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By: manimefrances

A/n: Hi!!!!!!!!!! Well, ff, after almost 3 months, I'm back! Thank goodness I'm still alive. Why do projects keep on projecting themselves? Ha… Oh well, I'm back now.. For those who were able to read this story before, well, if you still wanna keep the read on, here it is then. I'll be re-updating everything. And oh, I've changed the plot a bit. It's really nice! Actually, I've had this idea since the start of classes back in June after I had a good chat with 2 of my classmates. This story was on its 10th chapter that time and I was trying to squeeze their thoughts out. I was just running short! So, this thing I'm giving you now is what we have discussed.

And oh, before I set this out, I'M SORRY! If people are quite irritated for me being so irresponsible, there's no use telling myself I'm not. I'm really irresponsible. I'm even wondering myself how the heck I got to type ten chapters in total! Cause you know, it's really hard to continue on typing, I'm just not satisfied. That's what's weird. How was I able to encode all the things I've updated (I'm contented with all of them)? Well that's one. I won't upload, not when I'm satisfied with what I've done. If you just check my files, you'll find I'm made lots of drafts for this story, and even more for other story plots. I've just left them undone. I just don't know what I'm gonna do with them. But I think the recycle bin could pretty much be an accommodation... And, I'm now in 3rd yr hs, there are just drastic changes. I'm not so used with all that's happening; I guess I was just soooooo relaxed when I was still in 2nd yr.

I won't stop till I reach the end of this. I will continue until I produce something that's worth calling THE END. So, no need to worry if ever in the future, I disappear again. I'll always be back. And one more note! Hehe, if I've made some changes to the chapters uploaded the last time, it could even go unnoticed. I'm not changing anything if necessary (acc to the new plot but actually the plot is still the same, there were just more details added to make it more exciting). I have more things to focus on and use my thoughts for: the continuation. ;p

And oh, hehe, in case you're wondering… I preferred to change the chapters, and not click on 'NEW STORY' coz by that, I think you could compare the chapters I'm updating to those before. I also think all the reviews would go to a waste.

"But words are things, and a small drop of ink. Falling like dew upon a thought, produces
that which makes thousands, perhaps millions think." -- Sir Aubrey De Vere

Well, whatever. This quote just gives me inspiration for now. I hope it lasts. Care to give me any more thoughts to will me into typing pages and pages and pages? hehe;p

Happy reading!

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When a precious object like porcelain or a vase breaks, the pieces will just remain there on the floor when no one goes and plonks them to the garbage can. What if that object was broken by some baby while playing and no adult has come to know? Then, the pieces would be left untouched. Logically, it's the same as how things go. In what we think of a broken piece of technically one's life, we deem that we can never or we have totally left everything else that was. No, the pieces still lay there. They could still be together, they could be scattered. Wherever they are or how small every piece may seem after the wind of each day dishevels them further, we can still collect them. Collect every bit. Every bit adds to that we long to have back, to that the one, as a WHOLE.

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ÖÖ Prologue

Note: All the his/him/he and hers/her/she refer to Natsume and Mikan.

Time stopped for Mikan as someone that she didn't expect to see once again after 3 long years entered their front door. There he is! The one she dreaded the most.

'After such a long time, we meet again and exactly in this house.'

Tall; attractive; and most of all handsome; Natsume didn't change a bit physically. Still so hot more than enough for girls to faint with a pair of piercing eyes of crimson which seem to reflect in one's soul when you look at them. Those eyes before, they were filled with coldness and hate, and now, the more, seems no life at all. The only difference is he is now popular among both men and women in society since before he's mostly rushed over by girls and hated by guys obviously being a big hassle in men's love life. And his fame is starting to cover up the whole of Asia. Who knew he had such a talent in writing songs?

She herself was too shocked to hear about him being a composer. That news reached her in America, where she rested for healing her heart for 3 long years and now she's back in Japan.

Natsume never showed interest on anything before. But now, things don't seem to be like what have been stated by facts. But Mikan knew that within that arrogant and rude personality of his, him being like a bastard, there was love and comfort that just needed some reawakening. Maybe she should not be so much affected by shock just like any one else who knew Natsume before he began to start composing songs.

Yeah, any one who knew his personality would not expect him to come up to songs that would melt one's heart. He was the silent type, rude, and not the real gentleman that girls would love. The only thing girls probably wanted from him was his face, so good looking. They ran after him only to be heart broken by him with him running away from them and giving out hurtful words. Those words were insulting meant to send those scabbing girls away from his sight.

He wants silence, to be alone but he didn't want true solitude. No one would want that kind of thing. And that's when Mikan showed up. Her purpose? Give him comfort… since Mikan knew the real thing he was going through. But that was before. Nothing in this world is permanent and yes, things aren't the way how they used to be 3 years ago.

Things have greatly changed. Her purpose now is different, very different from before. To take avenge on him…. maybe? As if she has the will and power to do that to the only man she ever loved. But the question on her part is… Does she still love him after all that had happened that attributed the rumble of her happy life?

In 3 years, she tried to make herself the 'busiest' woman in the world just to forget about him but now that she is seeing him again, all the courage within her to say "I don't love you anymore and I hate you" is fading away.

Mikan thought that her love for Natsume was gone and before she took a flight to get back home to Japan, she assured that to herself. But seeing him again did things in another way, upside down. Only of the sight of him, Mikan is afraid that she's still in love with him. Let alone the clues of her heart beating like legs of horses racing.

His songs, are just like others, but it seems strange. His songs are just like other songs but in a way seem different. Every one loves his songs, would really strike the heart. Oh, love songs… songs of broken hearts. And maybe his songs belong to the reasons why Mikan should fear. Of what? She promised herself that she'll show him that she doesn't need him in her life; that she can stand up alone; but that promise is meant to be broken.

Before she left for abroad 3 years ago, before destiny took control of their lives without asking them if they wanted that life destiny decided for them, Mikan always believed that she was his light and she would be more than willing to accept that job, that role in his life. Only, that belief vanished suddenly after an event that made her go overseas, away from his life that she thought would be forever.

Now, destiny is again playing tricks on them. What is this? Would this meeting after 3 long years butt Natsume Hyuga back into her life once again? She had been hurt once and that had been too painful for her to handle.

No. She would not let him do the same thing, the same things that have been giving her sleepless cold nights, with her eyes swollen by tears, and the feeling of solitude that she had always felt within him, the reason she wanted to comfort him, to give him sense that he is not alone because she is just there by his side. That's the way Mikan loves. And when that happened 3 years ago, that made her run away from the truth, which made her run away from Japan… the reason why she had stayed in America for a while.

She chose the said place since like Japan, it is highly industrialized. And with a belief in her capabilities, she went to that place to find work to kill time. In America, she would be as busy as bees and other insects. There won't be any time for her to think of him which would make her a favor. She wasn't ready for what she witnessed 3 years ago. She tried to forget that pain and the sight of him alone now brings back memories.

As what most say, the pain that cannot be truly healed is the pain scabbed in one's heart. Not ever. Maybe forgotten for a while by short happiness but again can be easily reflected and remembered to bring back the heart wrenching feelings that would not be wanted to be felt by the owner of that pain.

A/n: oh ok, that's the prologue.