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Okay, this is just a short little one-shot on Chad's thoughts after the episode Promises, Prom-misses. It is dedicated to ApostolicPrincessinGod, who wanted me to write something from Chad's POV. It was inspired by my favorite fanfiction of all time: Don't I Know You? by hope for eternity. It was based off of her idea that Chad is only pretending to be an arrogant jerk because of his agent. And he only listens to his agent because he feels like he owes his mom. I hope you like it!
'Wow, congratulations,' I thought to myself. 'Your and idiot.' Of course, how could I have resisted? I mean, the poor girl spent who-knows-how-many hours on that stupid prom, only to have everyone abandon her by the time she can actually enjoy it. And hey, I won't deny that the fact that she looked pretty even as a mermaid may have came into play. But still, making a move on her? And not a "CDC move," but but an actual sweet, kind one? What was I thinking?
Of course, it's not like I'm a player in real life. Nah, that was just my "cover story," if you will. And wow, did I hate it. I hated my stupid bad boy reputation. And every since Sonny came into the picture, I've begun to hate CDC himself. Heck that wasn't even my real name! My agent just though that it rolled of the tongue better than Chad Dylan Goldfarb. I, naturally, hated having to change myself but every time I thought of just going to Mr. Condor's office and quitting, not only Mackenzie Falls but CDC with it, I remembered my mom's face when we moved here. She needed that fresh start after what happened with my dad, and that was something that I just couldn't give to her. But Chad Dylan Cooper could. So, I suffered as quietly as possible. I pretended it didn't hurt me when I broke all of those hearts. I acted like it didn't pain me when I screamed at all of those innocent people. I just didn't let it show, as a favor to my mother, who gave up everything for a brand new beginning with her only son.
And then Sonny came into the picture. I'm not going to lie, the second I saw that girl's face, my entire life just got all the more complicated. Yet, no matter how much I wanted to regret her coming to Hollywood, how much I wanted to hate her for adding one more confusing element into my already-overloaded mind, I couldn't. I can't. It's just not physically impossible to regret knowing Sonny Monroe. And throughout the days after Sonny's arrival, I began to feel almost... happier. I mean, it made no sense. All I ever did was fight with her and yet...
No! I canNOT think of her like that! She's not for me, because if I let her any closer, I just have to break her. And in the process, break myself. How I became so attached to her in the first place is a mystery, but it happened and I can't deny it.
And yet I had given it. What's wrong with me? I can most any girl I want, except Sonny. She is untouchable. And I am just going to have to deal with it. Because breaking that magical ball of sunshine is just simply not an option.
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What did you think? Shout-out to hope for eternity for the inspiration! Seriously, if you haven't read her story, Read It! :D Can you guys all do me the biggest favor you could possibly do and review? Also, can you please vote on my poll so I know what you want me to write next? Thank you so much! God Bless! :)
- dream . kj