I know it's soppy, but I couldn't resist. I always thought House was sweet to kids.

What if House's exploratory surgery on himself wasn't successful?

This is House's letter to Rachel.

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Dear Rachel,

The first time I met you I have to say you were a little wrinkly thing, your mum thought you were adorable though. She thought you were a little bundle of joy. It wasn't till you were nearly three where I actually had any type of relationship with you. I suppose if I was honest I was afraid of you. My childhood was never a good one. Now that I'm not here I suppose I can tell you, I did tell you once but you were asleep and your mother was at work so I think that doesn't count. When you reach the age where you can read this yourself, you may not even remember me. And that's probably something that your mum envies. When I saw you growing up, you had a mum who would do anything for you, my mother didn't do anything like that for me. I was physically abused by my dad and she didn't do anything. No matter how hormonal you get, your mum protected you. You will probably grow up into a proud independent and clever woman who I know will make her mum proud.

In some ways, I think you will act like your grandma too but I hope not too much, you my never get a boyfriend because of it. I remember times where you would sneak out of your room at night and lie on my lap. At first I would take you back to your room but I remember you crying at me until I gave in. I don't know how you did it, but between you and your mum, you somehow made me a better person. I had made enough mistakes by the time you were born to show that I wasn't worth the risks your mum would have had to make, and I didn't want her to do what my mum did.

You made me realise what it was like to be wanted, to be part of a family who accepted you for you. And for that I will be forever grateful. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough to stay away from going back to my own ways. I'm sorry I let my addiction wreck my relationship between you, me and your mum. If that didn't happen, I'd have probably made you hate me by your teenage years as I wouldn't have allowed you to date till you were 30. I'm sorry I couldn't have been there even as the mad employee of your mum's to tell you men are evil stupid people, who you should take no notice of, or to walk you down the aisle or be there when you became a mum.

Hopefully your mum won't read this and please don't show it to Wilson. This letter will probably be given to you by my auntie or my mother to you when you turn 21. It's just my savings and a few things I wanted you to have. I have to wrap this letter up now; the doc says I've got to have another operation to remove the part of the tumour that spread. Do me a favour though, tell your children about how a little girl defrosted an old man's heart. Goodbye Rachel.

From your scallywag.

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