Fanfic: A Scream For Help, By Emark
Summary: Kendall walked in on his boyfriend and best friend making out, and starts solving his problems with pain. James witnessed his father die in a shooting, and starts acting depressed. Carlos's dad died in the same shooting as James's dad. He starts acting starts dating a girl. She made him try drugs with her. Kendall/Jett ; Jett/Jo ; Logan/Camille ; Camille/Dak ; Logan/Carlos ; Kendall/James
Author's Note: Ok, so yeah. This note was written in the beginning. I am so sorry that I have not written anything for 'Solo Career' or 'Tough Love'. I have these ideas, but when I try to write them down, they go away and these new ones come up. So, yeah. I am still on vacation for the next 3 months, which sucks. Plus, I am getting my laptop taken away. I wrote this story to get rid of the ideas so I can continue 'Solo Career' and 'Tough Love'. And by the way: I AM SOO SORRY FOR WHOEVER STARTED THIS IDEA. IT'S NOT EXACTLY THE SAME, THE ONLY SIMILARITY BEING THAT KENDALL, JAMES, CARLOS AND LOGAN ARE SENT TO A MENTAL HOSPITAL. I just love that idea so much, and I found a way to get them in it in a sort of different way. Again, I am sorry if you feel mad that I took the idea. I just wanted to try it. So yeah, hope your not too mad. The plot will be a little different though.
Disclaimer: I do not own Big Time Rush. I Claim… NOTHING! Dx
Chapter I: Kill Pain With Pain
Kendall could not believe what he just witnessed. His stupid boyfriend was just making out with his best friend. Fucking Jett, my EX-boyfriend, and Jo, my EX-best friend. So this is why Jett always wanted to stay after school for 'tutoring' and Jo was always busy with her 'after-school clubs'. Yeah. They were sooo busy.
Kendall was running. After wanting to surprise his boyfriend, Kendall decided to stay after school and surprise Jett on his tutoring class. Kendall ran into the boy's locker room, getting the present he was going to give to Jett, for their 1 year anniversary. He got him a rose, new clothes, and a photo album filled with photos of them. He ended up watching Jo and Jett have a total make-out session in front of Jett's locker. They kept going at it for what felt like years to Kendall. Finally, he had enough and just plain out left, making sure to shut the door loud. Hoping that Jett and Jo knew they were being watched. He ran.
He was crying. How could Jett do this to me? I thought we had something. And Jo. My fucking so called 'best friend'. Guess we all get betrayed sometime in our life. But I still can't believe it…. But they don't know. They don't know that I know. I know I can just break up with Jett, but Jo. My best friend since we were in 3rd grade. I can still remember trying to flirt with her. She was hot. Haha. yeah. Now that I look back at it. It kind of looks retarded. My flirting skills weren't as cool as they are now. Anyway. Yeah, we were best friends. I can't just eject her out of my life, but she betrayed me. I don't know if I'll ever be able to trusts anyone. She was my main pall. My diary that kept all my secrets. She was… WAS! Not is, Was! She WAS my best friend.
Kendall walked down the street, finally getting to his house. He can't believe how short of a walk it felt like. Usually, walking home took half an hour. Now that he had something to occupy his mind, it felt like minutes.
Kendall ran inside and shut the front door behind him. He ran up to his room. He couldn't believe it! He shut the door and locked it. He didn't want anyone to see him like this. Weak, and crying. He never let anyone see him like this. Not to his Jett, Jo, or even his mom and Katie. He just didn't show it.
He cried. Why he ever thought he loved Jett, he had no idea. Right now, he hated his guts. He hated Jo even more. She was supposed be his best friend.
Kendall sobbed more and more. He finally noticed that there was no noise in the house. Oh yeah, I forgot. My mom and sister are visiting my dad in prison.
He got up and went in the shower. He needed one. He wanted to relax and a nice hot shower would do just that. He heard his phone vibrating. He got out and look to see one new message… from Jett.
New message from Jett: Hey babe! :)
To say Kendall was pissed was an understatement. He was more than pissed. He was downright furious. He didn't even bother to answer back.
