Chapter One: Single
Jade's POV
I storm angrily into my room, slamming doors as I go. I mutter curse words under my breath. I get into my favorite pair of black satin pajamas, and slip into my bed.
Then the tears start to come, and I can't stop them. I am like a facet set to cold water, pouring out. My face turns red from crying. I am so glad I was alone, nobody could see me, the cool put together Jade, like this.
Why doesn't Beck love me? I'm popular. I'm hot. I am the nicest to him then I am to anyone else. Can't he see that?
What wouldn't I give to have Beck here, and make my world right again. To have him kiss me, so I could feel okay. My dream will never be fulfilled.
I took out my pear phone. On Beck's profile it said, "Single. Yup."
Single. The word sounds ugly in my head. That's what I am now. I haven't had to deal with that word for over two years. Would I find a new boyfriend? I am not sure. Beck seemed so suited for me... And now... I guess we weren't the perfect couple.
Now Beck was single to. This hurt even more. Now, when Beck goes to hang out in a group of cheerleaders, I can't make out with him so they know to stay away! All I can do now is watch and envy those girls, because the have a potential with Beck. I don't. I wonder how jealous I'd be if Beck got together with Tori. I'd probably move away. I couldn't stand to see that.
I look at my slap page. On it, Tori had written "Look I know you're hurt, but don't drag me into this." Can't Tori mind her own business! I type for her to delete that comment. Deep down, Tori was right. I am hurt.
I remember when Beck and I first met. A wave of sadness rushes over me. I remember looking at him for the first time. Of coarse, my first thoughts were "man, that boy is hot." Beck knows this. Beck knows nearly everything about me. He's seen me cry. He knows my secrets. He knows why I hate dolphins, and the ocean.
The truth rang over me loudly. I loved Beck. I still loved Beck. I will always love Beck.
I love you Beck, now I will sleep.