A/N: Ok first of i would like to say i wasnt sure if i should post it and then i said what the hell.
second i have started new moon in edwards pov.. i know i should have started twilight first in his pov.. but there are so many of those out there.. and so very few of new moon in his pov that i figured id start here... if you would like to read twilight in edwards pov.. i have read a perfect story in his POV from mrs. cullen 22 called Twilght: Edward's Story..
and now... PLEASE READ AND REVIEW!!
Chapter 1: Birthday
She'll be here soon, Alice thought, and bounced on her toes excitedly. On yet another dreary day, we stood in the parking lot of Forks High School, waiting to start school and hera a boring set of lectures. That I heard one to many times. They were all the same. And most of the time me and my family knew more than the teachers themselves did. I found it amusing sometimes.
I didn't share the excitement of graduating that the other seniors in the school did, probably because I'd already done it a dozen times. This year was different, though, for one reason, or one person I should say.
She'd turned my entire existence upside down when she'd come to Forks, unaffected by the fear I inspired in other humans. They were supposed to fear me, run away screaming for there lives. Shy away from us. They were not supposed to like us, want to be with us. And defiantly were not supposed to love us. Instead of screaming and running from me, a monster. she was inconceivably drawn to me. Not running away when she should have. She did not run like I expected, then again she never did anything I expected her to. Even when she found out what I was. Her calm response to me being a vampire still stunned me. The words still echoed in my mind, "It doesn't matter."
She was my life now, the only reason for existing. My one true love. With out her my life would be empty. I had lived for almost ninety years, and never truly realized till I met her, that my existence was nothing without her. I didn't truly start living until I met her. Bella swan had changed me in ways I didn't think possible. Bella had changed my life, for the better.
Alice was excited, more bouncy than usually. I could barely listen to the words echoing in her head. It was all a big jumbled mess. A buzz in my mind as she went over all the plans she had made. Checking and double checking everything.
"Your giving me a headache. Bella doesn't like birthdays. If she doesn't want this don't push her." I warned. As I waited for my love to arrive. I didn't want to admit it but I was probably as bouncy as Alice. Only for different reasons. Bella hated today, she wished it would never come. She hated this day, her birthday with a passion. Eighteen wasn't all that old I thought.
I heard Bella's ancient loud truck coming. I wish she would let me get her a new car, a more sensible cone. That could be an antique.
Alice got more bouncy as she heard it to. 'yay a few more minutes.' she stated in her head.
I sighed.
The parking lot was filling up as more and more people arrived. I tried to tune out the workings of the human minds, buzzing around. They were all mundane the same every time.
Jessica I hated her thoughts, she was so self absorbed. she was drooling over Mike. She had no imagination. Still stuck on him, even though he rejected her. She was still living in denial, desperately hoping he would change his mind, he was secretly in love with her. Waiting to strike, and make his move. Her hopes were in vain though. His mind however I hated the most. It was almost always on Bella. Completely oblivious to Jessica's watchful eyes.
'crap what was the assignment due today?' he was an idiot, stupid. couldn't remember anything.
He had no idea how lucky he was. How many times I wanted to murder him. every time his thoughts went to Bella. My Bella, how pretty she was, how cute she was. How he considered me lower than him, he couldn't put his head around the fact she wanted me. I fantasized about killing him. Every excruciating, very violent way I could come up with. I had restraint though. Mainly because I knew if I had, Bella not only would be very upset, my family and I would have to move again. Would Bella follow? Would she come with me? Leaving Charlie? I didn't want to think about it. didn't want to consider leaving her. It was to hard.
'I hear her truck.' I heard Newton.
I growled lowly.
All my attempts to keep her away from him were successful. That is, until she had to go and get a job at Newton's outfitters.
She needed money. And wouldn't except any from me. Even though she knew I had more money at hand than she would make a million summers at Newton's.
She was to proud to take anything from me. Unless forced upon her.
