DISCLAIMER: I Keira Simmons do not know Naruto characters, Naruto settings, I do not own anything Naruto related. I also do not own any of the music lyrics I feature if I feature in this fan fiction. However i do own all the students at Santiam High School
Chapter 1.
"Deidara please get out of the car. We are staying at this town until you are well enough to go back to the hide out." Itachi said trying to open the door that Deidara had locked.
"I am perfectly fine Itachi. un." Deidara told the raven haired boy unlocking the door and stepping out of the car.
"You tried to kill yourself remember look at the scars on your wrists. The ones that go all the way up your arms. and the whole thing about you cutting yourself. Add in the locking yourself in the bath room. I don't think that you are okay Dei." Itachi told the blonde boy. "So we are in America because my Sasori died and I can't live without him, un?" Deidara said tears threatening to come out. "I hate you Itachi look at this school, un. I am not ready to go to school I haven't been to anything except for the Iwagakure Ninja Academy, un." Deidara who had begun to cry said crossing his arms."Deidara listen you are going to school today so am I, but we have to get you in there now. I went yesterday it is not that bad and everyone is very nice.""Will they be nice when they find out I am a freak who cuts himself, loved a boy, and tried to kill himself over that boy, un? I didn't think so, un." Deidara said tears still running down his face. He wanted to hurt himself. He wanted to die and be with his danna.
"They will. trust me. Come on Deidara." Itachi said wiping the tears off Deidara's face.
"Okay. I trust you Itachi, un." Deidara followed Itachi into the school 'Sanitam High School. Home of the Wolverines.' a sign in front of the school said.
"Hey Itachi." a boy said The boy had brown hair.
"What up Jamie." Itachi said and walked off with this Jamie character.
Deidara rolled his eyes looked around he had no idea where he was going. He was getting frusterated and felt like he was going to cry. Then he heard the voice of a girl behind him. "Hey you look new. I'm Kayla. Need some help?"
"I am Deidara, un. I would love some help, un." Deidara said to the girl with red hair she kind of looked like Sasori minus the puppet body. She was his height her hair was longer but close to the same red color. She had green eyes like Sasori. It sort of hurt him to look at her.
"Okay first I think you have your schedual because i remember talking to Itachi about you." Kayla said her eyes motioned to his arms but then back up to his face. "You know don't you, un?" Deidara said ashamed of himself.
"Itachi did let it slip, But I think only to me. He saw something I had in my binder. Can I see your Schedual?" Kayla said showing Deidara her binder a picture of a young man with short brown hair was next to a piece of paper that said 'R.I.P Seth Save us a spot in Heaven We miss you.' "He was one of my best friends. He saw it and said you lost somebody really close to you and you tried to kill yourself."
"Yeah. I don't feel like talking about it now. Here is my schedual." Deidara said handing Kayla the piece of paper in his hands. Kayla took it and looked it over.
DEIDARAGrade: 11
1. Physical Education-----------------------Buell Gonzales
2. Geometry-------------------------------Steven Finicle
3. Chemistry-----------------------Steven Finicle
4. American Pop Culture-------------------Bill Brown
5. Government------------------------------Steve Young
6 Vet Science-------------------------------Nicole Sholz
7. English 2--------------------------------Mandy Summer
"Deidara we have the same schedual except for fourth period I didn't like that class well so I moved into another class well not really I will still be in your class just I am a Teacher's assistant." Kayla told him. "Come on let's go to the Library you can meet the coolest Librarian ever."
Deidara followed Kayla to the Library of the school. "Hey Hunny. Who is your friend."
"This is Deidara. Hey Debbie is my book in?" Kayla asked the librarian.
"Here it is are you sure you are ready you know it has to do with suicide?" Debbie told Kayla.
"Yeah I'm ready. It doesn't matter what I read Seth will still be gone and it wont change the way he died. Besides Debbie I heard it was a really good book." Kayla said. Deidara wondered if this Seth guy they were talking about killed himself. The look in Kayla's eyes when she looked at the cover of the book told Deidara that he did. He was brought into focus when Kayla started talking again "I miss him Debbie."
"I know you do Sweetie we all miss that boy." She told Kayla. The bell rang a signal to go to first period. Physical Education. Phys. Ed. P.E. When they got to the hallway near the Gym Kayla could sense Deidara's anxiousness.
