Depressed.
It's been months, I've felt so cold, so disconnected, so numb. All I've wanted since they left was for them to come back, but deep down I knew that wasn't going to happen.
Charlie and Renee tried to get me to move to Pheonix but I chucked a tantrum and said that if they made me do that I'd kill myself. They pretty much threw away any idea or thought of me leaving forks without my consent from then on. I could tell they where hurt that I would even consider saying anything like that let alone use it against them, but I didn't care I was in too much pain to care about anything right now. The suicide threat, a little drastic maybe? No I didn't think that at all, the love of my life left me, so did his family, my family, they where my life, heck even Rosalie! As I sat in my room on the cold wooden floor leaning against my bed I felt the ripples of heart wrenching pain run from the inside of my heart or what was left of it and through out my body the ripples threatened to pull me apart at any moment, I instantly regretted thinking of them.
It was Saturday today, Charlie was out with Billy and Harry tonight, having dinner at the Clearwaters it was Sue's 43rd birthday today. Charlie, Sue, Harry and Billy asked me to come but I refused them politely and told them I had homework to do, which wasn't a lie, but I only had finishing touches to do. I decided that it was time to check my emails, see how Renee and Phil are... where. I hadn't been on my email in such along time.
As I waited for this sorry excuse for technology to start up I went downstairs to make dinner for myself. When I got to the bottom of the stairs I realised that the front door was fully open and that the rainstorm outside was soaking the front room. Cautiously I went to the front door to close it I stepped carefully not wanting to slip and fall on my ass or worse my face, I closed the door and dead bolted it not wanting to go through this again as I turned around my eyes came across something odd, wet footprints and they weren't mine.