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I own….nothing, except Lydia, of course.I chewed on the tip of my quill anxiously, lightly staining my lips teal. There was no way I would be able to past this year; I couldn't focus on the simplest thing. My mind would always drift away into an unknown world with you.
I shook my head lightly, trying to clear my thoughts. You are so close, but yet so far away. Maybe if I lived out of the shadows, I would be noticed..
But on those rare occurrences, when you would catch my eye, I'd die inside. The feeling that you don't really see me, but someone else, would take over, and I'd turn away.
I'd watch you from a distant, watching you whisper to your friends excitedly, and I would be overcome with jealousy. I've never experienced such relationships before. But then you'd catch me staring, and I'd hurriedly look down.
What would it give, just for you to say hi? For you to acknowledge me in any way possible. I've tried multiple times, and could never do it, until now.
Taking a deep breath, I stand, and make my way over to you. Noticed by one of your friends, he pokes you lightly and nods at me. My tongue immediately becomes twisted and as you turn to face me I desperately try to untie it.
But as I open my mouth, a soft whisper reached my ears. "So, the shadow finally speaks, eh?"
Instead of retorting a reply, I duck my head down, and silently walk away. I've heard the comment many times before and usually ignored it, but this time it hit me without warning.
Retreating back into a corner, I watch your reaction to what happened. You seem quite upset, by the looks of it. But it slowly passes, and you quickly forget about all that happened.
But I can't. "So, the shadow finally speaks, eh?" Is that what they see me as? A shadow? I wasn't exactly a social person, but even I didn't see myself as that.
Another day, another time. But not now. No, now wasn't the right time, which was proven by what just happened.
Is love really blind, as they say? Or is it just unseen? A cloak of darkness that follows you everywhere you go, waiting for you to turn around and be discovered?
Yes, definitely another time. Maybe when I can catch you alone.. if I can catch you alone.
I sighed softly. If only you knew. If only you knew.
Author's note:
Well, that was completely random, lol. It's kind of jumbled, since that's how I was feeling when I wrote it. It's about an OC, Lydia, who has her eyes on Remus. Hm..I think the main point of this is that whenever she tries to talk to him, she's either shot down by her lack of confidence, or by someone else. I hope at least someone got that, heh.