"Deidara I know you are worried about dressing down just wear your hoodie. I wear mine see." Kayla pulled up a sleeve of her hoodie and showed Deidara some scars on her arm. "Well at least I did when I cut alot. I don't do it so much anymore so I don't really see a need to hide anything. Just keep your hoodie on and put on shorts."
Deidara put his long hair in a pony tail and got into Shorts. He spent as little time was needed in the locker room.
"Look at the girly boy." a skinny guy whispered to a blonde boy right next to him. Deidara put his hands in the front pockets of his hoodie. "I bet he is a faggot too." They both laughed the blonde a little less but it still hurt Deidara.
"Hey Deidara sorry I'm usually one of the last ones out of the locker room. I should have told you I usually wait for Emily she is my cousin and one of my only friends in this class. Emily, Megan, The two Jessica's, and of course Josh." Kayla motioned to the blonde that had laughed when the other boy called him a faggot.
"Okay guys 3 laps." The teacher said.
"What was that 1 lap Gonzo." Megan said. Really nobody ran the 3 laps they all ran in circles randomly around the Gym.
"Okay guys Hockey Unreal edition. upstairs." Gonzo said. When they got upstairs they all broke into teams.
They played for awhile Deidara found the game amusing he some what enjoyed himself until a girl named Skylar hit him with the hockey stick in the arm where he had a giant cut full of stitches.
"Skylar. Keep the stick down!" The teacher yelled.
Thank God the bell rang. Deidara got back into his pants and went out side. Kayla was already out there with Emily, who seemed really nice, and that Josh, who was nice after he apologized for laughing with the kid who Deidara learned was named Ross. Deidara pulled some of his hair out of his pony tail with some of his long blonde hair in his face with some down while the rest was up.
"Geometry next. You ready Josh we have a Test?" Kayla said.
"Shoot me in the freakin head." Josh said leaning back in the chair he was sitting in.
"Don't worry Deidara you wont have to take the test." Kayla said.
"Good. It has been awhile since I took math, un." Deidara said as the bell rang the hall they walked down was croweded as students traveled from one class to another.
"Hey Dei, How is your day so far?" Itachi said as they went into the class.
"Itachi, you are in this class, un?" Deidara asked shocked Itachi always was smart in math.
"No, I'm this sensei's new TA. This teacher actually likes being called sensei. I took the job when the former teacher assistant couldn't do his job."
"Cody got his job taken away that is funny." Kayla laughed as she sat in her desk. "Deidara this desk is open sit here"
"She has you trained, Deidara." Itachi said. going to a swivel (Sp?) chair.
The class ended and Kayla left her stuff. "come on Deidara."
"Where are we going, un?" Deidara looked at her
"We are on a mission. Operation: Find Barbara!" Kayla told him. Deidara looked at Kayla.
"Object in sight."Kayla said running to a girl. The girl was tall about as tall as Itachi. "Hey Barbara this is Deidara he is new."
"Hey Kayla you seem hyper today." Barbara said
"I had a Red Bull for breakfast!" Kayla told her. "I am fully prepared for the crash about 5th period."
"Hey so you are Deidara. Your buddy Itachi has been telling everyone about you. And why you are here. Nobody is going to call you on it but I just thought you should know." Barbara said
"I'm going to kill Itachi, un." Deidara said.
"Hey Barb we will check you later okay?" Kayla told the girl. The girl looked at Kayla and Deidara and left saying something about her boyfriend.
"I'm going to kill Itachi, un." Deidara repeated.
"Deidara you okay?" Kayla asked
"He had no right to tell people about me, un. Why I am here. It isn't fair, un." Deidara said. He had started to cry. Which Kayla found slightly awkward.
"You know he might be worried about you and he is telling people this so they can let him know if you are planning on killing yourself or something." Kayla told him. Her head was down. Deidara didn't know it but she was thinking of her friend Seth at that moment. She wished that she would have been able to stop Seth from killing himself.
"It's still not their buisness, un." Deidara said. as they went to Chemistry.
"Okay class you are making gun powder. " Finny Sensei said
"Yes! Explosives!" Kayla said. Deidara lit up a little he loved art!
After Kayla, Cody, and Ashley nearly lit the school on fire the bell rang.
