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I tried.

No one can say I hadn't,

I'd put myself out there, went on a date with that god awful girl, I paid for her cinema ticket, went to see that stupid movie. My favourite bit was the credits, oh that black screen was bliss compared to that boy meets girl cliché. And when I drove her back I kissed her. Her lips where soft,I couldn't help comparing them to a certain blond, how sick is that, kissing someone and thinking about your best friend. Male best friend. I was so creeped out I can't even remember if I said goodbye,I just remember looking up and seeing I'd drove back to my house.

As I walked in my dad made all the stupid remarks dads where supposed to make, when their son took out a girl. I respectfully endured it for several seconds before i walked upstairs. i could stop acting for a few weeks now.

I collapsed onto my bed mentally exhausted, the urge to call Tweek was there, but as soon as the thought came, another one of disgust ricocheted with it. I should stop talking to Tweek, evreytime i even saw him, i would have to face shit I didn't want to face yet. Clyde? He'd have too much energy and make me feel tired.

Ughh why was I so bloody grumpy I needed to cheer up soon or I'd just fade into the background. My eyes were starting to shut, I welcomed the idea of not having to think about anything, as I decided I'd get my act together another day.

"craig! Wake up!" a voice screamed making me jump up frantically.

expecting to see fire or someone's dead body. my first aid ran threw my head as i prepared to perform CPR, shock turned to anger as my eyes focused and saw my sister looking bored, Standing By the side of my bed.

"You're going to be late for school" she whined tugging at my arm

"You have 10 seconds to leave or you'll be permanently late for school, as I'll kill you" I spat at her, she gave me the finger and disappeared, I looked down at myself. Still in the same clothes as last night.

I groaned too lazy to shower, and after cheeking my phone , i saw I was already late for school. great.

I quickly stripped and put on my usual jeans and a blue hoodie, as well as my familiar hat I wore every day. Same old me.

Arriving in school was depressing, I only had a few months now until I finished. And even though I was rumored to have no emotions, the pressure was still getting to me. I had to get good grades it was the only way out of this bloody town. I walked through all the younger kids, or more trampled threw, they of course whined but I didn't give a rat's ass about someone half my size. I took a deep breath, school was the one place I couldn't properly avoid Tweak, we hung out in the same group for god's sake. Act normal I routinely willed myself as I stepped into Maths.

" ahh Mr tucker did you get lost" Mr masters said the class was silent and all turned towards me. As I would love to make some stupid remark I couldn't afford another detention my mum would kill me, so I changed tactic to a polite "no sir" he looked almost shocked with my reply . I walked to my normal seat my heart racing as I sat down next to Tweek,

" why wernt you at t tokens house yesterday?" tweek asked shaking violently in his seet as usual

"date" I replied bluntly trying to stop him talking, he nodded and I saw him reach into his bag for his coffee flask. As I followed the movement down I noticed his shoe laces where undone, along with his top which wasn't buttoned correctly. Shit now I felt bad. I usually gave him a lift to school where I'd help with small things like that. It was because of his hands shaking, he was useless at the fiddly stuff. No I wouldn't help now. Anyway he needed to learn to be independent one day, I reasoned with myself my heart hammering out my chest. I watched him swallow a good half of his coffee in his flask, a signal he was worried or stressed. I couldn't keep over analyzing him ,Tweek was fine.

The day dragged on, by the time lunch came around I feel like I'd been here for years. I was absolutely starving as I ripped into my sandwich. Our table consisted of Token, Clyde, Tweek, me, then occasionally Bebe and Wendy would join us depending on whether Token or Stan were going out with Wendy that week. Which never played well, as our group and Kyles group have never really got on. This week token and Wendy where going out so Wendy was gracing us with her presence. Ugh I could not stand Wendy. Well I couldn't stand a lot of people. But she was the worse. her act with the intelligence and liberation, then throwing herself at anyone with a dick. Fuck that shit. I was too lost in my hate that, when i felt a leg slide against mine and realised it was Tweek getting into the seat next to mine i jumped,my heart speeding up, but my jolt had make him squeak his drink dropping onto the floor soaking his trousers on the way down.

"I'm s s soo sorry craig!" he squeaked his hands going to his hair as he tugged on it, why was he apologising it was my fault for having stupid feelings.

