Disclaimer: The characters in this story are not mine and belong to Grey's Anatomy.
AN: I'm sorry for every mistake I make, I don't have a beta yet and English is not my first language so I would truly appreciate any constructive input that may help further my storytelling.
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The life is based on decisions. We have choices, we choose, we bet. We win or lose, and we need to choose again... We can accept it or fight for change it.
Arizona was fighting. She loved Callie with her whole soul. She knew that she made a mistake and was trying to rectify it.
Three months ago when she left Callie alone in the middle of the airport she didn´t know her real feelings to her. Of course they were girlfriends and she had strong feelings for her, but was unimaginable believe that she would feel the necessity to come back just three months after because was she needed her.
In spite of Arizona was feeling useful and knew she was changing lives her own life was empty. She was crying every night because she missed her, even after that all those days she was looking for by Callie every morning and the cold sheets were a sign the another painful day.
So she made a decision and returned to Seattle with the hope to recover her life, to recover Callie.
"Again? Really Arizona, how many times I need to tell you that leave me alone," Since her return a week ago, Arizona kept going to Callie´s home every day trying to talk with her, but Callie didn't want to. She was mad and upset.
The fact was even when Callie wanted to deny it inside she couldn´t help but feel happiness when that night she opened the door and saw Arizona´s face. Those curls, the deep blue eyes that she could lose herself for hours... That seductive smile that could achieve anything. Her Arizona. The love of her life.
Nevertheless Callie was refusing to talk with Arizona and every time Arizona was trying to talk with her, Callie simply closed the door or she was leaving.
"Please Calliope, we need to talk"
"Not, don't Calliope me like this" Callie said with annoyance.
"Please, Callie. I've been coming here and the hospital for seven days. Please I need to talk with you. I know you are mad, but..."
"You know... Right" Callie snorted. "What do you know Arizona?. Do you how feel that the women you love, and you believed that was mutual is going Africa leaving you alone in the airport?, Do you know how does feel?"
"No, ok, I don't know how does feel, and I'm really sorry about that. I regret every day, but I love you Callie. I need you,"
They looked each other for a few seconds. There was nothing but love. Arizona tried to hold the Callie´s hand but she rapidly moved away.
"I'm sorry for you, I don't have nothing to talk with you. Now please you get out because this is my apartment's door and I need get inside" Callie said indifferently
Arizona bit your lip and moved to one side.
"Thank you, now goodbye." When Callie entered into the apartment and was closing the door Arizona stopped it.
"No. Not anymore. I've begged you for a week to talk and you just ignored me. I traveled loads of kilometers for coming here with you and I don't go anywhere without we talk" Arizona was standing holding the door.
"You needed to come back because you left. Don't you dare blame me for this" Both women were yelling in the middle of the corridor.
"I don't blame you Callie; I am just asking a minute to talk... just that..." Callie noticed the pain in Arizona´s voice and thought for a moment.
"Just a minute, and then you go?"
Arizona smiled sadly "If that if you want, I´ll go forever"
Callie moved away to the door and indicated Arizona could go on. Arizona sighed in relief. She would talk to Callie. She had the chance to fight for her. She wanted to show to Callie that she was completely in love with her.
"Thank you"
"Just talk, Arizona" When the door was closed Arizona began to talk.
"I´m sorry. I'm deeply , deeply sorry, and I know that don't change the fact that I left you, but I need you hear me..."
"Ok, I´ve heard you, now you can go." Callie was avoiding Arizona's glance, she knew that Arizona had her eyes brimming with tears and Callie didn't want giving into them.
"I've missed you so much Callie. I've been regretful for left you every single day..." The tears were trickling down her cheeks and Callie was looking the floor. "Actually not, I don´t regret about left you..."
"Great. Very nice, Arizona. Did you want to talk to me for telling me you are happy now, because it is…"
"No! Let me finish ok!? If this is my last change with you at least let me talk... Please..." Arizona said with a broken voice.
"Ok... "
"I love you Callie. I love you so much. I realized that I want to spend my life with you. I was a complete idiot," Arizona sighed "but you must understand that I couldn't allow you to come with me in that way... that would have been a huge mistake..."
