AN: This is my first ever story and I did my best sooo I hope you don't think it sucks. :P Leave a review please. Thanks.

Oh and I don't own anything but the plot.

Peanut Butter

How many days has it been again? 12...no 13...14 maybe..yes 14 I think. Why haven't the Order come to cheek on me yet? Do they even care? All theses thoughts raced through Harry Potters head as he sat on his bedroom (if you could call it that) floor at number 4 privet drive, flipping through his scrap book pausing at his favorite picture of his parents wedding. The happy faces of Sirius Black, James Potter, and the new Lily Potter peered up at him. Trying to push the thought that he would never get to talk to, or hug or just be with any of those people again Harry slammed the book shut and got up quickly. Stopping to steady himself. Harry had gotten home 3 weeks ago, and 14 days ago he stopped eating. He wanted to eat but it never stayed down. After 5 days of throwing up it gets old, so he stopped trying (a little at least). Right now water was all that would stay down, but that would only work for a little while longer, he knew he was deathly thin and need food. Guilt coursed through him for the billionth time that summer. Sirius was dead, and it was his fault. His friends had gotten hurt and it was his fault. Suddenly a cold bowl of soup was pushed through the cat flap that had been installed to his room in second year, the year he had "rescued" Ginny Weasly. Harry's thoughts shifted to his friends and the order. That summer the order had told him they expected weekly cheek ups. He had skipped writing them last week and no one had come to see if he was okay. Not even Remus. Don't be thick Remus probably hates you, He's the last of his friends.. again.. thanks yo you.Harry walked over to the bowl and forced down one bite of soup, that was all he could handle now, he knew that if he ate anymore it would come back up, so he set the bowl back out in the hallway. "I'm going to die" Harry thought, he felt horrible about leaving his friends here to deal with Voldmort especially since they kinda needed him to get rid of Moldie-Voldie and they had bravely risked their lives to go to save Sirius at the end of last year. Suck it up potter! They need you. Harry started to pace. Lost in his thoughts Harry was startled when Pig came in the window and not managing to stop ran into the back of Harry's head. What the...? Oh. Why is pig here? No one had sent Harry a letter in weeks. Harry was even more surprised to find the letter was from Ginny, a picture of the fiery red head flashed in his minds eye . Harry cautiously opened the letter.

Harry,

How are you? And None of this "I'm fine" stuff. I happen to know that's not true. The order hasn't gotten a letter in a while, Dumbledore seems to think your busy or something and wants us to all sit and wait for his permission to come get you. Now I think you should know I don't care what anyone says just say the word and I'll be right there. I had to sneak around everyone to send this letter, Dumb-old-bore thinks it's best not to draw attention to you or the order so he has for bidden anyone to send any letters, to say I was angry would be an understatement. So don't be a git, send a letter back.

Take care.

Love, Ginny

Harry was surprised about the "love" part after all nobody had ever really said that to him, at least as far as he could remember, but was even more surprised to find that he didn't mind. A calm feeling washed over him, they hadn't forgotten about him. As quickly as that feeling came it left only to be replaced by intense anger. she had no idea what he was feeling! He wasn't being a git! Growling in anger he grabbed some parchment and a quill and started writing quickly.

Dear Ginny,

How am I? Honestly? Because honestly I feel like the weight of the world is on my shoulders. I can't eat, I never sleep. And you know what? Uncle Vernon is as bad as ever! The orders warning didn't help at all. Yep, and you know why? Because "those freaks" caused his son "emotional distress".... I feel guiltily all the time (Harry stopped writing mid sentence as his line of thought shifted, only vagly aware of what he was writing he continued with)I think Moony might hate me. I killed his last friend. My last chance to leave my "home". It feels like there are dementors here sucking away any happiness I have left, sometimes I think the Durselys are my own personal dementors and there sole purpose is to make my life horrible. This place is like my own personal hell. So to answer you question Ginny I'm fine. Same old same old here.

Tell everyone I said Hello.

Harry

Hedwig was out and Pig had left so Harry had to wait for her to return to send the letter. The longer he waited the more he felt he shouldn't send it. He didn't want to cause a fuss, he could just suck it up till his birthday. Also he didn't want to make Ginny feel bad, the more he thought about it the more amusing it was. Everyone in the order and all his friends had been tip toeing around him and here Ginny is telling not to be a git, and she had gone through a lot to even send the letter. He could almost laugh, almost. Hedwig flew in at that moment.

