Confessions

Disclaimer: I do not own Kingdom Hearts. I love the characters tho, and love writing about them in alternate universes! Any likeness to realistic experiences is completely coincidental.

Warnings: Drama, Angst, language, yaoi/yuri

Plot: Confessions of the heart, from one tormented soul to another. Will it end in unrequited love? Happiness? Or heartache? There's only one way to find out, and it all begins with finding the courage to confess your love, however forbidden that act may be.

This chapter's pairing: Sora:x:Roxas

((Hey guys, it's Myou! This is a new series of one-shot fics based on Of the Heart's Confessions which I posted back in 2010. Hope you enjoy!))


Sora ran as fast as he could, panting harshly against the cold air, tears blurring his vision, his heart hammering in his chest. He was so sick and tired of this! Every Sunday, having to sit there and listed to that old man preaching about things that cut so close to his heart. Things he had no idea about! Love, and damnation, and the rights and wrongs of the world… Based on what? On a centuries old tome? On society's expectations? He was through with it! Done!

His feet carried him across the icy concrete of the sidewalk, blindly following a familiar path down the corner a few blocks to the nearby middle school's playground, the swing set creaking lightly as the wind picked up, Sora's jacked and scarf billowing in the passing breeze. "It'll snow soon…" he whispered aloud, his breath coming in soft white clouds, shivering against the bite of winter air. He stood there, staring at the swings, listening to the creaking and moaning of the jungle gym and the merry-go-round, abandoned for Christmas break. He stepped off of the sidewalk, padding across the dark frost-lined mulch, reaching out with trembling hands to clasp the chains of the swing, sitting down and ducking his head, staring at his sneakers. The wind rocked him gently, the boy biting his lip as a tear coursed down his cheek, feeling utterly helpless, and alone…

"Sora!"

The brunette cringed, unable to turn and face the boy behind him, his brother panting harshly as he stopped running, standing behind him on the sidewalk.

"What were you thinking, running out like that? Mom and dad are going to freak as soon as the sermon's over, don't you know that?!"

"I don't care!" Sora cried, his breath hitching as another tear slipped down his cheek, stinging from the cold, Roxas walking over to him cautiously, unused to the sharp edge in his brother's tone.

"Sora?" he reached for the swing beside the younger boy, sitting down and leaning over to try and see the other's face, worried despite his confusion. "Hey, are you okay?"

"N-No… I'm not okay… I'm never going to be okay…" He clenched his fists against his jeans, shaking his head, big, fat tears forming along his long lashes and slowly spilling down his rosy cheeks. "I'm going to hell… I know I am… And I'm so scared, because there's nothing I can do to change it from happening…"

"What are you talking about?" Roxas asked softly, reaching over and clasping his hand over his brother's, "You aren't going to hell, Sora. You're the most caring, wonderful person I know. You're always helping others, and making new friends. What on earth would make you think you're-"

"I'm gay, Roxas…" Sora whispered softly, the breeze blowing harshly past once more, tossing around their scarves sporadically, the blonde's eyes wide as he listened to his brother's words, "I've known for years now. Years… I've tried everything! Focusing on school work, going to church more… even dating girls! You know I went out with that girl from my writing class for months…" He glanced up, daring to meet the older boy's eyes. "But nothing can shake this feeling I have inside of me. The love that I have…" He glanced away, his voice broken, "It's forbidden…"

"What?" Roxas breathed softly, heart pounding dully in his ears, "What do you mean, Sora? Do you like a boy?" He squeezed the younger's hand gently, "Does he… Does he like you back?"

Sora whimpered softly, shaking his head, "I-I don't know… I haven't had the courage to tell him…" Tears poured down his cheeks, his shoulders shaking as he cried, "I'm so scared of being alone! I don't want to lose you, Roxas…"

The blonde moved to wrap his arms around his brother, pulling him close and petting his hair gently. "Hey, Sora… You aren't going to lose me, okay? I'm a bit more open-minded than that…"

He shook his head against Roxas' shoulder, burying his damp face against the other boy's neck. "N-No, you don't understand…"

Roxas searched Sora's eyes as the brunette pulled away, trying to make sense of his whispered words. "I want to understand, Sora… Talk to me. I'm not going anywhere. I love you…"

At that Sora's breath hitched, his face twisting as fresh tears began down his cheeks, shaking his head as he tried to pull away, "N-No… Don't say that… You don't…"

"Sora! Of course I love you! What-"

"You don't!" the younger cried, tried to fight the other as Roxas pulled him closer, "You don't love me the way I love you! And I know you never will!" The blonde stopped, eyes widening as he realized what Sora meant, the younger shaking and sobbing, whispering miserably, "You'll never love me back…"

They sat there in silence on the swings, the wind gusting by, bringing the first snowflakes down from the sky, white powder slowly descending upon the playground. Sora cried softly, his heart twisting with loss as he felt his brother pull away, hearing the creak of the chains as the older boy stood and took a step away. He dared not look up, not wanting to see the other's disgust… He gasped softly as he felt Roxas take his hands, pulling him to his feet and embracing him in a tight hug, Sora blinking to clear his vision, staring up at the falling snow over his brother's shoulder.

"I love you too, Sora…"

His breath caught in his throat, not allowing himself to believe it. No… He doesn't love me…

"I love you…" Roxas pulled back slightly, moving to cup the younger's face in his hands, searching his eyes with such intensity, such passion. "I love you, Sora…"

Sora's eyes welled with tears, clenching the blonde's shirt, his knees going weak, Roxas pulling him against him before he could fall, holding him and rubbing his back soothingly.

"I love you…"

"W-Why didn't… Why didn't you…" Sora sobbed, clinging to the other boy weakly.

"How could I tell you, Sora? I was too afraid of rejection to even think about ever telling you…" He kissed the younger's temple, sighing softly as relief slowly began to wash over him. After years of keeping his feelings a secret, after years and years…all of those pent-up feelings, now able to flow freely… He smiled, kissing his brother's cheek, then chin, lips trailing down to his neck. The fear, anxiety, depression was suddenly gone… There was nothing left but relief, and happiness, and excitement that his feelings were finally returned.

"R-Roxas…" the brunette's cheeks were flushed pink, gasping softly at the sensation of the older boy's lips against his neck, pulse racing at that fleeting touch. The blonde pulled back, the boys searching one another's eyes, then Roxas leaned in, pressing his lips against the younger's in a soft kiss. It was simple, and sweet, the boys separating a moment later. "I love you, Rox…"

"I love you too, Sora…"

They turned as they heard the bell of the church chime, huddling together as the wind rushed past, snowflakes gathering in their hair, lashes, and atop their scarves and coats. "They'll be looking for us soon…" The brunette shuddered, heart twisting, glancing up at his brother. The older boy took his hand, squeezing and smiling reassuringly.

"We'll face them, together."


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