"Well, I´m sure that is much better" Callie said sarcastically.
"No. Of course not, but I hope we can talk and you are able to forgive me..." Arizona stepped forward to Callie. "I. Love. You. Please, please give me another chance to show you how I love you" Arizona held Callie´s hand.
"Arizona, you broke my heart" Callie said sobbing.
"I know and I´m truly sorry. Please Calliope, when I was in Africa I just was able to think about you, how I missed you, your eyes, your skin... your lips... Your kisses... "Arizona kissed softly Callie's lips.
Callie put Arizona aside. "I'm sorry. I can't"
"Please, tell me you don´t love me anymore..."
"Arizona..." Arizona was trying to kiss her again.
"Callie I can´t breathe without you... I can´t live without you... I promise I´ll be the woman you deserve, give me a chance..."
"I can't. I won't"
Callie could see the hurt in Arizona´s face. "Why..? Ok, I've messed everything up but I swear I've changed"
After a few seconds Arizona continued. "Before I met you I did not believe in love, in true love, the love that changes your life... which it teaches you that your life doesn't have any sense without the person you are in love. That feeling that you are in heaven every time you open your eyes in the morning and she is lying next to you... and you don't want anything but that. You could happily die for her and absolutely you will die without her... All of this I've known because of you..."
Callie was crying while she was hearing the Arizona's speech.
"Are you finished?" Callie said in a gross way.
"Yes... I guess so..."
"Well, so, you can leave now"
Arizona looked to Callie for a second and took out a paper from her pocket. "Do you know what is it?
"Not. and I don't be in mood to guess"
"It´s a plane ticket... to Africa. If I don't have any chance with you, I'll return there with the people who need me... "
"So you are leaving again..." Callie said with faltering voice.
"It's up to you. Just tell me that I have a chance, and I don't go anywhere... tell me you still love me and I'll spend every day asking your sorry, I'll do that for one hundred years it if necessary until you are able to spent your life with me again... Just tell me..."
"Have a good trip. Take care"
"Ow." Arizona felt dying. "So that it´s all?"
Callie dried her tears. "Yes."
"Can I... ?" Before finishing her sentence Arizona was kissing Callie like if her life depended on that.
"I really sorry all of this... I love you Calliope. I'll always do"
"Goodbye, Arizona" Callie was praying that Arizona was able to leave the apartment before she couldn't resist the urge to hug and kiss her forever.
"Are you seeing someone else?" Arizona looked deeply into Callie´s eyes.
"I... I´m... I have someone in my life..." Callie couldn't say that looking into Arizona´s eyes.
"I´m... I'm sorry. I didn't know... It´s just I thought that... Sorry... I should go..."
"Arizona..."
"Not, it's ok. I hope that person to be able to make you happy... like I didn´t"
"You did, but then..."
"Yeah... I know... Take care Calliope"
Arizona walked to the door and before get out she turned to Callie. "Tomorrow at six pm"
"What?"
"My plane it´ll takeoff at that hour... I tell you for if you change your mind... I´ll be waiting for you Calliope." Arizona smiled to Callie and through the door.
When the door was closed Callie couldn't contain her sobbing. She rested on the door and slowly slipped her to the floor.
Her head between her hands. She only could cry... Of course she still loved Arizona. How she couldn't?
Arizona still has been able to stop her heart with just a glance... When she kissed her a few minutes ago Callie was begging that the world just stop it right there with her in Arizona's arms, and their lips connected just as it should be forever.
But Callie couldn't do that. Not right now. Her life was changed and will change even more. Will Arizona be able to handle it? She didn't know but she wouldn't give Arizona the chance of break her heart again. Not again. Besides how could she explain that? Even when they weren't in a relationship she shouldn't do that she did. But why? She was single again... even when her heart belonged to Arizona and she knew it. If was Arizona, what would have thought it...?
Nothing matters now, because even when Arizona begged for another chance, she refused her. Less that twenty four hours, just that and her life would be the same... the same life without Arizona, dark, empty and sad life... At least now she had someone to put her dreams, but wouldn't be wonderful could live that new life with Arizona..?
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"Would you call me?"
"Yes, sure..."
"Arizona, did you hear something we are talking about?"
"What?"