"Hey girl, I have a letter for you. Hold on." Harry grabbed a fresh parchment and started to write.

Hey Ginny,

Things aren't so bad here. I wont lie I would much rather be with you lot, even if it is at that house but I'm dealing with it. Sorry to worry you the letter must have slipped my mind. Tell everyone I say Hi and not to worry. Come when you can.

Yours, Harry.

P.S. Thanks for the letter, it was nice to hear from someone. You didn't get in trouble did you?

Harry looked at his letter closely, he really hated to lie but it was for a good cause. Crumpling his old letter he tossed it in the trash. Hedwig flew over when Harry had put his quill down. Attaching the letter Harry said,

"Alright this goes to Ginny, Okay girl?" trilling softly to acknowledge him he stroked her feathers with a far off look on his face.

"I think I'll try and sleep tonight" he told her, "I'm really tired." with that Harry walked over to his bed and curled up in it. As soon as Harry's head hit the pillow Hedwig flew over to the trash bin and pulled out Harry's first letter, and flew away quickly.

*~*~*

Ginny sat at the table in Grimwald Place eating a small breakfast. She was sitting alone, again. Over the summer Ron and Hermione had bonded. They didn't want her to know but she had also seen them holding hands, she suspected that her brother had finally stopped being a prat and asked the girl out. They also sat around talking about Harry and what was going on with him. This particularly bugged Ginny, he was in pain and felt guilty about it, duh. Why didn't they understand? After all it was very clearly written all over his face. Ginny watched at Hedwig came in through the fire place in slight shock. Harry hadn't sent a letter in a long time, and he replied so quickly. Hedwig flew over to Ginny a stuck out her leg as well as dropping something she had been holding. Confused Ginny untied the letter and looked at Hedwig putting to and to together.

"You took this out of his trash didn't you?" she asked the owl indicating to the crumpled parchment. The owl seemed very proud of herself with a woo she puffed out her chest.

"Good Girl!" Ginny said excitedly, she opened the one he actually sent first. She sighed to herself, at least he admitted he was lonely, but he lied about the letter slipping his mind. Something about Harry had always made him see easy to read, but apparently she was the only one who could do it. Ginny carefully unfolded the crumpled parchment and started to read. With every line she read she felt a small sadness wash over her. Harry needed her, uh, them right now. Ginny griped the parchment and wiping away her tears she marched out of the room to find someone who could help her. Her first thought was Hermione and Ron, so thats where she headed. Running up the stairs she (slowing to a quite speed around the picture of Sirius' angry mum) she found them in the drawing room.

"Harry just sent a letter," she stated as she walked in "he needs our help." Ginny said wondering for a moment why they looked so guilty

"Don't read to much into it Ginny." Ron said sounding board. Ginny had spoken about how Harry needed their help almost everyday sense the end of the term. Ron was "reading" over Hermione's shoulder.

"I'm not!" Ginny defended herself.

"Well, Ginny you have been known to, uh, worry when it comes to Harry," Hermione said turning a page in the book.

"Yeah, for good reason!" Ginny said in anger. "Don't you even care? You two are horrible friends! Sitting here making out while Harry is living hell!" Why did no one else see? He was hurting! "By the way Hermione your book is upside down." Ginny finished calmly, satisfied to see the couple blush. Turning on her heel she stormed out of the room. Now what? She wondered to herself. Her mother would most likely say the same thing as Ron and Hermione at this point, no matter how much she wanted Harry here herself. Aw of course, why didn't I think of him before?Ginny thought before turning and heading off in the direction of Moony's room.

~**~

"Moony!" Ginny called overly loud (as a joke) as she knocked on his door. Full moon had been a day or two ago and Ginny knew he was still recovering some.

"Ginny!" Moony called back in the same overly loud voice

"I need to talk to you! Can I come in?"

"Of course." Moony and Ginny had spent a lot of time together over the last couple days. Ginny asking all kinds of questions about anything she had on her mind really and Moony answered them to the best of his abilities. Ginny had started getting close to Moony in her second year when Remus had told her his door is always open when she needed to talk. After the chamber thing it had been hard to make friends and this small act of kindness had really boosted her self confidence. Remus had asked Ginny to call him Moony a while ago, "I'm not a professor any more," he would say, "Call me Remus, or Moony." Entering his room she sat in a large arm chair that was near his bed. Sighing dramatically.

