It feels as if I have been in bed for hours. My entire body hurts. I feel dizzy and my heart's breaking. Looking at Landon hurts. Wondering what it will be like after I pass away is terrible. What if he finds a new woman? No...he's not that kind of person...is he?
Tears begin to build up in my eyes again...beautiful moments together run through my mind. I can't bare it. The thoughts of leaving Landon hurt more than the pain in my body.
I can blurrily see him sitting in a recliner from the living room. He's fast asleep. Looking at him makes the tears run down my cheeks. My hands are too heavy to lift. I can't wipe them away.
Please God...take me now...I don't want to keep suffering...This pain hurts so much...I can't take it anymore...But then again, every last moment I can spend with Landon is precious.
My eyes shut again. My eyelids feel terribly heavy. But getting the pleasure to see Landon again...the pain is worth it. My love for him is to strong. No matter what, it will always keep going on.