"Arizona, please stop spinning around..."
"Sorry, Teddy... Do you think she'll come?"
Teddy sighed. They both have been in the airport since forty minutes now, and Arizona just was talking about Callie and was looking for her for everywhere.
"I don't know"
"What is she can't find me?, What is she is lost here trying to find me...?" Arizona needed to believe that Callie would be there asking her not to travel to Africa...
"Look, If she wants to find you, she will"
"Teddy!" Arizona protested
"What?"
"You are not helping..." Arizona was nervous and Teddy could notice it but was trying to calm her because she didn't believe that Callie was searching for Arizona.
Teddy grabbed to Arizona by her shoulders. "Arizona, you are leaving there to live your dream, can you please stop to think in Callie?"
"No! Don't you understand? Callie is my dream... my dream, not Africa..." she was holding her tears back.
"Arizona, you need to live your life... you won a Madison Grant and that is an incredible thing that you need to enjoy it. I know you are in love with Callie but you came back here and she had moved on with her life without you... she had all right to do that... you can't blame her for that..."
"I'm not blaming her... It's just..."
"I know honey, I know..." Teddy held her for a few seconds. "But really Arizona just enjoy that... You will do an amazing job helping children there..."
"Yes... I guess... Maybe you are right..."
"I'm, I'm totally right" Teddy smiled her "I'll miss you"
"Me too. I know it will be hard for you... to lose a best friend ever..." Both laughed.
"Arizona?"
"Mmm?"
"You are right, It'll be hard but, I guess you'll call me..."
"Of course I'll do that! I'll tell you about every kid I could save... Thank you Teddy"
"For what reason?"
"For coming here... for be my best friend... I don't know... Thank you for everything..."
"You are really welcome, and you don't need to thank me anything..."
At that moment Teddy's pager sounded.
"Dammit" Teddy sighed
"Is it a 911?"
"Yes... sorry..."
"Hey, it's ok, don't worry. Go, somebody needs you," Arizona smiled
"But you will be here for another thirty minutes at least, I wanted to be here with you"
"It's no big deal, really"
"Ok... I'll miss you"
"You already said that, you will make me cry" They hugged again. "I'll call you and you'll tell me how is Karev doing his job, Ok?"
"Arizona, lets him breathe"
"We are talking about my tiny humans, no way I could take off my eyes on him and as I won't be here you will be my eyes". Teddy rolled her eyes. "Awesome, you will be like a spy..."
"Yeah, a surgeon and a spy, great..."
"You'll do it, I know. Now you go to save lives"
"Yes, just the last hug"
"Teddy?"
"What?"
"Callie didn't come..." She said with a broken voice
"I'm sorry..." Teddy hugged Arizona and she could feel her shaking and sobbing.
"Could you tell her that I waited her?"
"Arizona..." Teddy warned her.
"Ok... Ok... Go…" She wiped her tears away with her palm.
Arizona was feeling broken. Alone in the airport she could only think about the last time she was there with Callie and how the things ended. She wanted that everything were different, she was rejected about she was not being able to explain Callie why she believe that she wouldn´t be happy in Africa, and now she haven't any chance to do it. She even was not gone and she was missing Callie already. Just another thirty minutes, and she would lose Callie for ever.
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The knock on the door brought her to the reality. She couldn't say how many hours she spent sitting on that couch sobbing.
"Torres, are you there?. Callie, open the door"
She opened the door. She knew that Mark was worried because she didn't answer neither of his calls.
"What do you need Mark?"
"What do I need?, Are you kidding me Callie? I've called you a hundred times and you didn't answer, I was scared. You didn't go to work." He looked really worried.
"I know, I'm sorry..."
"What the hell is going on?" He could see that Callie was crying minutes ago. "You look like hell"
"I've lost her"
He didn't need more words, he knew what Callie was talking about. "Come on, come here" He said opening his arms and embracing her while he closed the door.
"Have you talked to her?"
"Yes, I did. She came here yesterday and we talked, she is leaving today..."
"I'm sorry... so, she left you because the baby" Mark was caressing the Callie's hair while both were on the couch.
"No."
Mark sighed. "Well, at least you tried"
"No". Callie repeated almost verge of tears.
