James' Girl

'James Potter is a friend. Actually, James Potter is one of the best friends I have in the whole world. He would never do anything to hurt me; I know this for a fact. He's dangerously trusting, which could someday be his downfall. He can keep a secret for anything.

When I say he can keep a secret for anything you've got to believe I know what I'm talking about. He's kept the most important secret in the world for me. Moreover, this filthy little secret could ruin me…but I know that I can trust James. Yes; James Potter is a great friend.

James has always been the one that people admired. In school he was confident and outspoken. I'm more on the shy side, which was never a problem in our group of friends. Because of James, we were troublemakers and inadvertently popular. I was always friends with girls, while James was ticking notches in his belt. Things are changing nowadays and it's not hard to see why.

James has got himself into something he'll never get out of. He's gotten himself in with Lily Evans.

Lily Evans is a witch we went to school with. She's remarkably clever, unbelievably hilarious, outstandingly gorgeous, and astonishingly able to put up with the Marauders. This is great for James. He's got an amazing woman by his side. Any normal friend would be ecstatic for him. But not me. Nope, I'm not happy for him, because I wish she was mine.

I know it sounds selfish; but who could help being attracted to Lily Evans? The worst part of it is that I know it's him she watches with her deep emerald eyes. Those eyes. She has eyes that you can't help but fall in to. And I bet he gets to make love to her whenever he wants to, the lucky bastard. We've all seen them spooning on the couch late at night and I always wish it was me laying there with her in my arms. Where on earth can I find someone like that?

I'm a terrible person.

I play along with the charade. There's really no reason to change. James would hate me and that's something I don't want at all. James' friendship has helped me through a lot of hard times. I should just forget about it…but I can't seem to.

Whenever they start acting like a couple I start to squirm. When they're kissing, or talking cute I want to throw up. How did I fall so hard for my best friend's girlfriend? Sometimes I think that I should tell her I'm in love with her but then I think about the way she looks at him. She loves HIM, not me. He's the one who gets to hold her in his arms. God I wish I had her.

STOP.

I can't think of her like that. I'm always looking in the mirror to try and figure out why she's chosen James over me. I'm funny, I'm cute…okay maybe a little disheveled most of the time…but I still think I have some good attributes. I've got some good pick up lines...that I'm too shy to use. Alright, my monthly problem is never good for attracting girls, but I can see her as someone who would really understand…and do I ever need a woman like that.'

"Remus?" I hear a deep voice behind me. I turn around and see James with his arm around Lily's waist standing in the doorway.

"Are you ready to go?" She says, smiling at me then laughing as James gives her a quick squeeze.

"I'll be right there." They go outside and I sigh.

I want James' girl.

I'm horrible.

But where can I find a woman like that?

A/N Inspired by the 1981 hit 'Jessie's Girl' by Rick Springfield (any lyrics used I do not own) . It may seem out of nowhere but JK said that Lily was a very popular girl and everyone liked her and Remus may or may not have had a crush on her. Anyways, this is just a oneshot so don't expect more. And I don't own most of it. Cheers.

K