Once you lose your first love
You don't forget them, ever.
And no matter how hard you try,
No love will ever feel quite the same.
You can heal slowly
But never fully.
There is always a part of you
that will still miss it.
You miss how they made you feel
You miss the way you talk
You miss everything.
And all you want is to relive it
Just to feel it again.
But no.
You don't want to feel this way anymore.
You don't want to love them anymore.
And you stay up almost every night
Wanting to hear their voice again.
It hurts.
Everything that reminds you of them
Everything they said to you
Everything they made you feel.
It hurts.
But what hurts the most is trying to forget,
Trying to start over.
Its almost impossible,
Because they are the first.
The first one who made you experience what its like
To truly love.
And they are the first one who made you know what its like
To feel torn into pieces.
Suzume Yosano knew all of this.
She knew what the pain in your chest feels like
When they walk away.
She's trying to heal.
To forgot.
But she knows, nothing will ever make her forget.
Because what hurts the most
Is that he just walked away.