This is another New Moon alternative. Beware involves the theme of suicide. Hopefully you enjoy the story which beings when Bella goes to the Cullens instead of Jacobs in chapter 7 of NM.
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Bella's Pov
It was foolish for me to come here, especially when things were going so…well…ok-ish. Now that I was here there was no going back, I just couldn't. The door to the Cullen hose was locked but none of the windows were so I crawled through. It was more frightening being here alone then it was full of vampires. It seemed like there was a magnetic force pulling me through the house room by empty room, to the 3rd floor and the last door off the hall. I knew not to expect anything there, so I was very surprised to see that nothing in the room had changed. The room even still smelt like him.
This was all too much. Why the hell did I come here? Now, I couldn't make myself leave. That's when it finally hit me. I pull myself put of Edward's room, constantly reminding myself I'd be right back, and to my truck. In there I kept a bottle of sleeping pills Dr. Gerandy prescribed back in September. With my plan in mind I hurried back up to Edward's room. If I was actually going to die this time I would like to be somewhere I was sure it was all real.
I thought I could do this right away, but being in the room just wasn't enough. I wanted to see his face on last time. Almost frantic, thinking if I took too long people would come looking for me; I searched his room for a picture
I couldn't find a single one.
It was getting late and I was almost tired. My time to search was out. I sat one the couch and tried to relax. I looked around the room, which was very dim now, when something caught my eyes. A tiny silver cell phone on top of a piece of paper. Without thinking I picked it up. There was nothing special about the phone on the outside, so I went to read the note. My eyes struggled to see the words in the almost dark.
'What are you thinking, Bella? This isn't an answer. We all though you'd be better soon enough, but I guess we were wrong. Pay attention now: If you dare take those pills I will call the police and tell them o hurry over there. I'm sure you'll love all that attention you'll get. Also the phone is your's now. You can call me whenever you need. We're not supposed to bother you anymore but you need a friend right now. I'm sorry I didn't come talk to you myself when I dropped this off, but it was only a slight chance you would actually come here.
Love always, Alice.'
She expects talking on the phone every once n a while will make things better. How can I even try to be normal after this? Alice ruined the aura of the house. It' was against me and I had to get out.
I couldn't go home, Jake would have Charlie worried. Half the town could be looking again. The truck would be too obvious and loud it they were looking for me. However, if Edward left all his stuff maybe he left his car. I hurried to the garage which was congenitally unlocked.
It was there, doors unlocked and gas tank full. I open the visor and the keys fell down, just like people did in the 50's. I prayed the car would start after just sitting here for all these months. I never drove his Volvo before and I hope he could forgive me especially after what I planned.
It didn't take me long to drive to the cliffs by Jacobs house. The railing dividing the road and the water below was thin. I wondered idly if I should call someone before I did this, since I didn't leave a note, or if it would be better if I just disappeared for ever like the Cullens. I felt awful because what I was doing to Charlie and Renée, but there was no going back now. I picked up the phone not sure who I planned to call.
The background picture took my breath away. It was a picture of Edward and me at prom. We looked happy and young and as carefree as a vampire/human couple could be. That was the straw that broke the horses back. I knew I would never be that way again. I let go of every thought going through my mind besides Edward. I closed my eyes and drove off the cliff.
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