30 minutes passed when he got his second text.
New message from Jett: Babe! Txt bak! I mis u!
Miss me? God! I won't respond to that prick!
It wasn't even ten minutes when he started getting more and more texts from Jett.
New message from Jett: BABE! Pik up za fukin fone nd anser my txts!
Babe…
Dx Fine ur mad at me. I get it, but y r u mad at me?
The last text sent Kendall over the edge. He finally decided to send one back.
Message sent to Jett: Cuz, Prick! We r over! Now go fuk of!
Not even one minute later he got a call from Jett. Kendall wanted to answer it, but decided to ignore it. Seconds later, it rang again, and again, and again. Kendall finally couldn't take it anymore. To him, it felt like the 399th ring. He answered it.
"WHAT!" Screamed Kendall.
"What do you mean we're over?"
"I mean, we are done! Get over it!" By now, Kendall was in tears. He could hear Jett's angry huffs. He isn't even hurt. He's just mad that I'm dumping him! I swear to god, what did I see in him?
"Kendall! Why are you breaking up with me! I thought we had a thing?"
"Yeah, well that makes two of us! I thought we were perfect."
"Then why are you dumping me? If we both thought we had a good thing, why are you dumping me?"
"Because MORON! I FUCKING SAW YOU MAKING OUT WITH JO!"
*Silence*
It scared Kendall of how silent it got. Neither daring to brake the silence. It felt like hours went by, when in reality was only minutes, when Kendall finally spoke up.
"It's either me, or her." And with that, Jett hung up. Kendall knew it. He knew he wouldn't have chosen him. He knew deep down that this would happen. He knew it!
He cried, more and more tears daring to spill out. Kendall cried so hard. His heart breaking. He never wants to experience this feeling again. How can someone cover up this feeling. Then he remembered something.
When he went to the mountains for a vacation, he remembered meeting a girl. Camille. She was a bit crazy, but fun. Kendall and her became friends real fast. She mentioned that she lived near where Kendall lived. That it was just one city away. Then he remembered what she told him.
It was during one of their snow ball fights. Kendall was having fun playing snow ball fight with Camille and a bunch of other kids they saw at the mountain. Kendall and Camille teamed up. They started throwing snow balls. One landed on Camille's arm. The thing was, the snowball had a rock in it. The person who threw it must have not felt a rock in the snow. Kendall quickly got Camille and they walked back to Kendall's cabin. There, he helped Camille take her coat off. He saw them. The scratches, the scars. On her arm. "What happened there?" Kendall asked in shock of the scars. "Oh, these, I cut myself sometimes." Camille answered it as if it was no big deal to cut oneself. "Why?" He asked. He knew she was crazy, but he didn't really think she was THAT crazy. "Well, my mom abuses me, and sometimes, the pain I feel in my heart that she doesn't love me goes away when I cut myself. It replaces the pain, and I would much rather have physical pain than emotional." She said it with no emotion. That was the last time he talked to her. Kendall found it crazy that someone would actually do that. Now he gets it.
Kendall got up. He went to his sister's room and found one of the comically large pencil sharpeners she kept for her comically large pencils. He took one, and broke it. He took out the blade in it. He went back into his room and shut the door.
Could it be true? Can cutting yourself really take away the pain of having your heart brake? Well… there is only one way to find out.
Author's Note: So yeah. Like I said, it is going to be a bit different. Anyway, I am here to explain that I will try to write as much as I can, but like I said before, it may have to wait 3 months. I am sorry. I'll try to come up with more ideas during the vacation. I will promise. Anyway, I am getting my laptop taken away from me on the 31. Dx sucks. It's actually Sunday, May 27, 2012, 9:56 PM right now. I will try to update more and more. So yeah, I realize I have like what, 3 stories that are undone. Dx I am in a real pickle. But I have all these ideas stuck in my head. Dx. So yeah. Next will be James's side of the story, and yes, Kendall is bi-sexual in this story. Till Next Time! -EMARK