"No, what?"
"I didn't. I didn't tell her about the baby..."
"Why?, Callie we talked about that.. You need to talk to her."
"No, Mark, I won't. She is leaving again, she is leaving to Africa"
"Yes, because you didn't want to talk to her"
Come on, Callie, I'm sure she'll understand. She loves you."
"Really, Mark?, Let me see... Hey, Arizona, remember when you were in Africa, well, Mark and I spent the night together because I was angry and drunk and now I'm expecting a baby of him... What do you think?"
"Well, that isn't the speech I had in mind..."
"Did she understand?" Callie asked angry.
"Who?"
"Lexie, Did Lexi understand?"
"No... she didn't, but it isn't the same, Callie I was..."
"Don't. Mark just stops, ok? We will be parents, we will be happy and, we'll find someone to love..."
"She made you happy, Callie and you love her, I'm just saying that..."
"That nothing, Mark."
Mark sighed. "We will be happy, right?"
"We will, the three of us..." Callie smiled sadly.
After a silent minute Mark spoke again.
"Do you know I want you be happy?"
"Of course I know"
"Do you know, what I would have been happy?. That Lexi would accept the baby..."
"I'm sorry Mark"
"But I'm relieved, Do you know why?. Because I tried, and maybe someday she wants to spend her life with me and our Mark junior"
Callie laughed. "Mark junior, really?"
"Ok, maybe ours little Calliope..."
"No, You never say that name again". Callie warned him. That right were just for Arizona.
"However, You can't say the same because you gave up, before to try it"
"Please, tell me we are not talking about Arizona again"
"Yes, we do. I'm your friend and as your best friend I'm trying you do the right"
When Callie saw that Mark was looking her keys, she asked. "Where do you go?"
"I'm not going, We are going to find Arizona, at least you need to try... I don't want that in a few months you are wondering what You would have if you were telling her the truth"
"Is late, Mark" her voice was broken.
"What time, her plane was leaving?" Mark said looking her watch.
"At six, but..."
"We are late, Let's go"
"Thank you"
"You two can thank me later, now we need to go."
Callie smiled him and both left the apartment. Callie had the opportunity to stop Arizona and if Mark had right, Arizona would accept to her and the baby, and both could start a family, just like she always wanted.
"I'm sorry, Callie"
"It's ok, maybe that's better, you know? Surely she wouldn't accept the situation, so..."
Mark looked at her and smiled sadly. They were looking for Arizona and they couldn't find her. They were at the airport a couple minutes before at six, but Arizona just wasn't in the hall. Mark insisted to Callie call to her while they were in the way but all the times Arizona's voicemail answered.
He can see the sadness in Callie's face and she couldn't but blames himself, he was who gave hope to her and now Callie again needed to face the fact that Arizona left.
"You can call her, I'm sure she'll return if you talk to her..."
"Don't Mark. I need to forget about her" that words hurt so much to her, she felt that someone was tightening her heart.
"But..."
"Please..?" She said with a broken voice.
"Ok"
Mark could see the tears running down her cheeks. Both were in silence. Mark was driving and Callie decided turn on the radio trying to get Arizona out of her mind. The silence was broken by "Within Temptation", Memories was playing on the radio and Callie couldn't get her mind of Arizona, she knew that her life without Arizona it would be a hard way, her only hope was the baby who was growing inside her, but she had any doubt, part of her heart, no matter what, it would always belong to Arizona.
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"Hey, baby girl, what's wrong?" She asked the girl who was crying in the middle of the hall.
"I want my mommy" she answered in sobs
"What's your name?"
"Sofia"
"Nice to meet you Sofia, you have a really beautiful name... By the way, I'm Dr. Robbins, Arizona Robbins" she smiled the girl who was calmed now and watching at Arizona carefully.
"Dr. Zona"
"Well, yes, that works too... So Sofia, what's your mommy' name?"
"Mommy" Sofia said without hesitation
"Right, silly me... and Do you know where was your mommy?
Sofia shook her head
"Is your mommy a patient?, Is your father with you?"
Sofia shook her head again. "My mommy is a doctor like you and Daddy isn't here, he is far away, he is Seatt.. Seate...
