Disclaimer: No, I doubt I am J., I have tried to be as creative as her, trust me, it just doesn't work, so I just play with her characters. Neither do I own the song used, that belongs to Evermore!
A/N: This is my first fic, please be nice?
A Fic based on the song "Light Surrounding you" by 'Evermore' . The Christmas after the trios 6th year Harry realises his mistake.
I see you by the water
Your toes dipped in the sand
I thought that it was over
I thought you'd understand
But the feeling is returning
Though time has made us change
And I understand if you don't
Wanna talk to me about it
Tonight
Oh, tonight
Cos I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
He watched her from afar, trying to judge how she was feeling, whether she had the same weight at the bottom of her stomach, or if he was just imagining the longing feeling in her eyes that he knew was in his. Something had changed in her, something had made her eyes shine less, her smile dim slightly, his heart broke every time he heard the fake laugh she gave off when she knew she had too. He knew what it was, it was happening to him too, the loss of hope was taking them all over, he noticed it in everyone else weeks after he saw it in Ginny, he wanted to take her away, to tell her that everything was going to be okay, to protect her forever.
His breath hitched whenever her skin grazed his, or whenever she looked at him, not just a glance, but the looks when you know the other person understands you more than anyone else. His soul mate was here, his everything was here, and yet he was leaving her, for what? He told himself he was saving her, saving everyone, but it didn't make it any easier, it didn't stop himself from having to control how he looked at her, how he touched her, he couldn't do that too her, if he didn't come back he wouldn't make her wait like that. He couldn't, he wouldn't.
Time was overtaking me
And I guess I was confused
They were all inviting me
But I wish I had refused
Cos I'd been there before
And I've seen it all
And I believe in you
He lay down on the grass under the clear sky at the burrow, noting how the weather didn't seem to have any idea that the magical world was about to either collapse into a world of evil or be saved by a 17 year old boy who could barely control his hormones.
A shadow passed over Harry's body and he glanced up, seeing Ginny he gave a small smile and patted the grass next to him for her to sit down. Ginny obliged and laid down in silence next to Harry, each listening to the others slow breaths. Hours seemed to pass before Ginny spoke.
"You're leaving tomorrow?" she whispered next to him
He looked over at her and nodded, searching her eyes for something to hold on to.
"What if I asked you not to?" She said staring up into the sky, not wanting him to see the desperation in her eyes
"Are you asking me to stay Ginny?" He sat up, waiting for her to ask him to stay, and they could forget everything and just have each other
"No Harry, I couldn't" She turned and smiled at him, sitting up
"Ask me to Gin" Harry half begged, not caring if she heard the desperation in his voice
"No Harry, just promise me you'll come back for me"
"You know I can't do that Gin" Harry sighed
"I know" She said before standing up and offering a small smile before heading back inside "I'll miss you Harry"
And if you never had my heart
I would've never called you back
At the start that night
And I want you to know
That I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
Cos I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of what you're turning into
Blue-eyed sun shines on me
In the morning
Can't help but feel a little cold
Thinking of you
Harry saw her, almost a year after their last conversation, he watched her from afar again, he smiled at her, and she smiled back. There was something back in her eyes, she'd found hope again, he walked over to her and pulled her into his arms. He had dreamed about this moment countless times, each time waking up with a groan. His shirt felt wet and he looked down at her, she had tears coming down her eyes, her beautiful hope filled eyes. He kissed her softly and wiped away the tears slowly.
"It's over Ginny, I promise I won't leave you anymore" He whispered, pulling away slightly
Her tears fell faster as she looked at him, her smile was gone, the hope withdrawn.
"You should have promised to come back Harry" She said softly and pushed away from him, walking away and not looking back.
Cos I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of something new
Cos I see the light surrounding you
So don't be afraid of what you're turning into
No, don't be afraid
Don't be afraid
Cos I see the light
Cos I see the light
Cos I see the light surrounding you