My Sunshine

Naruto,

I'm not sure when it happened…and I wish it never did. But some where in the four years I've known you-I fell in love with you. I love you so much it hurts when I'm not around you. So you just imagine what torture it was when I saw you flirting with Neji…Day in and day out for a year I saw you basically hump his leg…Smiling at him, hugging him and trying to sit in his lap all the while he kept trying to push you away. It was so frustrating to watch you show affection to someone who didn't want it.

Naruto, you became something I feared the most in life. A constant, you became necessary for me…without you my days became dull. But after a while I started to get over you, slowly-telling myself it couldn't happen. For a while it was fine, I could go a whole day without you and I felt proud of myself. But then, as if some cruel joke, you appeared on my door step-wet and crying. You told me that Neji had called you a fag and completely rejected you when you confessed to him. That night we spent talking, sharing secrets and a kiss…And just like that in a matter of hours I had fallen in love with you all over again.

The next day at school I felt, for the first time in a long time, good. I thought we would be able to be together now. But when I met up with you, you broke my heart again. You told me that kiss meant nothing and if we could still be friends. I smiled and said "Of course it meant nothing, Dobe." I avoided you for the rest of the day.

Not even a week later it seemed you had another crush, Sakura. She was like Neji. She couldn't see what was being offered to her and she shot you down over and over again. It hurt so much to see you sad like that. A month later, when I was yet again starting to get over you. I was laying on the roof of the school looking at the clouds like Shikamaru does-sorting out my frustrations and emotions. That's when you blocked my view. You stood over me-eyes dulled and a frown on your face. We hadn't hung out much in the last month or so but I did know that after Sakura you had gone after Ino, she rejected you. After that it was Gaara and then Tenten.

You took a seat next to me and asked me "Why?"….Why couldn't you find some one to make you happy, some who understood and loved you. At that moment I felt like yelling at you, screaming that I loved you with all my heart-but I stopped myself. I had already convinced myself that it couldn't happen between me and you.

Naruto, you're smart even though you don't act like it. Your talented, you're cute and you're funny. You had this depth to you that no one else saw-you hid it in your eyes. You were my sunshine, my hope….but I wasn't yours. Your perfect Naruto and I hope you never change…and who knows…maybe later down the line, after I've straightened my thought, when we meet again I can treat you to coffee or something. Yes you read right-I'm leaving….I chose this time to confess my love to you because it's our last year at high school and I've been accepted into a college in San Francisco. So don't bother replying to this message because I've already gotten a new e-mail. Don't bother trying to find me because by the time you read this, I'll be on the road. I hope that you find happiness because when you're happy I'm happy.

Please just remember that….You were my sunshine…

Sasuke

Blue eyes read, and re-read the e-mail. His mouth was slightly ajar and his throat tightened. He couldn't believe it….

"Sasuke…" He whimpered out. "Sasuke." He said finding his voice. "Why, Sasuke."

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This isnt a one-shot

R&R plz