bye Gabbanti
Truly yours:
William Eugene Beckett (A.K.A Bilvy)"
He left the notebook on the bed and prepared to leave, trying to be as quiet as possible, sighed and opened the door, exiting the apartment, he truly wanted to leave, but something made him sit on the hall's floor, next to Gabe's door, he started sobbing quietly, until he hear a yell, it was Gabe, he was pretty mad, then the noise of things crashing and curses in Spanish scared William, when he prepared to leave, the door opened, and revealed a crying Gabe, when he saw William he opened his eyes in surprise – what the hell were you thinking Eugene? Oh, let me guess you weren't thinking at all – William started crying, he couldn't believe Gabe just told him that, when he was about to reply, Gabe knelt and hugged his hips – Don't you know you're my world Guillermito? – Gabe asked in disbelief – I don't care about having a family, it'd be nice to see a bunch of little Williams running everywhere, but it has no sense if it isn't with you, sweetie, please don't leave me, come inside, tell me you're staying forever – William just nodded and took Gabe's face, Gabe stood up and kissed William, promising him there won't be anything in the world that can tear them apart.