TIME SKIP-7th period.
"Hey Deidara. I'm Mrs. Summer. I'm the English 2 teacher here is your journal you will write everyday. I will read anything that does not say do not read. but you can't put do not read on all of them. They all tried that except for Kayla she puts herself out there. I think we are going to start off with circle time since today is the second week back from break." The class put the desks in a circle and they got the 'talking stick' which was what kept the class in order during circle time. "Deidara is new here can somebody explain what we do in circle time?"
A hispanic kid said "Yo, man we listen to eachother. Our thoughts about a topic."
"That's right Omar. See Deidara these kids don't get to express themselves at home so we take one day a week for circle time everyone talks about there views on the subject and how they are feeling. Sometimes we get off subject and end up talking about something different. But I don't think that is going to happen today. Deidara you don't know much about the person but I hear you know about the subject. You don't have to share if you don't want to you get the freebie of the week if you choose to use it." Mrs. Summer said. "It has been about a week since we learned as a school about Seth commiting suicide. I have read your journals and you all had something to say about Seth or your views on suicide. Kayla why don't you start." Mrs. Summer handed Kayla the talking stick which was really just a door knob.
"I remember when I got the news Seth died. It is like it was just yesterday. It replays in my mind everyday. I was sleeping and my cell phone started blasting music signaling a text message. It was from Justin. 'Kayla Seth shot himself. He is gone.' I was so angry at Seth I threw my phone at the wall. I couldn't believe Seth was dead. I didn't cry for like the first week. Until we got back to school. Listening to Principal P. talk about it. It was like it hit me he was gone. I tried to not cry I really did. but I couldn't help it I was so angry, sad, and scared. Then at his funeral they played songs that were horrible to listen to. Right when the first song 'go rest high on that mountain' started playing the first line of the song 'I know your life on earth was troubled only you could know the pain' along with pictures I broke down. It had to be the worst time in my life."
"Thank you Kayla. Next." Deidara listened as all the students told stories sort of like Kayla's everyone was crying by the time this was over. Even Deidara who was remembering Sasori. He also got a glimpse in how his Akatsuki friends would have taken it if he killed himself.
"Deidara are you ready to share?" Mrs Summer said as Amber a blonde girl finished. "Nothing said during circle time leaves circle time." Deidara nodded.
"I tried to kill myself a few days ago. Because my friend Sasori died, un." Deidara wiped a tear from his face and a piece of bandaged shown. He unwrapped his arm and showed the class. "This isn't the bad one, un. But they said this one alone could have killed me, un." Deidara rewrapped his arm but kept talking. "Hearing all of you talking about your friend and how much you miss him made me think of Sasori and how much I miss him, un. I think I tried to kill myself so I could be with him, un. I am lonely with out Danna, un." Deidara started sobbing.
"Okay I think this circle time is over." Mrs. Summer said getting up she hugged Deidara. "I am so proud of you Deidara. It takes alot to share especially after what you have went through in the past few days. This class starts to feel like a therapy session and partly it is a therapy session. These kids have it hard. Losing a friend is the worst for them because they only have their friends. I sense that is the same with you."
" I just miss him so much, un." Deidara told Mrs. Summer
" If you ever need anything my door is always open." She hugged Deidara one more time when the bell rang.
"See today wasn't so bad." Kayla said coming up to Deidara wiping her eyes.
"Help me find Itachi, un." Deidara told her. It didn't take long Itachi was across the hall in his Physics class.
"Hey Dei. Have you been crying?" Itachi asked when he saw Deidara.
"Circle time, un." Deidara said. "See ya Kayla, un."
"Bye Deidara. Bye Itachi." Kayla said as she turned and walked away.
"Why were you crying?" Itachi asked him looking into Deidara's red puffy eyes
"We talked about that kid who killed himself and then I told them my story everyone was crying, un." Deidara said getting in the car. "I would have told everyone. You are a asshole Itachi."
"I'm sorry Dei." Itachi said
"Whatever. lets go back to the house, un." Deidara said looking out the window they passed Kayla who was walking listening to her iPod she was wiping a tear away from her face singing a song. Deidara felt a tear roll down his face remembering his Danna.
A/N: Ok there is chapter one please review. Thank you. keep in mind I am Dyslexic and English is not my first language.