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Author's Note: Hello! This is another of my stories. It's Confessions of a Coffee-holic. I was getting bored with finally so I deleted it. But thank you to the reviewers of it and I hope you enjoy this story, because it looks like a keeper! The first installment will be Lorelai's journal, Norbert. It will be HER journal. The rest will probably a regular story with a few journal entries thrown in. Gracious! Thank you!

Disclaimer: Despite the amount of times I wish upon a star, throw a penny in a toilet, or blow out candles on a birthday cake, Gilmore Girls Still wont be mine. It does, and always will be Amy Sherman Palladino's and the WB's, and I'm just borrowing it.

Summary: Lorelai's journal, Norbert. It will be a Luke/Lorelai fiction with a bit or Rory/Jess thrown in. Maybe a bit more than just thrown in. Rated PG or PG-13. I'm not sure what to use because it has some curses in it.

Confession's of a Coffee-Holic

12.08.03

4:33pm

Luke's diner

I am sitting in Luke's Diner, drinking coffee. The elixir of life. Rory is off at Yale being all smart. I think I better stop mouthing everything I write. Luke is looking at me funnily. You see, Luke married Nicole this past summer and they started a divorce but Evil Lawyer Nicole talked him into waiting so they could 'date.' Even though they are still married! Snow! It's snowing. Gah. evil Luke. he keeps staring at me. Didn't he ever see anyone write before? I know this is Stars Hollow and all, but people DO write. Rory bought me this di- journal, so I intend to use it.

4:43pm

Luke's Diner

Why do people keep insisting Luke and I are the perfect couple?! He is with Nicole, and I'm kinda dating dig- I mean Jason Stiles. I am. in no way. in love with. Luke Danes.

4:46pm

Luke's Diner .I'm really not! Why won't you stop looking at me?! (Not you Norbert, my sweet journal.) Luke. wait. My lips are moving with the words again. They think I'm talking to myself again. Stopping now.

"Luke!" I just called. "What Lorelai? Want me to tape your mouth shut so you can't talk to yourself? Id be happy to," he snapped.

"I'm not talking to myself! My lips are simply moving along with the words to what I'm writing."

"Fine!" he yelled in defeat. "What do you want?"

"Coffee!" And that's where it ended. See? No love. I annoy him, so he can't love me and I don't love him! No sir-ee.

5:40pm

Home

Couch

*sniffle* I just developed a cold. How can a person develop a cold in an hour's time? Hmm.? I mean, my throat is burning, my nose is blocked. Gah! Must call Sookie.

6:00pm

Couch

Called Sookie. She said to drink lots of orange juice. I tried it. Made my throat burn. I tried water. Made me pee. Brrr.. I am cold. Took temperature. 101 degree's. All in an hour's time. Although I had a stomach ache this morning. I'm going to go get some ice and call Sookie again. Then, I'll nap!

12.09.03

10:25am

Bedroom

Damn Tylenol with codeine! I missed Regis and Kelly. Ah. I miss Luke.'s coffee. Yes, I don't miss Luke. Nope, I miss the sweet good coffee stuff. I have no need for Luke. Must call Rory and tell her I am sick. Ask her to bring me coffee, ASAP.

1:00pm

Couch

I drug myself downstairs and fell right asleep. Damn medicine. I called Rory. She has a late class tomorrow so she'll come over as soon as she can. She insisted on coming now but I told her it was nothing and wait until her classes are done for a while.

1:09pm

Couch

Oh! Law and Order is on. Darn, I saw this one. My bell hurts. Ah. sleep is taking me over. Wake me at 2pm for my soap operas, Norbert!

1:20pm

Couch

Ah! *panting* Non, no, no, no. this can't be good! Bad, bad dream! Don't make me relive it! No, I wont!

1:22pm

couch

I'm arguing with a note book, great.

