10_glances; #1 – Studying
Fuji Syusuke x Yanagi Renji
Renji heard Fuji turn a page in the book he was reading, felt tempted to look at him but did everything not to. He needed to study; they had a history-test tomorrow and he really shouldn't have gone to study with Fuji, not when he was feeling as he did. What was he really feeling, though? It was more than like, thet, he knew. But love? Not quite, but still, not far from it. Probably. When it came to his own feelings, he was quite clueless. Not that he would admit it, but he was. Fuji was pretty, no question about it, but what made Renji attracted to him wasn't the feminine frame or the warm smile, but the other smiles he would see from time to time. And Fuji's eyes. There was something more there, beyond the kind smile and happy personality the tensai displayed, but he couldn't quite put his finger on it. "It is impossible to gather data on Fuji" Sadaharu had said, and maybe that was true. Because Fuji always managed to surprise him, one way or another. Like today, when Fuji had walekd up to him and said "We're studying together today."
Of course, Fuji wan't all smiles and kindness. He was so much like Yukimura that it was scary. They could have been brothers, really. It wouldn't have surprised Renji if they turned out to be such one day sooner or later. But that wasn't it; not what he was looking for. It was beyond that, deeper.
He cast a quick glance to the side when he realiezd that Fuji hadn't turned a page for the last fifteen minutes, and saw thetensai stare out in space. A serene, but still sad, expression covered his round face, and Renji felt his heart skip a beat. It wasn't logical, to feel like he did towards the person who scared even Tezuka to obedience. But he was attracted to him, none the less. What to do about it, though? Tell him? But he couldn't. It wasn't as if he was sure he really liked him like that, although he probably did. "Love and logic doesn't match." Who had said that? Was it Seiichi? Or maybe even Genichirou? One of those, he was sure and the more he thought of it, the more sure he got that it had been Genichirou. When he told them – the former Rikkai-team – about him dating Shitenhouji's Hitouji Yuuji. How he'd managed to hide it from them for almost half a year was beyond Renji, even though he had been sure he took enough data to be able to notice the slightest change in Genichirou's behaviour that would indicate that he was in love or dating.
Doesn't match? Renji thought. Yes, I think you're right, Genichirou.
Because it was illogical, Renji didn't really give love much thought, thus, he didn't really know much about it, either. So he didn't know how he was supposed to react to the foreign feeling that blossomed every time he thought about the former Seigaku-student.
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