I Miss You, a twilight fanfic

Here's a song one shot I did quite some time ago. It's a Jacob Black song one shot, and the song is I Miss You by Blink-182.

Disclaimer: I do not own Jacob Black or Blink-182.

Hello there, the angel from my nightmare,

The shadow in the background of the morgue,

He just had to leave, didn't he? He didn't think about anyone but himself, as per usual. The thoughts of her drove him practically to madness. Why couldn't he see she was bad for him? She always has been. How cliché. How could he ever want me, anyway? I'm nothing like…her. I don't make poor, unsuspecting boys think they have even a slight chance. I don't dump poor, unsuspecting boys for a man who sparkles in the sun. What kind of man sparkles in the sun?

She chose the one who drinks blood. She chose the one who is destined to Hell. Let her go. Let her be. Come for me. Stop being the one who haunts my dreams. Be there to comfort me when my nightmares become unbearable. Be there for me for always. I need you. She doesn't need you. She needs the cold being with no true personality. I need the big strong warm silly boy who I grew up with.

The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley

We can live like Jack and Sally if we want

Where you can always find me

And we'll have Halloween on Christmas

Does he remember when we used to go Trick-or-Treating together? I was always a princess. The princess he said I was. And he was always…an astronaut. No, we didn't match. That wasn't the point. He always had his head up in the clouds anyway. He was always a goof. He was always silly. Even after he became a protector of La Push. Even after he was changed into one of them. I wish we could go back to the time where vampires were stories and werewolves were urban legends. I wish things could go back to us always being there for each other. He would help me. He would save me. I would make him laugh. I would keep him entertained. We were an unstoppable team.

And in the night we'll wish this never ends

We'll wish this never ends

Why did things have to change? Why did things have to be so different? What happens to people's minds when they make the screwed up transition between eight and ninth grade? What about us making that jump makes our old friends our enemies and our old enemies our friends? We go from hate to friendship in the snap of a finger. Why does Mother Nature have to be so cruel?

Life isn't fair, I know that. Life has never been and will never be fair. Especially in high school. But I'm not asking for the world to be fair. I'm asking for life not to change so drastically between two years. A move from one building to another should not be so severe. It all feels so dramatic. Time doesn't change things, people change things. Why do people have to change?

Where are you and I'm so sorry

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream tonight

I pretend to hate you while you are gone. They know different. I'm sure you know too, if you even think about me. Pretending to hate you is easier than feeling the pain of you being gone. My nights are plagued with nightmares of what you must be facing, alone. Heartbreak. But what else? Your emotions are crippled…does that mean you'll give up and let anything cripple the rest of you? Could I bare it if one of them came to me and told me you were gone? Would I survive? I get by now, but I know you are alive. How long will I be okay knowing you'll never come back to me?

I need somebody and always

This sick strange darkness

Comes creeping on so haunting every time

The pain increases as the days go on. The months are dull. Things just aren't the same. Seeing your face on that poster in front of the house. Your childish smile that was only reserved for her. How could you let her manipulate you so easily? She was like an enchantress, luring you in slowly, so all you'd think about at night as you lay in your bed, was her face that you found so picturesque. How could you not see she was going to break you?

Did her looks really blind you to reality? Were you so glimmered you didn't realize what she was doing to you? How did she enrapture you so easily? How did she manipulate you? How did she make you clay to mold into whatever she wants, then throw away when she was done playing? What was so special about her?

And as I stared I counted

The webs from all the spiders

Catching things and eating their insides

She trapped you in her web. She stole you away from the real world. I thought you were smarter than that? How did you fall for her trap, so many times in a row? It makes no sense. I can't wrap my mind around it. Your logic confuses me, and hurts me at the same time. You've poisoned me with venom of your own. And so the heartbreak spider moves on to his next victim.

Do you remember that I hate spiders? I'm not afraid of death. Wasn't afraid of pain. Ghosts, aliens, vampires, werewolves. They all have nothing on spiders. My only fear is spiders. Aside from zombies. Do you remember that? Do you remember me?

Like indecision to call you

And hear your voice of treason

Will you come home and stop this pain tonight

Stop this pain tonight

I've waited for you to come back for months. And I know, even when you return, you'll look right past me to her. My love for you grows as my pain from the wound you created increases. I could do everything in the world for you, and you'd still turn your back on me. I want you to stop my pain, but all you do is make it worse. Jacob Black. Please return to me. Please, I need you.