A/N: This is the first chapter of the actual story. This would be the 'present' of the story, while many of the chapters after this will be flashback like, in a way. Please read and review. This is my first Fanfic and I'd like to have some feedback so I can know how I'm doing. Thanks a bunch!
Disclaimer: Do not own Harry Potter or associated characters/story lines. I do however own Melanie, her friends, family and the plot of this fic. Yay me!
Chapter One:
Decisions, Decisions
I stood in the entryway of the building and took a deep breath. It was meant to be calming but it turned out to be quite the opposite. Like I was bracing myself. Perhaps I was. In a sense every step I took after that moment in time would have a large deciding effect on my life. I was taking a huge risk doing what I was about to do and it might turn to be the best thing I might ever do in my life...Or the worst mistake. But it was too late to turn back, right? I was there. I had made my choice. I couldn't turn back now, could I?
I watched as people passed by me, each person headed in a different direction, and wondered how hard it was for each of them to decide to go wherever they were headed. Many people sent irritated glares my way for semi-blocking their way into the building and muttering things about 'how rude people can be.' I sigh softly. I feel completely helpless. Pathetic even. This is what my life was coming to.
I had never been indecisive before. I had never doubted my instincts before. That was Kaya and Cam's job. Never before had I wanted to turn and run back to the 'safe' decision. I've never been inclined to the 'safe' choice. I always worked outside the lines, outside the proverbial box or whatnot. I have never been content with ordinary, trivial, planned out, 'safe' things. They just don't satisfy me. I've always been spontaneous. I've always been someone to just drop things and do something crazy on whim. Never questioning my choices. Never turning back. So why was I questioning myself now?
This was exactly what I had been telling myself not to do. Questioning your instincts, your heart never did any good. I sighed again. This was going nowhere. I was going nowhere. My eyes fluttered shut as I tried to take everything into perspective. This was literally the last chance I had to change my mind, to turn back. But did I truly want to do that? Why couldn't I just do this? Why couldn't I just take the chance?
This was the deciding point in my life. My life could go two ways. This moment was the fork in the road for me. Two completely different paths connected on this moment...this fleeting moment that was about to pass me up. I had to make my choice. It was now or never...
Now I know how Kaya must feel with every teensy-tiny decision she has ever had to make. Granted the risk factor on making the wrong choice never weighed so much on her future. Or in some cases maybe it did without her even knowing. It was just so hard. The choices were sprawled out in front of me: the beaten trail or the unknown path...I could discovery something new about myself, about my life or turn back to the safety of the norm...
All I could think about was how I had made it to this moment. How much I had to work to get here. Everything I had done. I wondered how I had lost my once confident, impulsive self. Then I found my answer. I could trace it to the exact day, to the minute, even to the very second where my life started to change...