"Seattle"
"Yes, but he promised me that he will come to visit us"
"That's great" Sofia smiled to her.
Arizona called a nurse who was near. "Betty, Do you know who is this beautiful girl?"
"No, I've never seen her before, why?"
"She was trying to find her mommy, she said that she is a doctor here"
"What's her name?"
"Mommy" both answered in unison and when Betty laughed Sofia looked at Arizona confused.
"Does anybody asking for her?" Arizona asked Betty.
"No, at least until now..."
"Ok. Do you know what, Sofia?, I need to do some work in my office and I need an assistant ... How old are you?"
"I'm three and a half" Sofia said proudly.
"Perfect. You could be my assistant, while Betty is looking for your mommy... Don't you?
"Yes!, I'll be your assistant Dr. Zona. Mommy always says that I'm a good helper.
"Well Betty, my new assistant and I have work to do... when you find her mommy, you send her to my office, Ok?
"Yes, Dr. Robbins"
"Bye Betty" Sofia said to the nurse.
Several minutes passed since Arizona and Sofia were in the office when they heard that someone was yelling.
"Sofia, baby, where are you?, Come on, baby, come here..." she was scared, that could be noticed by the tone of her voice. "Excuse me, Did you see a girl, three years old, black hair..."
"Yes, are talking about Sofia? Are you?"
"Yes! Where is my daughter, did you see her?"
"She is with..." the nurse couldn't finish the phrase when a door was opened and Sofia yelled.
"Mommy, I'm here..." said walking toward Her mother while she was coming out Arizona's office
"Sofia, god, you scared me to dead" Callie walked into Sofia and hugged her.
"Mommy, you are choking me"
"Sorry, Baby... Is just... I was really scared, never do that again, Ok?"
"Sorry, mommy..." Sofia said ashamed
"Well, come on... lets go..."
"Can we wait?, I'm working"
"You, what? Callie asked intrigued
"I'm her assistant"
"Well, we can go to say bye and we'll thanks her for taking care of you"
"Yes, mommy. Can I come here tomorrow?"
Callie smiled. "That doctor must be really nice, a few hours ago you didn't want never come back..."
"She is, mommy, she is really cool"
Callie still was knelt front Sofia when she heard a voice. Could spend ten years and still, she could recognize it. She didn't need to raise the sight to know who was. She missed that sweet sound towards five years.
"Here is your mommy. I'm sorry , ma'am, I was on the phone. You should be Sofia's mother"
She was sure that her heart stopped by an instant, and now was racing. She dreamed so many times when they meet again and now she was frozen. She was scared not even want to look up her. But she did and she couldn't help a big smile. She felt happy, for a second she was happy.
"Hi... I... You..." Her mouth was dry. She couldn't talk... she didn't know any word at that moment. "Arizona..." she whispered.
Sofia was looking at her mother. "Is doctor Zona" she corrected her.
"Hello, I'm Dr. Robbins. Arizona Robbins."
Callie was bewildered, why the hell Arizona was standing in front of her extending her hand in greeting like she was a stranger. In all these years Callie thought about how Arizona could react if they met again, and happiness, anger or hurt were some of the feeling in she thought, but never in a million years this.
"Arizona, I'm me... Why are you...? Callie couldn't finish because someone was calling at Arizona and she recognized that person too.
"Arizona, I was waiting for you at the entrance, how many times I need to tell you... Callie" Teddy was there too.
"Do you know each other?" Arizona asked Teddy
"Yes... Callie is an old friend... We used work together in Seattle..."
"Teddy, what is all of this?" Said Callie still trying to understand what was happening
Teddy approached at Callie and hugged. "I promise I'll explain you all, just not now..."
"But Teddy, why she.."
"Please, Callie, not now." that was almost a plea.
Callie observed the two women for an instant. "Come on Sof, say goodbye" When Sofia run towards Arizona to say bye, Callie looked at Teddy "I'll be waiting your call, and gave her a card.
"I'll do. I promise"
"Bye, Sofia, take care and be good for mommy" Callie heard Arizona talking with Sofia. "Nice to meet you Dr. Torres"
"Nice to meet you... Dr. Robbins" she said with a lump in her throat.
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AN2: Sorry again about my English...