"Wanted"

Summary: After being so broken, for awhile Adam was convinced their relationship would never be the same. He knew Fiona loved him, but would that be enough? – Two-shot; Post "How To Save A Life"; Fiona/Adam pairing!

Author's Note: Not a sequel, but this two-shot is post "How To Save A Life". It will make more sense if you've read that first.

Disclaimer: I do NOT own Degrassi.

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After being so broken, for awhile Adam was convinced their relationship would never be the same. How could Fiona regard him as the same man she loved when he had been so weak, violated, and powerless? She consoled him. Held him close and refused to let go. Kissed his forehead as he cried. Laid beside him, holding his hand throughout the night.

He knew she loved him, but would that be enough? What if as the weeks went by she couldn't view him in a romantic light? This thought nagged him from the corners of his brain. He had dreams where he would reach for her hand only to make contact with the air. She continued walking away from him and towards another man. More than once he woke up finding his cheeks were wet. When he opened his eyes he would see her next to him, fast asleep. Instead of relief he'd feel anxious. How long would she stay?

One night he lay awake looking at the ceiling. It had been about an hour since bedtime. They had shared a quick kiss goodnight before settling in. He was glad that she could stay over. His mom had been much more flexible since he left the hospital. Still, for some reason he couldn't relax. His mind was racing. It wasn't long before he would be returning to school. He had received a lot of well wishes and support, yet he still felt apprehensive. He wasn't sure if he was the same person after all of the trauma he had been through.

"Adam?" a soft voice called. "Are you awake?"

He looked to his right and saw her wide awake, and turned toward him. He nodded. "I thought you were sleeping?"

Fiona raised an eyebrow. "That makes two of us," she teased.

He smiled as she snuggled close to him, resting her head on his chest. "Hmm, you're warm," she told him.

He ran his hand down her arm and shrugged. "I always run hot."

She looked up at him and smirked, "That you do."

He looked at her amused. She was flirting at 3am. Really? He shook his head and rested back on the pillow. Maybe now that he had been caught he could seriously attempt to go to sleep. He was caught off guard when she reached up and placed a soft kiss on his lips.

She pulled away slightly, only inches away from his face.

"What was that for?" he said bemused.

She smiled playfully. "There needs to be a reason?" she questioned.

He looked into her eyes thoughtfully for long moment as he debated a response. Suddenly she leaned forward and kissed him again. This time she lingered and pressed into him. Adam pulled her closer and leisurely ran his fingers through her hair as they continued to kiss.

When they finally broke apart he looked at her in wonder. It had been a long time since they did that. He wasn't sure if they'd ever feel that kind of passion between them again. However, there was a hunger in her eyes. Part of him wanted to question, to analyze. Why now? Why tonight? Instead he simply watched her.

Fiona sat up and then grabbed his hand. Taking the hint he pulled himself up. He felt a little nervous because he wasn't sure where this was going.

She placed her hands on both sides of his face and gently guided him forward, until his lips touched hers. She flicked her tongue across his bottom lip, seeking access inside. Adam obliged her request. Their tongues met and they moved together slowly getting reacquainted. He lightly placed his hands on her waist as their kiss intensified.

They were breathless when they parted several minutes later. Fiona rested her forehead against Adam's, while he closely held her towards him. After their breathing normalized he reached up to caress her cheek. To his surprise he felt tears.

"Fiona?" he said concerned. He raised her chin, bringing her eyes to his. "What is it?" he said quietly as he gently wiped her tears away.

"I missed you," she cried.

"Fi, I'm right here," he assured her. He then pulled her into a hug.

She had been so scared of losing him. After what he went through, he had been pushing her away. Now they were in a better place, but things weren't quite right. She could see there were things weighing on his mind and she wasn't sure how to reach him.

He cupped her face and kissed her cheek, then her forehead, followed by the tip of her nose.

"I'm not going anywhere," he said decisively. He looked intensely into her eyes.

There were many things he couldn't control, but this he could. He wasn't going to break Fiona's heart. For as long as she wanted him, he would be there. He understood now that despite everything that happened she still wanted him. His insecurities wouldn't go away overnight, but being with her was more important.

"I love you," she told him. There it was, clear and simple. The three words that kept him alive. Kept him hoping and dreaming of a brighter future. A happier future. A life beyond past and present pain.

Adam smiled broadly. "I love you too."

He then closed the distance between them and brought his lips back to hers. They shared a series of deep, lingering kisses as their passion intensified. Fiona abruptly moved so that she could change positions. She straddled him, with her knees on either side of him. They looked into each other's eyes for long moment. Slowly she ran her hands down his clothed torso until she reached his boxers. She ran her fingers along the waistline.

"I want you," she said. Her voice was thick with emotion. After a few seconds she added, "Do you want me to stop?"

Adam's heart was beating fast. He looked at her with equal parts desire and apprehension. It had been months since they made love. Before the attacks. Before he tried to take his life. He only had one answer for her.

"No," he told her. She waited for him to continue. "Don't stop," he whispered as he held contact with her eyes.

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tbc