well it's been a while since i came up with something. um yeah. please be kind. i don't own dbz. but i do own the universe.

Bulma:

I couldn't count the hours we lied in bed next to each other. It was so silent between us that the crickets outside sounded like music at its highest volume, blasting through the air, vibrations shaking the glass window. I half expected them to break, but even when these things were the loudest in our ears, the world heard nothing but themselves. As if the world didn't care, that what was everything to us seemed unimportant to the world.

Our fingers were entwined together, between us. Your hand, one that killed thousands of people, one that was usually comfortably warm, was now clammy and cold. We both knew why………

"Vegeta?" I whispered. You grunted in response. I looked at you, your eyes were closed but I saw the wrinkles on your forehead that showed me your worry and maybe………even fear. I, too, was scared and I told you that. Your hands tightened its hold on mine. You shivered and passed it on to me through our linked hands.

"Why?" You asked quietly, your voice hard and gruff, but I heard the concern and love. I also noticed your hesitance in asking that question.

"Because," I replied. It was so hard for me to talk. Tonight was different than the rest, and I knew, like you do, that tonight………was the night. "I'm afraid to go………."

"Go where?"

Oh, Vegeta, you perfectly know where, but I only chuckled. And my chuckled turned into a small laugh. I have no reason as to why I was laughing, maybe because the awkwardness of this night has driven me mad, or I just need to lighten the dark atmosphere in here.

"What do you find so blasted funny?!" you demanded. There was anger and confusion in your voice. Tonight was making you suffer. And I wish you didn't have to go through such a pain………A pain that was caused by me. The pang of guilt struck me and my laugh was cut off. I looked at the ceiling with a faint smile.

"Do you know how much you've changed, Vegeta? From the once proud Saiy-jin Prince to the now loving father of two--"

"I am still the Prince of all Saiy-jins!"

"Of course you are." I sniffed. "My very own prince………" I turned on my side to face you, your eyes burning me with its intensity, your lips frowning as usual, your thick eyebrows furrowed. "I am jealous. You're still beautiful as ever while I'm an aged woman."

You were quiet. To be honest, I was hoping to hear words come out of your mouth like You're still beautiful or You haven't changed a bit. But such compliments were rarely heard from you. They were also lies. You were always an honest man, and when there were times you knew you were wrong you wouldn't admit it. . . You just didn't say it at all. You'd walk away or change the subject. Your pride wouldn't let you. And in a way, it makes you very cute.

"Why the smile?" you asked.

"Can't I just smile when I want to?"

"I was only asking."

"Why do you frown a lot?"

"Can't I just frown when I want to?" your face was still hard, but your eyes were twinkling with tease. It made me smile even more. But then your eyes shadowed once again. "Plus………There is nothing I can find to smile about right now."

Oh, Vegeta. I'm trying to make this easier for the both of us, so that my……… departure won't hurt too much. I'm not going to flatter myself, but I know I'm the only woman you ever loved like this who would show you the same love. When I die, I know you'll be devastated, though you won't admit it to others. It's like you, to keep these sentimental emotions to yourself. However, you never had trouble showing your anger.

"Yes there is," I said, "Smile because of the person you have become. Strong and loving. You once said our human emotions made you weak, but look what it has done. You're one of the strongest guys in the universe."

You only nod and grunt, and I continued, "You are proud holder of the title Protector, passed down to you by Goku. You are the Saiy-jin Prince, bound for greatness. And I must say can it be any better? You have two proud children, one of them having another baby on the way. You have a wife that won't keep your son from training by giving him homework, even though he was already born with brains. I must say, he must have gotten it from me." That last statement was an attempt to make you smile.

You snort at that statement with disagreement as you pulled me into your arms, but there was a smirk on your face, because even if you disagree right now, deep in your heart, you know it's true. You were always a knuckle head.

Suddenly, it seemed a little harder for me to breathe and so I inhaled deeply. It was probably because of the way you crushed me to your chest.

