Well, this is supossed to be settle between episodes 13x15 (Civil War) and on. I totally love this couple and there's almost no works about it, so I felt like I needed to contribute a little ;) English is not my main language, so I am really sorry if there is any mistake along the story. Nevertheless, enjoy!

Meredith

On my way to the hospital, aiming to have calmer day, I woke up earlier and drove alone through the well-known streets of Seattle, taking the longest route, in a attempt to get my thoughts straight. Too bad he would never leave them. I kept seeing his bright orbes, full of hope and desire, evidently wanting me every time I closed my eyes. It was time, I couldn't deny it anymore, I was feeling the exactly same way about Nathan.

However, admitting it to myself was a totally different thing. There was a lot to think about, I couldn't be selfish, I needed to think about it and think carefully.

There was Owen, who might not like seeing me that intimate to the guy who "put his sister on that plane" , since they were just starting to bond and it could bring some more problems.

There was Maggie, oh, Maggie. My sister who has totally into him, strongly willing to wait for him to be ready and not knowing anything that happened between me and the Cardio-Toracic surgeon before the weeding. I was afraid she would never accept another lie from me, I could totally lose her trust, it was too much to handle.

And, of course, there was Derek, who still came up to my thoughts as reminder if it was the best time to move on.

I tried to, with the Thorpe guy, but I wasn't ready, my body wasn't, my mind wasn't. The sex was good, at the moment, but everything came as I woke up. Pure panic that I had no idea where it came from. With Nathan, it was way different, it was familiar. The moment lead it all. I wanted him, a lot and, before I could tell, we were there, inside my car, enjoying every inch of each other bodies with no worries on our minds. Four times, Meredith.

I can't deny. Every time I see or talk to him, I feel it. I feel the connection, the heat and I have to contain myself to not lead my thoughts to... inappropriate stuff. He doesn't help me either, constantly touching me here and there, teasing ,glancing at myself like he had seen me naked - even though he did-. It would be hard to keep that away from others. Alex had already notice in my constantly denial the affection growing and my worst nightmare would come true if Maggie realizes that we were way more than just friends.

Unfortunately, the ultimato has came nights ago, when he told me he was totally in this. That I should go after him when I knew.

But I knew a long time ago, since that night, that he would change me. That his touch would become addicting, such as his laid-back, relaxed way of being.

I didn't want to accept it, but I was, indeed, falling slowly for Nathan Riggs.