A/N- Hi everyone. So this is a new story that I will be writing. The chapters are not going to be overly long. This one is probably the shortest of them. I figure though that they will range anywhere from 1000-1500 words each. I need to get this out of my system before I can continue writing ODS. This story takes place after TBU. Enjoy
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Kurt had been upset for several weeks. He felt like his whole world had fallen apart. No matter how much he tried to pretend that he was strong and that he wasn't going to let Blaine's betray get the best of him. He tried to pretend but that's all it really was, pretend. At night he would put his headphones into his Ipod touch so Rachel would not hear the sad depressing music that he listened to. He did not need to be told again that Blaine was not worth his tears. Kurt had still refused to talk to Blaine even though he had so much to say to him. One night while laying in bed he came up with a brilliant plan. He was going to let Blaine know exactly how he was feeling the only way that he could. Through song.
For the next two weeks, while Rachel was still at school, Kurt recorded a new song. The song he would choose depended on his mood for the day. Each day on his way to work, Kurt, would mail out his recorded song. He would have emailed them to Blaine but that felt to much like a conversation to him. He needed to do this his way.
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Almost three weeks with no contact from Kurt, a padded envelope arrived at the Anderson residence. It was address to Blaine with a return address of one Kurt Hummel. Blaine grabbed the envelope and ran up to his bedroom and slammed the door shut. Blaine had no idea what could be inside and it made him nervous but he had to know. He ripped open the package and inside was a cd. Blaine opened the jewel case and inserted the cd into his radio. Then he hit play and heard the sound he had been dying to hear, Kurt's voice.
"I don't even know what I am doing this. I have been hurting so badly and it is all your fault. I can't talk to you because I am so mad at you but I still love you and I don't know why. Why can't I let you go? You did the worse thing that you could have possibly done.
I was laying here last night and I decided that the only way I can communicate with you is through songs. So I am going to send you an undetermined number of cd's with a different song on them. Just because I am sending you these it does not mean that I am ready to talk to you, because I'm not. Stop calling and texting me. When and if I am ever ready to actually talk to you again I will let you know.
This song is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. I feel like I am starting all over again. Goodbye Blaine."
Kurt's voice ended and a song Blaine instantly recognized started
Of all the things I've believed inI just want to get it over withTears form behind my eyesBut I do not cryCounting the days that pass me by
Blaine had tears starting to form in his eyes. Was Kurt truly saying goodbye to him. Was this the end of them?I've been searching deep down in my soulWords that I'm hearing are starting to get oldIt feels like I'm starting all over againThe last three years were just pretendAnd I said,[Chorus:]Goodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on toThe one thing that I tried to hold on to
Blaine could not believe how stupid he had been and how he had let his hormones and loneliness ruin the best thing that had ever come along in his life. Kurt was his everything and he threw it away for a one night stand.
I still get lost in your eyesAnd it seems that I can't live a day without youClosing my eyes and you chase my thoughts awayTo a place where I am blinded by the lightBut it's not rightGoodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on toThe one thing that I tried to hold on to
Blaine was finding it harder to breath as the song continued. He wanted to turn off the cd and pretend that he wasn't hearing the song. Rewind time and stop the cd once Kurt stopped talking. Hell if he could rewind time he would go back to the moment Eli ever contacted him and he would block him. And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same timeI want what's yours and I want what's mineI want youBut I'm not giving in this timeGoodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on toThe one thing that I tried to hold on to
Goodbye to youGoodbye to everything I thought I knewYou were the one I lovedThe one thing that I tried to hold on toThe one thing that I tried to hold on toAnd when the stars fallI will lie awakeYou're my shooting star
When the song ended Blaine buried his head into his pillow and cried. He had been waiting to hear something from Kurt, anything really. But he was not prepared to hear goodbye. Was this it? Blaine knew he couldn't let things end this was so he grabbed his cell phone and tried to call Kurt one more time hoping that this would be the time that he answered his phone. The call went directly to voicemail.
"Hi Kurt, it's Blaine. I know that you asked me to not contact you but I had too. I just listened to your cd and it was great to hear your voice again. Please do not give up on me, on us. I love you and I will spend the rest of my life proving that to you if that's what it takes. Don't say goodbye. Please." Blaine's voice cracked with that last word so he hung up and let the tears continue to fall.
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As of right now I have 8 songs planned out. If anyone can think of any songs that would fit in with the breakup song genera let me know. I will gladly give the song a listen and maybe use it. The next song that I am going to use I am the most excited about. Until next time.
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