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this is a song i wrote about how i thought Peeta felt about katniss ignoring him trying to get over her the lyrics are in underline . Proceed and enjoy

i swore time and again that i have moved on

yet i never had

it's just a lie to my self to convince my self

to stop

time and again i think of you

long were the days that were spent without you

if theres a tear in my eye it must have came from the sky

because i think i forgot you

Moving on i can't imagined cupid had accidentally shot a freaking arrow of eternal love on someone that someone would be me. Peeta mellark , unlucky to say from inside but yet with a life more desirable than a kid from the Seam . But at least if i was some random kid from the seam at least i might have more of a chance with her. Katniss Everdeen the girl i love , my father had loved her mother, he had been engaged to her before she fell in love with a coal miner and ran off . Yet my father had never thought the same fate would happen to me another Mellark who had unfortunately fallen in love with an Everdeen. Who would never reciprocate back the feeling of love . Katniss Everdeen is not considered as one of the pretty girls in our school i am pretty sure there are prettier girls but there is just one little notch in my heart that prevents me from liking them her . The day i met her years ago her voice that beautiful voice that had my the birds stop to listen to her song has captivated me like fireworks have.

because you were never meant to be mine

and i was never meant to be yours

i will never see the day you walk down that aisle

with me waiting there

and i tell my self i am content with this empty loneliness

whats the point of believing

when i saw you with him

the smithereens of my heart broken and now i am left into pieces

I want to cry i want to stop feeling i want too...

just try to forget her,Katniss Everdeen, i want to blame her for all these feelings in my heart i want to just tell her to get out of my life to stop making my heart feel worst then it already is the brokenness i feel emptiness is just a blank . i close my eyes try to think about something else like the hunger games but each time i close my eyes its her all over again how deep does gray eyes are ,the smell of her hair, the fresh smell of the woods and a clean spring breeze,her chapped lips and lonely mouth that are just begging to be kissed .

But i think she is in love with Gale Hawthorne , who would't. They are basically joined to the hip ,the rumors are that they were going to get married after they are both free from the wrath of the reaping . They were most likely going to be together live happily ever after and then i will end up being a miserable sad fuck of a person who is either marries a person who i don't love or be alone for life . then look at their beautiful kids with gray eyes and black hair .i will never ever see her walking down the aisle never see our kids with her eyes and my hair or the opposite

I falling for you was never my plan

knew i would be never good enough for you

cuz we were never meant to be

years later

i have came to terms on not having katniss i think...

its reaping day i am sixteen not i am peeta mellark i am the baker's son i will be engaged to Delly if i survive the reaping then a names calledd Primrose Everdeen. Katniss's voice rings out she is volunteering after the week applause from Effie my name is called . Me and katniss shake hands the warm , rough and calloused hands of hers touching mine and from that moment on i swore to protect her