1:24pm

couch

Fine! I'll tell you! You are very persuasive, Norbert. I was. making out with Luke, alright? I liked it too. It just felt, right. There's a knock at the door. My legs feel like lead. They're calling my name. Digger, no I mean its Jason.

1:30pm

couch

"Lorelai, open this door," he called.

"I cant!" I yelled back then added, "there's a key in that stone pigs snout!"

A minute later he walked in and saw me on the couch, still in a white top and pink floral skirt, my hair a mess.

"Lorelai? What's wrong?" he asked me.

"I think I have the flu." I replied.

"We had a date last night, Lorelai. I got worried when you didn't show up."

"And you didn't call then?" I yelled, the loudest I could. He made me so angry. "I had a headache and fell asleep after six! I woke up this morning!"

"How can someone sleep so long?" he yelled matching my anger.

"Get out Digger! I don't need it!"

"I'll stay out, too." he then left. We broke up, for good.

1:50pm

Couch

Babette heard screams and came over. She's coming back with soup from Luke's. I hope she brings coffee.

10:45pm

Couch

Can't move. My legs and arms feel like lead. Oh, yeah. Babette relived her experience at Luke's for me. She told me Luke's every word and action. Who knows how she does it, remember that is. Here's what I remember of it.

"Luke, doll?" Babette called.

Yes, Babette?" Luke replied from the counter.

"I need some soup and two cups of coffee to go, sugar," she said.

"You never order soup, and you don't drink coffee, Babette. What's going on?"

"It's not for me, doll. It's for Lorelai. The poor dear has the chills and a fever! Oh! And this scruffy looking guy barges in there and screams at her, the poor dear! Shaken to bits! Sugar, what's wrong?" she asked Luke because his face went white.

"Babette, is she alright?"

"I'm going back over there now, pumpkin. May I please have the soup and coffee?"

"Sure, Ill be right back." Luke went into the back and brought back 2 Luke's bags 5 minutes later.

"Well, one would have been fine, doll. How much?"

"It's on the house."

That was the end of her tale. She left and I found a large thermos of coffee, two slices of pie, a bowl of soup, an order of fries, and a note wishing me to get well soon, call if I need anything, and only eat the soup until I fell better.

I think I am starting to like-him, like-him.

I did not just write that.

11:25pm

Couch

I am sleeping on the couch tonight. I can't move. I drank a sip of coffee and it hurt my throat! I'll save it for when it gets cold and ask Sookie to make a Coffee shake for me, she's really good at making them. I must sleep now, G'Night.

12.10.03

9:06am

Couch

My head feels like it is going to explode, literally. Regis and Kelly is on. Must get soup and watch it. And. I'm surprised at out good being single feels for the first time in my life.

11:42am

Couch

Nice soup.

11:42am

Couch

Sookie brought more ice, coffee, and ice cream over. Yummy. She's making another shake. We're going to call it Leche con Café. It means Milk with Coffee in Spanish or so I'm told. We are going to serve it at the Dragonfly when it opens.

1:00pm

Kitchen

Sookie helped me into the kitchen. It's snowing again! Rory should be home tomorrow. We were supposed to go see a Christmas play but this damn cold made me cancel. Yummy. Sookie's soup is done.

6:03pm

Couch

Uh! I am so confused! Do. not. ask.

6:06pm

Couch

I said don't ask!

6:10pm

Couch

Fine I'll tell you!

Luke came over.

The door was being knocked on so I yelled to come in because it was open. Big mistake.

I went to say something else and it came out like a bark just as Luke came in with more soup.

"Shh. You need to see a doctor, Lorelai," he said in this totally concerned voice.

My throat was burning too much to argue so I simply nodded. He sat down on the coffee table in front of me and looked with his brown eyes straight into my blue ones. I slowly smiled. He leant forward. and. he. kissed me. And I kissed back watching to display of fireworks playing in my mind.

I felt to coughs coming on so I pulled away to cough.