She wanted me to not trick her into getting money or finding it anywhere. Like I would do such a thing, I remember replying. But me and her both knew I would, I grinned.
I tried persuading her in other ways. More of seducing her to stay with me. She told me to stay with my family spend some time with my brothers. She knew they wanted to have more time with me, go hunting like we used to, wrestle and fight. She just knew everything she saw everything. She was more observant than anyone I had ever met.
Then there was Charlie, Charlie wanted her to get a job, told her it would be a good idea. I knew the main reason behind it. He wanted her to have less time with me. He had been trying to find ways to get us apart for some time now. Especially after the incident in phoenix left his daughter battered and broken.
He had been less understanding and less friendly than usual. Anger and the thought of shooting me and burying me in the yard entered his mind every time I was around. He knew Mike had a thing for Bella, he thought she was better suited for him than me. Anyone was better than me in his eyes.
I even tried guilt tripping her, it did nothing but make me angry from her response.
"Bella, don't you want to spend time with me?" I had replied.
"Of course, but I need to work also. Edward working is a human thing. Humans have been doing it for centuries." she smirked at me. "But things 'could' change." She smiled.
That made a low growl escape. She was so angry. She was so eager to become undead, become a monster. It was un natural. No one should want this. But yet her she was, beautiful innocent Bella. Wishing for death. Immortality.
I refused to damn my angel. I refused to steal her immortality, and she refused to accept it.
We were at an impasse. It always went the same, never ending, I wouldn't damn her to my existence, and she wouldn't take no for an answer. It was our one and only argument.
So much trouble just so Bella could earn a minimum wage. Of all the human activities for her to insist on… and then to fight so hard against celebrating the most human of all events, her eighteenth birthday. Backwards. Of course. Always backwards. Bella never did anything easy way.
As Bella pulled into her parking place, Alice spun the present like a top on the tip of her finger.
"You know how Bella is about gifts, so I wouldn't expect her to be happy, assuming you ever get her to open it." Every time I'd given her anything, even just a nice dinner out, she'd sulked and complained, not wanting to allow herself or me any enjoyment. She had so little in the way of material things and I had so much, why wouldn't she let me share some of that abundance with her? It was ludicrous. She was to proud. To independent.
I wasn't going to let her sulk on her birthday. I wasn't going to let her just let this day pass as if nothing. Just another ordinary day. Alice was all to excited and willing to help me. She arranged a party for Bella. I wouldn't let her forget her birthday. Eighteen, what I wouldn't give to reach it. I sighed.
Alice had barely let Bella put the truck into park before going to meet her. It was amazing that the rusty vehicle survived so long in rain-soaked Washington; it should have dissolved like a sugar cube in the constant deluge of rain long ago.
"Happy birthday, Bella!" Alice called.
"Shhh!" Bella ducked, as if to hide behind the collar of her jacket.
"Do you want to open your present now or later?"
"No presents," Bella groaned, and I smiled. Even Alice couldn't sway my stubborn Bella.
"Okay," Alice said sadly, "later, then. Did you like the scrapbook your mom sent you? And the camera from Charlie?"
"Yeah. They're great." Bella seemed slump down even further.
"I think it's a nice idea. You're only a senior once. Might as well document the experience." …the first time… Alice added for my benefit, remembering her vision of Bella with a newborn vampire's flaming red eyes.
"Not today, Alice," I whispered quickly.
"How many times have you been a senior?" Bella argued, unaware of the exchange between us.
"That's different," Alice said.
Bella's eyes tightened, and I reached out to her before she could respond. Her face softened as she turned to me, smiling.
Though I'd only left Bella's side a few hours ago, I was already anxious to see her again. It was like an addict, and she was my addiction.
Even if it was for a mere hour, it felt like more. It felt like a year away from her. Agony and longing over whelmed me when I wasn't with her.
My perception of time was just one of the many ways that Bella had changed me in the eight short months I'd known her.