"Harry replied to my letter," She told him, Remus was a good sport about Ginny sneaking around the other adults, "he actually tossed his first try but Hedwig fished it out and brought it here. This is the one he actually sent." handing him the letter as she spoke. Remus read the letter quickly a worried expression crossed his face before fading quickly. "This," she said, "is the letter he wrote first and I'm sure it's the more truthful one, you know how he spills whatever is on his mind when he's angry," This letter Moony read slower a pained expression fixed on his face all the way through. "What should I, or we assuming you are willing to help?," and Remus' nod of approval she continued with, "what should we do?" Ginny asked. Remus was like the uncle everyone wanted, the man with the ideas who loved to eat chocolate while he thought.

In reply he said, "I'm going to get him." Throwing back the covers and standing up he continued with "But first I have some things I need to take care of."

"But Dumbledore said..."

"I know, I'm ignoring him to do whats right for my godson. Besides any man who puts a child in a home with 'care givers' like the Dursleys to keep said child safe has made a mistake." He said honestly.

"That's the rule breaker I know and love!" Ginny said with enthusiasm, after Padfoot had died Remus had gotten really depressed it took Ginny shouting that Sirius would want him to be happy and pull pranks and that Harry would need him now more than ever to pull Remus back to his senses. Ginny herself had to remind herself of the very same thing every day. Before Harry had come to head quarters Ginny and Sirius had gotten close. "Your his new godfather? Brilliant! So can I come with to 'take care of some things'?"

"Yes, and if your mother says its alright."

"MUM!" Ginny basically screamed "Where are you?"

"What is it dear?" Molly asked stepping out of one of the nearest rooms drying her hands on her apron. "And please do not shout dear it is most unbecoming."

"Molly," Remus started "I have some things I need to take care of today and I was wondering if you would allow Ginny to join me?"

"Oh... I suppose, as long as your careful." Molly said calculatingly.

"Always!" Remus said with a cheeky smile "Alright Ginny, get what you need and meet me in the kitchen, all I have to do is get out of my Pj's" It was then that Ginny noticed his Pajamas, they had a little black dog and silver wolf playing and fighting. "Don't even think about it." Remus said before Ginny could say 'Aww' like she had planed. "Padfoot got these for me years ago and I could never bring myself to get rid of them." Moony said with a short laugh. Grinning Ginny rolled her eyes, that was totally something Sirius would do.

"Right-o captain." Ginny joked as she skipped out of the room to get anything she might need today. Remus always brightened her mood.

***~***

As she really had no idea what she was doing to day Ginny grabbed a sweater, she was wearing a plain light green t-shirt and jean shorts that came to about mid thigh. She also grabbed her wand and a deck of exploding snap cards, no sense in being board when there are things to blow up, or so Sirius and the twins had told her. While she and Sirius had been getting closer last summer, they exchanged pranking story's and even planed a few, Sirius always saying how much Lily was in her, claiming that she made a "Lily-ism" was one of his favorite pass times, he really was a great guy. Shaking her head to clear her thoughts Ginny stepped out of her room and made her way downstairs, pocketing her wand as she went. Making it to the landing she smiled as she saw Tonks waiting with Moony. When Moony spoke to Tonks he looked like more his 30 some odd years of age instead of the 40 some he looked from his transformations.

"Hello." Ginny said stepping into the landing.

"Wotcher, Ginny." Tonks said with a smile.

"I hope you don't mind Ginny but I asked Tonks to join us, after all I need someone around who can save my old hide if we run in to a spot of trouble," Remus said with a smile.

"Jeez,your not old Remus, your just old-ish" Ginny joked back.

"Ha. Ha. Ha." Remus said rolling his eyes "Youth is so cheeky these days," Moony told Tonks who nodded her head sadly. Laughing Remus motioned them out the door.

Once out side Ginny spotted a small car, grinning as Tonks shouted shot gun. She hopped in after Tonks. When Remus joined her in the back set Ginny cocked her head to the side and asked "Who's going to drive?"

"It drives it's self." Moony said with a grin.