"Hun," I gasp, "You're crushing me."

I looked up at you and saw the confusion on your face. And then I knew……… my time was coming up. Either that or you didn't know your own strength. No, you perfectly knew your own strength. You know you are super strong, you conceited little………

"Let's go somewhere," I suggested. "It's really dark and boring in here--"

"Oh?" you questioned with a raised eyebrow. "Where are we to go? I know you love shopping, but it's four o'clock in the morning, no shopping center would be open."

"Shopping isn't everything to me--don't look at me like that. It isn't." I sighed. "Let's go somewhere--"

"If you mean outside, I forbid it. It's cold. Your body won't be able to withstand the weather." You said firmly, but I saw the apologetic look in your eyes. I knew you were right. To see you so caring like this, to treat me like an expensive glass doll made me feel a little flattered.

"Vegeta," I whispered, "I love you very much--" your hold on me tightened "--I'm not going to go yet, so don't be paranoid. As I was saying, I love you so much for who you are--"

"You love me because I have changed. What if I hadn't? What if I was still that murderous evil villain back then?"

I smile. I know you wanted to hear compliments from me. Haha, you crack me up. "Then I would have to kill you myself." I grin. And so did you because we perfectly knew that I couldn't even scratch you to hurt you, let alone punch.

You sighed. "I was a merciless killer. I killed without a cause but to serve Freeza. Kami, I was so pathetic, I couldn't even stand up for my own planet. I had plans to destroy Freeza, but I didn't act on it quickly. How could you love me?"

Stupid, you are utterly stupid. It hit me then. You never once said this before, but to hear your true feelings about yourself made me sad, and a little be angered. You shouldn't belittle yourself. "Shut up. You had to do whatever to survive." I smiled. "Don't you see how strong you were?"

"Strong? I couldn't fight--"

"Strength isn't only determined by………by how big your muscles are. What I meant was your will power to survive. After all that………that crap you went through, you've become one of the greatest people alive. You've lived through that, and you're still the strong Saiy-jin Prince. I am………" I couldn't hold the tears anymore, "I am so happy that I could be in your life." I pressed my old face against your smooth muscular chest. "I'm so happy………"

Your fingers caressed my back, and I shivered at your touch. "I am awesome, aren't I?" You said with a smile. Jerk, you knew all along how great you are. You only said those words to make me say that.

"Vegeta," I broke out, "I don't want to go. I don't want to go!"

I cried in your arms, and the only thing you could do was run your hands down my back and my hair. You lay your chin on my thinned hair. I felt a little drop of water land on my forehead and I look at you. You had your own tears to cry, and it made me cry even more.

Heaven is a place of eternal happiness, but my own heaven was here with you. To be taken away from you hurt me as much as it hurt you. How long will you live before old age kills you too? How long can Saiy-jins live? Will I have to wait for many years before we can see each other again?

I wish I could use the dragonballs to wish that you and I would live together until the day we both die………together, so that neither of us is left behind to live a lonely life. But the dragonballs………could no longer be used. The dragonballs have been overused that finally Shenron could not take it anymore. With Goku, the dragon left. To where? I don't know, but that was the last time I ever saw Goku. How did Chi Chi feel to know that she would live the rest of her life without him? Maybe she had gotten used to it? Or maybe she just knew how to hide her sadness under a mask.

How would you hide your emotions under a mask, Vegeta? You've hidden so much already from others, would you hide these emotions too? Or would you break down in front of people? Oh, Kami, don't. I hope you don't. I don't want you to change after this. I want you to continue being the strong man you are so that I know you will not be suffering by me.

My eyelids began to feel heavy. Was sleep taking over? Or will I forever close my eyes? Is this it? Death?

"I love you, Vegeta," I whispered sadly.

You stiffened. Do you know if I'm leaving? "I love you, too, Bulma."

I closed my eyes after wondering Will I open my eyes again to see your face? Or will I wake up in heaven?

Vegeta, I love you so much. Please don't suffer.

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