BROKEN ANGEL
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Broken Angel by Boyce Avenue
You showed him all the best of you
When he had first met Gabe, he became hopeful. Even with his beer belly and his reeky smell, he felt hope. Hope for a father figure. He had always wanted a father. His classmates in kindergarten always talked about their fathers, how their father had build them a tree house, played with them and carry them on their backs. He was jealous. He wanted a father.
But he was so naive….
But I'm afraid your best
Wasn't good enough
After Gabe and his mom married, Gabe had lived with them.
He was rude, but he couldn't put out the hope inside him that he'll warm up to them.
He was a jerk. But still.. he hoped.
He tried to impress him. He made him a card, he worked on it so hard,but he just ripped it in half and left mumbling about bastards and annoying children, leaving a teary- eyed, 4 and a half year old Percy.
And know he never wanted you
But he…
He didn't changed, not in a good way. He became more of a jerk but it still didn''t put out the ignited hope in Percy's 4 year old heart.
At least not the way
You wanted yourself to be loved
And you feel like you were a mistake
He's not worth all those tears that won't go away
He started to throw insults at him. Verbally abusing him.
Saying he was a mistake, he was a bastard.
He was nothing…
That his father never cared for him because if he did, he would have not left.
His words stung. But deep inside he knew it was the truth.
He cried and cried. The tears won't go away, it kept coming.
I wish you could see that
Still you try to impress him
But he never will listen
He still tried to impress him. He doesn't want to give up.
He made him a coffee at 5 years old, but it ended up a disaster. He had tripped and spilled the coffee at his stepfather's feet. Maybe he would have beaten him up if his mother hadn't arrived after she heard the noise and ushered him outside.
He tried and tried. His mind told him to stop trying but his heart never did gave up.
Oh broken angel
Were you sad when he crushed all your dreams
Oh broken angel
Inside you're dying cause you can't breathe
He had crushed all his hopes and dreams. At 5, his world had crashed. He gave up hope…or so he thinks…
He always say No wonder your father left you. You are nothing. You are worthless, A mistake.
He wanted to give up hope...but he can't.
Because he can't let go.
Can't help dreaming about the father he'll never have.
Not in him at least...
And now you've grown up
With this notion that you were to blame
And you seem so strong sometimes
But I know that you still feel the same
As that little boy who shined like an angel
Even after his lazy heart put you through hell
He realized now that he was a fool to hope.
He had hope and hope... but no.
He pretended to be happy, that he didn't care that Poseidon never visited him.
But it was there, the resentment. He resented him for not being a father. He resented him because he never got the childhood he had wanted.
But he would never be a bitter man. He would never become someone like Gabe.
He is strong, he won't break because that's how heroes are supposed to be.
He will still shine, even after the hell of a childhood he had been through.
He wouldn't get his revenge to other children.
Because he know how it feels…
He can't let someone to feel like what he is feeling now.
He would leave you alone
And leave you so cold
You're just a broken angel
He tried to break him. Abusing him, physically and mentally.
He almost did, had her mother not been at his side... he would have broken.
But one night, when his mother wasn't around.
He broke a part of him.
He left him a broken angel. An angel with a broken wing.
But still an angel nonetheless.
And I promise that it's not your fault
It was never your fault
He blamed himself for many years.
He always thought it was his fault.
His fault why he was different.
Why he was an outcast
Why he didn't belong
Why he can't be loved..
But now…
He looked down and gazed at a sleeping Annabeth using his chest as a pillow.
He realized..
It wasn't his fault he was different. He was born thet way.
It wasn't his fault he was an outcast. Because deep inside, he didn't care because at least he has friends,
It wasn't his fault that he didn't belong. After all, why is he trying so hard to fit in…when he was born to stand out.
And most of all…
It wasn't his fault Gabe hadn't loved him.
It didn't matter to him now..
Because he was love by so many right now.
He has Annabeth.
And that all is enough.
A/N
HEY HEY.
Dudes, hope you like it. It's a bit short… I'll probably rewrite this one day. But for now…. This is this.
I had imagine Percy as a child, wishing he had a father.
I imagined how hopeful he got when his mom remarried. Hopeful that he will finally have a father.
But...
TOLERATE IT! BWAAHHaha.
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