"I brought soup and I'll send some coffee over with Sookie," Luke said getting up clumsily and fell back down.

"Are you-?"I choked and he nodded, leaving me there totally confused as I watched his retreating back.

12.11.03

7:15am

Bedroom

Errr! Don't you just hate confusion? Of course not, Norbert! You have never been confused have you? HAVE YOU? Say it! No! The other it!

Now your confused ain't you? Huh?

I'll stop now. I saw stupid fireworks!

12:11pm

Couch

Sorry. I attempted to get a bath but I fell trying to get in. My back hurts.

I called the doctor. I have an appointment for 1:30 this afternoon. Just got dressed. I'm in a black tee shirt with a smiley on and a pair of dark blue sweatpants.

12:35pm

Car

On my way. Sookie stopped in Luke to get me some orange juice. It burned my throat so Sookie started yelling at me that she diluted and all. I know she loves me. No, Norbert. Not in THAT way. Anyway, I'll write what the doctor says.

8:43pm

Luke's apartment

Yeah, Luke's. I have the damn flu. Luke is down in the diner getting ready to close soon. I think Kirk is probably trying to get gossip from him for Miss Patty.

I guess I should explain why I am here. After the doctors appointment Sookie asked me why I was avoiding Luke's. After arguing with her that I wasn't I cracked and spilled all. Every detail. She made me go in then 'conveniently' had to go home and check on Davie, her son. I sat down in the corner and put my head down on the table just to rest my eyes. I must have fell asleep because I woke up an hour later on Luke's couch. I heard a 'pitter-patter' on the window from the rain. I smiled because I love all forms of precipitation except the slushy stuff. Then I noticed a note on the table next to the phone that was next to me. It was Luke's handwriting. Lorelai, call when you wake up, Luke.

I then picked up the phone and dialed the familiar number.

"Luke's." his gruff voice answered.

"It is not everyday I wake up on the Local Coffee Supplier Man's couch." I said sleepily.

"Hey, I will be right up to explain."

Luke came up with Coffee. "Thanks." I said taking a small sip.

"I found you asleep in the diner, well, I thought you were just resting, but Patty tried to wake you and she said you said something about 'damn fireworks'." I blushed and when he noticed her turned pink. ".and told me so I helped you up here. Then Sookie came in all frantic when she didn't see you and said she left you here."

"Whoa. Luke, slow it down." I said taking another small sip of the now warm coffee.

"I'm sorry, I am just a little."

"-Yeah."

"Nicole is finalizing the divorce."

"What? Why?" I asked.

"Long story for another time. But it involves her finding you up here and declaring she was right all along. I was never IN love with her. She was right." he answered.

I stared at him lost for words. So I leant forward and kissed him with all my might, hoping he wouldn't mind. The doctor did say she wasn't contagious anymore. He kissed back and I saw those fireworks again, this time clearer. Damn Fireworks.

9:55pm

Luke's Couch

So here I am. Luke should be coming up soon. I hear steps now. Probably Luke. No, wait. "Nicole?"

12.12.03

1:05pm

Hospital

I have a tube up my nose, actually one up each nostril and then around my ears. Luke told me what happened yesterday.

Nicole lunged at me and started. scratching me. Go figure. Luke heard me screaming before I passed out and went up thinking I had a bad dream but when he saw Nicole on me her got. kid of. physical with her. Yeah.

I then woke up here in this stupid gown.

Rory is here! I hear her demanding to see me. She was taught by the best.

Author's Note: This has been a long time coming. Took me about an hour to type, lol. Maybe even longer than that. I hope you enjoyed it. The next chapter might take a while, though. I'm not going to beg for reviews although I would LOVE to read some before the next chapter is up. I have it written out and all so I made need to up the chapter to PG-13 or R for some. sexual content. Yeah, well, we will see more of Rory next Chapter and in the third chapter I will write the grandparents up which should be fun. Thanks!