"dude calm down" I said grabbing his hands and pulling them out from his hair, his eyes locked on mine and they were the colour of fresh mint, the kind he floated in the coffee he made especially for me. I hadn't realized I was still holding onto his hands until he tried to tug them out. I dropped them quickly a blush threatening to rise, I busied myself from having to look up at anyone by reaching under the table for the still gushing thermos of coffee. Of course he was drinking coffee, what else would he be drinking? I came up mid conversation not bothering to join in, I focused on eating until I realized I was being talked to.

"-FOR GODS SAKE does he ever listen craig, CRAIG!" I looked up at token who was clicking his fingers in my face

"what" I spat, irritated at the screaming

"I said you're coming to my party tomorrow, right?" he said irritated

"No" I said not thinking about it

"Aww you have to come, you've missed the past two of mine" he moaned

"No" I said again waiting for someone to change the subject

"craigy pleaseeeeee" clyde said sticking his mouth out in pout"who's going to help kick ass, as the biggest retard here,invited Stan"

"What?!" now this had my attention why invite any of them

"My idea I feel we can all get on happily" Wendy said smiling oh, so now she wanted to trade boys again.

"Well your new boyfriend may get his head smashed in quicker then he makes peace" I said back she narrowed her eyes

"No he won't you'll all be lovely, because we are civil people" Wendy said sternly I glanced at Tweek to see his views, he was quiet not good. I don't care. I quickly reminded myself

"We'll just see what happens" token said smiling at his girlfriend, I noticed Bebe looking at Wendy curiously. Maybe she knew it'd be hopeless. I sighed I kind of had to come now, there was no way I'd leave Clyde to wade in alone.

"can we invite like jjimmy, t t timmy and a few of tthere group" tweek stuttered looking at token

"yeah sure I think I've already invited them" even though Tweek was in our group he was close friends with the lower groups, I think they were linked threw there disability's, but I never wanted to ask. That seemed almost rude, how do you phrase that question I may be a asshole but not enough to openly judge someone like that. Funny thinking about it in all the years me and Tweek have been best friends he's never spoken about his mental problems, I've seen all the pills he has to take in the morning but the names on the bottle where too long to really work out all the conditions he has. I probably wouldn't want to know poor kid has it rough, when we were little before we knew what a mental condition was, when he'd say gnomes were in his room, we'd tease him for months, I think that's why he doesn't mention it anymore.

"Right it's time for next lesson see you tomorrow, Craig nick some of your dads best whiskey that stuffs lush" Token said kissing Wendy on the forehead before disappearing off

"It's the first time in ages I'm going to tokens party d do you think I'll be all right" Tweek asked reaching for his bag under the table

"don't drink and you'll be all right" I muttered, now it was just me and Tweek I had to leave or I'd get that tight feeling again.

000

I groaned rolling over, why was I awake, rolling over i quickly checked my alarm clock. 1AM it was the middle of the night, i sighed the bliss of sleep escaping my body. I felt a dip on my bed all of a sudden, I felt a hand start to rub me threw my pajama pants, i rolled over quickly coming face to face with mint eyes.

"Tweek what the fuck-" I said startled when his mouth closed over mine pushing me roughly onto my back, and climbing on top of me, I could feel his tiny body down the length of mine, his weight all resting on me, he pushed down his hips grinding into me, making me moan into his mouth as I kissed back hungrily, he tugged at my pyjama pants whining in his throat for me to take them of, I grabbed him and rolled so I was on top my hand went straight into his loose pyjama pants and ran my hand up him before stroking he gasped biting my shoulder, it was the shock of touching him that made me realise. Fuck I'm giving Tweek a handjob. I'm touching another man. I'm not gay. He's my best friend. This is disgusting. I'm disgusting I pushed Tweek off me. As I awoke in my bed covered in sweat, alone and harder than a rock.

I groaned sitting up in my bed. i put my head on my knees, trying desperately to quell the fight in my own head. i must of sat in this position for at least 10 minutes before raising my head and checking the time. It wasn't even 12 yet fuck. I tried to get to sleep, blocking out the images of Tweek moaning my name as I touched him fuck. I have to stop thinking about it. Lock the key throw it away .But soon my erection was almost painful as it pulsed against my stomach. I groaned finally allowing myself to imagine tweak on top of me, I ran my hands down my body to grasp myself firmly, giving myself a soft squeeze I imagined sliding into Tweek, I groaned as a wave of arousal ran through my body, I was close already as I imagined the noises he'd make as I was deep inside him, I stroked faster and faster as I imagined him dropping down, so I was deeper, I groaned, he'd still be vibrating probably. Fuck that image was so hot, and after one more tug, I came over my stomach.