Blow after blow rained down on the obviously defeated green monster as incomprehensible power coursed through the body of the recently transformed young sayan. With that power came convoluted emotions that Gohan couldn't fully identify. He was angry of course. He just watched the monster Cell kill android sixteen, who was created for the sole purpose of murdering an innocent man, but overcame his programming do to his love of all life. Other people were hurt by Cell as well. Android eighteen was only starting to experiencing life and with the help of Gohan's friend Krillin she too began to grow past her programming. But Cell put an end to that, and grew stronger because Krillin allowed her to live. Gohan saw the terrible guilt in the short monk and this made his anger grow. Gohan was also scared. He once heard the sayan prince Vegeta speak about the legend of the super sayan. According to the sayan legend the first sayan to transform gained so much power he exploded and Gohan feared this would happen to him too. Gohan was also sad, disgusted, confused and excited.

Gohan snapped out of his contemplations as a weak punch was landed on his forehead. "Ha! you are not perfect!", hysterically screamed Cell. 'I should pay more attention it's cruel to allow him to think he has a chance', Gohan thought darkly amused, before creating a shock wave from his body propelling Cell a distance away.

"Now son! End it now!", screamed Gohan's father Goku unknowingly creating a conflict unseen in the most powerful being on earth.

A dozen disappointed looks ran through Gohan's mind on the face of his mentor Piccolo, and even more sneered comments about him being weak from Vegeta, prompted by Gohan letting his emotions interfere with a fight. But even so Gohan couldn't help it.

Gohan still didn't want Cell to die.

Gohan refused to show weakness though, 'I'm the strongest in the universe and I won't let someone so far bellow me as Vegeta look down on me', his addled mind demanded.

"No, he needs to suffer", declared Gohan ominously and began to pelt cell with tiny painful KI blasts.

His friends and family were horrified by his declaration. Goku even more so, he put his son in this situation and now he's questioning his decisions 'I should have protected my son from this' he feared.

Cell desperate to argument his own power began to channel the KI of one of the two androids he absorbed directly instead of relying on the power of his altered, perfect, form. He fired one powerful beam of KI at Gohan plowing through his smaller blasts and detonating directly on contact. Cell screamed gleefully once more thinking he's reclaimed the upper hand and began to charge through the air at his opponent obscured by dust and smoke from the explosion. As he approached he pulled his arm far out to put his maximum behind this blow but Gohan lashed out through the cloud to the extremely obvious and tempting target his reviled stomach made. Blood exploded from his mouth and he fell from the sky onto his knees and began to cough uncontrollably.

It was than that Cell realized his mistake. By directly drawing on the KI of the android inside of him, his KI after taking a great plunge with that last attack, was overwhelmed by the foreign KI which his body began to reject.

Android eighteen was regurgitated painfully from Cell's body coated in a layer of the monster's purple blood. Gohan was a little glad to see her safe but only a little, more so he was amused to watch Cell revert to his prior form and grow even weaker.

Cell looked up at Gohan smirking down on him and began to violently tremble, "No! how can I lose to you? I was perfect!", Cell yelled his voice sounding bloated in his broader form. Suddenly a terrible and desperate idea formed in Cell's mind, and he used his KI to increase the mass of his muscles and every other part of his body causing him to grow grotesquely unable to move and his KI to skyrocket. "No I won't lose! I'm going to blow myself up and take this whole planet with me", Cell exclaimed.

"What? No!", Gohan said as his mind raced, 'how could this fight that I was so easily winning go out of control so quickly, worse yet if I attack he'll detonate prematurely, there is nothing I can do about this'.

Suddenly Goku appeared before Cell before turning to look over his shoulder at his friends and his son, "Don't worry guys! I've got this!". he told them and smiled happily, innocently and reassuringly failing to quench his son's rising horror. He placed one hand on Cell and with the other he placed two fingers on his forehead and used his instant transmission technique to disappear with the monster just as the energy in it's bloated body began to peak.

Gohan fell to his knees in despair, 'my father is dead because I was weak'.

After a few moments Gohan rose ideas and plans forming in his mind before an energy blast impacted his right arm deeply wounding it. When the blast dissipated Gohan whipped around and saw Cell standing there in his perfect form once more with golden flames dancing from his body. In his peripheral awareness he realized that he could no longer move his right arm.

"Cell!", "That's right Gohan there's a reason I was named Cell. In the explosion I created one single cell from my body survived and I was able to regenerate fully! Furthermore I absorbed Goku's super sayin powers and became more perfect than ever! There is no way I can lose now!"

Suddenly cell sprung at Gohan, his tail and wing like protrusions trailing behind him whipping around with his sudden momentum. When he arrived he kicked the still surprised demi-sayan in the stomach. Gohan was at least partially prepared for his attack however and moved back with the momentum. He was propelled through the air but managed to control his flight in time to doge Cell's follow up punch and spun around striking Cell in the back of the head with his good hand. Cell fell to the ground on his knees once again, his vision white. As soon as he could see however he used Goku's instant transmission technique to appear behind Gohan, however do to his inexperience with the technique appeared directly before him. Gohan determined not to be caught unaware again struck out at cell this time who barely managed to doge it. The two fighters began a close range high speed brawl. Gohan only able to use one arm began kicking frantically trying to keep cell on the defense, and his plan worked to a degree, Cell still managed to land more hits on Gohan when they disengaged and both flipped back to land on the ground a large distance from one another.

"Don't you see Gohan? Nothing can defeat me! I am Perfect!"

Remembering his mistake Gohan had to prove to himself that he is not as weak as he believes himself to be after his fathers death decides to end this fight, to end cells life, immediately. Gohan began to concentrate as much power as he could into his left hand and began to chant, Cell seeing and understanding his intention cupped his hands at his side and began to chant at the same time.
"KA... ME... HA... Me.. HA!"

The two huge blasts rocketed out of their hands at high speeds and quickly crashed into each other. The two began to fight, poring more of their KI into the blasts trying to overwhelm the other.

Suddenly a small KI attack landed on Cell's side, fired by Vegeta, distracting Cell for a moment. At that moment Gohan heard a voice in his head scream at him, 'now Gohan! Stop holding back', 'so even my father thinks I'm weak', Gohan interpreted his fathers words. With a spike of anger fueling his power Gohan powered even more KI into his Kamehameha wave overwhelming Cell and destroying every cell in his body.

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Gohan sat leaning against a building on top of Kami's lookout as his or perhaps his father's friends talked with Shenron. As the battle was over once more his eyes and hair were back to black. The battle was over and his emotions have settled but still plague him despite his clear mind. Earlier his father refused to be returned to life compounding his emotional crisis, and told the others that they had Gohan to protect the earth now. But Gohan's heart wasn't in that goal. If Gohan was so weak to allow his father to die how can he protect the people he cares about? They would be better of without him. As for the innocent masses of the world, he doesn't know how he feels about them. His mother told him since returning from Namek years ago that he was not allowed to show them his strength as they would fear him. That annoyed him a little but he trusts his mother with that. But more so he just hasn't met many people. He lives in the mountains that he rarely leaves and only once without one of his parents. That one time however he did make a friend named Lime. Gohan was still unsure about Lime however, he never had a friend his age before and he remembers his mothers warning about showing people his strength. Gohan decided that visiting Lime might allay some of his turmoil so he quietly sneaks away from the lookout, those aware of his departure left him in piece.

AN: My first fanfic. It's kinda small but I intend to revise it thoroughly especially that last part. please tell me what I could do better