I smiled down at her. Her eyes were glowing with love and affection only for me. I loved her face, I could get lost in her eyes. She only saw me, and what she saw was someone I couldn't see. She didn't see me the way I saw myself. That still amazed me.
She didn't seem to comprehend that she dazzled me just as often as I dazzled her.
Happy Birthday, my love, I thought, but didn't voice it. She had made me promise. Which was ridiculas I thought. "So, as discussed, I am not allowed to wish you a happy birthday, is that correct?" I said, tracing her lips with my finger, hoping that she felt the same electric pleasure in my touch that I felt in her balmy, supple skin.
"Yes, that is correct," she said formally.
"Just checking. You might have changed your mind. Most people seem to enjoy things like birthdays and gifts."
Alice laughed. "Of course you'll enjoy it." She tried to look ahead into Bella's future, but could only see me trying to coax my love to get out of her truck in front of our house after school. Until Bella decided she would attend her own birthday party, the future was a mystery.
"Everyone is supposed to be nice to you today and give you your way, Bella. What's the worst that could happen?" I barely kept my smile in place. Bella was all too familiar with 'the worst.' And with her luck…
"Getting older," Bella grumbled, and I couldn't help but press my lips together. So much for trying to avoid a very tedious argument.
"Eighteen isn't very old. Don't women usually wait until they're twenty-nine to get upset over birthdays?" Alice smiled.
"It's older than Edward," Bella said sadly. I exhaled loudly, wishing that Bella could understand how much I desired to stay older than her – to grow old with her. How she was the fortunate one.
"Technically, just by one little year, though.". Alice paused. "What time will you be at the house?"
Bella tensed again, and her grip on my hand tightened. "I didn't know I had plans to be there."
The vision of Bella refusing to attend her party got clearer in Alice's mind and I groaned mentally.
Alice did not accept this future either, and fought furiously to change it. "Oh, be fair, Bella! You aren't going to ruin all our fun like that, are you?"
"I thought my birthday was about what I want," Bella snapped.
"I'll get her from Charlie's right after school," I said trying to calm the situation.
"I have to work," Bella said smugly.
"You don't, actually," Alice replied. Bella's face went red again. "I already spoke to Mrs. Newton about it. She's trading your shifts. She said to tell you 'Happy Birthday.'"
"I—I still can't come over. I, well, I haven't watched Romeo and Juliet yet for English."
"You have Romeo and Juliet memorized."
The protesting continued, "But Mr. Berty said we needed to see it performed to fully appreciate it-that's how Shakespeare intended it to be presented."
I rolled my eyes. Bella could be so stubborn when she put her mind to it. I stayed quiet as I let Alice deal with her. Deciding to stay neutral in this discuss until I had to butt in.
Coward.
I turned to glare at Alice but she was already continuing to make her point with Bella, "You've already seen the movie."
"But not the nineteen-sixty version. Mr. Berty said it was the best."
I am going to get her there even if I have to gag her and drag her there by her hair. Alice's thoughts rang out as she lost her smug smile and glared at Bella.
"This can be easy, or this can be hard, Bella, but one way or another…" The image of Alice dragging a screaming Bella through the forest was an unwelcome sight in my mind.
"Relax, Alice. If Bella wants to watch a movie, then she can. It's her birthday." Alice pursed her lips.
Don't you dare side with her – you want this as much as I do, I know it.
"So there," Bella said. I almost expected her to stick out her tongue.
"I'll bring her over around seven. That will give you more time to set up."
Alice looked into the future and saw Bella and me walking calmly up the steps of my home, and brightened. "Sounds good. See you tonight, Bella! It'll be fun, you'll see." She jumped up and gave my cheek a feather's kiss before dashing off to class.
Bella sulked, having lost the chance to argue further. "Edward, please—" but I gently laid my finger over her mouth.
"Let's discuss it later. We're going to be late for class."
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