ONCE IN A DREAM AND I LOVE YOU SO

it was four years ago when Mikan had suddenly left. she had broken up with natsume and had also harbored a secret. Now four years later Mikan is a changed person. But will arrival of three new students change her back? Will Natsume and Mikan be one again? Will the three new students help them? Who are they, anyway?

Well I have decided to re post this chapter as I found few errors in it. There aren't any major changes, just few nicks and tucks.

Disclaimer: I do not own Gakuen Alice or Alice Academy. However, Noah, Neil and Nami –the kittens are my property and result of my freakily over active crazy imagination. If you want to use them, you have to ask for my permission as under the rules of the www (dot)fanfiction(dot)net. Thank you.

Warning: this chapter contains mention of rape and certain details.

Italics - memories

Chapter 1: dreams and memories

Her eyes stared off to the wide horizon of starry skies, her lips mumble, "Natsume, where are you?" Her long chestnut hair was flying with the breeze as she stood on the balcony waiting for her boyfriend. The twelve year old was clad in her night gown. Her body was still developing- even if she had hit puberty a few months ago. She glanced at the clock.
2:34 a.m. her boyfriend had left for a mission the morning before. He had promised he would be back the present day.

"Natsume, please be ok," she thought. Her thoughts clocked with worry. Another reason of the worry was that medicine that Persona had been giving as a pain killer to him. He had been sent to a lot of missions lately. the medicine did something weird. He was acting strangely because of the medicine Persona had been giving him, and she had been worried since then. She knew they were there to ease his pain, but she figured out something was wrong with them. They weren't just pain killers.

Her train of thought was broken by a noise from behind. She turned and the door opened. In came a raven haired boy with alert and yet tired crimson eyes, scanning his room. Everything was fine, and his gaze landed on the brunette.
"Mikan" he murmured, a sly grin plastered on his face. He stumbled his way to her and planted a kiss on her lips.

Mikan remembered the first time, he was sent on a mission when they got into a relation. He had returned back in the middle of the night, like today. He had rushed to her as soon as he had arrived. She had been waiting for him. She had administered his wounds while he had showered her with kisses when ever possible. Mikan remembered he did this to comfort himself than her. She let him.

"Natsume, are you ok? You aren't hurt, are you?" Mikan asked quickly pulling away. She was answered with a push down the floor as he started kissing her again. "Natsume," Mikan thought. He would always do this when he would be back from a mission. he had started to be more assertive since he had started to take the medicine.

Natsume pulled away her nightgown and attacked her nape. Mikan sighed. "Stop it Natsume," she said, but she was ignored. "Stop it," she said again, but Natsume did not stop. She repeated herself about four times until Natsume finally pulled away. A sly smile was still on his face. "Are you ok?" she asked him. He smirked. He bent a little towards his left, like he was trying to get something. "Natsume?" Mikan inquired but there was flash of silver towards her left shoulder. She shouted in pain and agony. She looked into his eyes. A little dash of purple could be seen in them. Just behind his crimson eyes, she could see it. He wasn't himself.

He attacked her torn, blood covered piece of clothing and pulled it away from her. "Natsume don't," Mikan shouted painfully. She started to push him away. She was pushed down by him and winced in pain. "Stop it Natsume please, stop it," Mikan protested. Natsume ignored her concentrating more on her exposed skin. She tried to push him away but he was heavy. He pushed her down on the cold, hard, and carpeted floor. Her head hit something hard. More pain. She winced. Pain. And from then on she could remember only one thing. Pain. Blood. Tears. And pain.

Mikan woke up with a shock. This was the third time this week she had this dream. Her mind was playing tricks on her. It was no dream, it was a bad memory. The more she tried to forget it the more it came back to her. She turned on the night lamp and looked out of the window. "The stars are brighter today than they were then," she thought. Sitting up she brushed away a stray strand of her hair from her eyes. It was then she realized she was covered in sweat and tears. She straightened her pajama top and poured herself a glass of water from a pitcher. She had never worn night gowns since then. The sixteen year old glanced on her left shoulder after pulling down the top a bit. The mark was still there. The knife had left a deep scar on her shoulder. It was no dream after all.

Ironically he had left no mark on her heart. It was still the same. Pure and innocent. Only she had built a wall to hide it all. To appear strong. It made her capable enough to face this past demon. No one knew about it. Her heart and the dream. The only problem was however much she denied she knew: she still loved him.

Breaking her chain of thought, she took a deep breath. Over the years she had matured, both physically and mentally. Any one in her shoes would have. She glanced at her bedside drawer and then opened it. Taking out a snapshot she looked at it, her lips turned into a smile. "I miss you," she said almost in a whisper. Taking a last look at the picture she placed it back inside the drawer. She sighed and went back to a dreamless sleep.

Back in the photograph stared at the camera three enchanting alice users. One of them had crimson eyes and raven hair.

NOTE: THIS CHAPTER IS RECENTLY BETA-ED BY SHIKYO KURANOSAI- REBIRTH YOU ROCK GIRL. THANK YOU

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~ cara g