After BTR Chapter 1!
Kendall Knight/ Natalie Rose Sawyer
Logan Mitchell/ Natasha Mills
James Diamond/ Lily Carolina
Carlos Garcia/ MaKenna DelBrook
~Kendall's Point of View~
It all happened so fast, one day I was in Minnesota playing with my team, the Minnesota Wild and the next I was being whisked back to my hometown after a cousin had been murdered.
I was now 27 and was doing very well for myself.
I had a great job, a nice house and lots of money and was free and single.
It had been almost 10 years since my band; "Big Time Rush" had broken up.
We all decided to do our own thing, the band was doing amazing but, we all had other things we wanted to do.
I with my hockey, Logan with his school, Carlos and the military and James and his solo career, we had slowly lost touch and now all at once, I was being pulled back into my past that I had tried so hard to forget.
I pulled into the drive way of my mom's house, several cars sat parked in the street and driveway it was hard to find a spot.
My heart thudded in my chest as I turned the door knob and entered the house, a few people where walking through the house, aunts and uncles and in the corner I spotted three boys one dressed in Marine fatigues and the other two in black suits they all had small plates filled with small pieces of food.
The caught sight of me and all three nodded slightly as did I and I went off to find my mother and sister.
I found my mom in the kitchen my sister sitting at the island that sat in the middle of the kitchen.
I walked over to my mom and placed a kiss on her cheek, my now 21 year old sister looked at me and smiled I gave her a light hug and kissed the top of her forehead.
"Hey honey, how are you?" my mom asked.
"I'm good." I said picking up a cracker with a piece of cheese on it and shoved it into my mouth.
My sister was nibbling on a piece of fruit. "Did you see James, Logan and Carlos?" my mom asked turning from the stove.
"Oh I just saw them on the way in. I didn't stop to talk though; I SHOULD go do that hu?" I asked looking down at my baby sister.
"Uh, yeah!" my sister said giving me a look.
I adjusted my suit and headed back to where I spotted the boys.
They were still in the same spot talking.
I took a deep breath and approached them.
I smiled as they noticed me as I got closer.
I shook each of their hands and smiled.
"Hey how are you?" I asked them.
"Good." I got from each of them.
I nodded, we grew silent not seeing each other in almost 10 tears we didn't have much to say to each other.
"So, how's the hockey thing?" Carlos asked rolling his uniform hat in his hands, "Great, great." I said.
"I try to watch you when I can but the whole military thing keeps me super busy." He said.
"Eh, it's okay. How about you hu? The military? Who would've thunk it." I said smiling and the Mexican boy.
"Yeah, well you know how much energy I had when I was younger, it was just the right thing to do I thought." He said.
"Well I'm happy for you Carlos." I said smiling and looking to the next boy who was Logan.
"So, medical school, Hu?" I asked he nodded, "Yeah, you know I've been wanting to do this forever and now well, I'm almost done!" he said smiling.
"And you James, wow, I saw you're last movie and bought your last CD. Good work man." I said smiling at the brunette boy obviously flattered by my comment.
"Aw, dang thanks man." He said shaking my hand.
I nodded and smiled.
"Hey by the way man, sorry about your cousin you know we all loved her." Logan said.
"Yeah, thanks it's been a hand few days." I said.
I heard the front door open and I looked to see two girls and a small child with one of them.
I looked in confusion so did Carlos.
My eyes widened, "Natalie? Natalie Rose Sawyer?" I asked in confusion, she looked up and smiled.
"H…hey Kendall." She said smiling.
"Oh my god. Wow, you are… wow." I said smiling.
~Natalie's Point of View~
I slowly approached the house a house I had been to so many times in my past, snow lightly fell onto the already icy ground.
My SUV passed a few cars before I parked it at the end of the long line of cars.
My 9 year old sat in the backseat wining about wanting to play with his friends instead of being here.
"Look, we got to be here, I promise we won't be here long. I promise." I said smiling at him.
He sighed and nodded, it was already dark out and only an few lights from a few houses lit the street.
I turned to my friend in the front seat, Makenna.
"You ready for this?" I asked. Makenna nodded and sighed, "Okay, let's go." I said.
Makenna shakily got out of the car and my son jumped out and slid across the icy road and jumped into a pile of snow at the edge of the road.
"Kendall! Stop it; you're going to mess up your suit!" I said.
My son hung his head and kicked a chunk of snow all the way to the door.
We opened the door and there, right in front of us, not more than 30 feet stood the four boys from our past, my sons bottoms of his black pants had snow littered across them.
I sighed and stood there for a minute, forgetting I was letting all the cold air in.
Kendall approached, me, "Natalie? Natalie Rose Sawyer?" he asked.
"H…Hey Kendall." I said. "Wow, you look, wow!" he said.
"Hey, Kendall! That's MY name!" my blonde son said from my side.
"Kendall, shh!" I said down to him, he angrily crossed his hands across his chest and pouted.
"Well, bud, you know in the kitchen I think my mom has some mini hot dogs. Why don't you go get some?" Kendall said smiling down at him.
A smile spread across his face as he ran off.
Carlos was about 10 steps behind Kendall.
"Makenna?" Carlos said.
"Carlos!" Makenna said.
"Wow, hey, look at you." He said.
"Look at you! The military?" she asked he smiled and spun around.
Kendall and I watched for a minute as my son disappeared into the kitchen.
"So, is he, yours?" Kendall asked.
I nodded, "Yes, he is." I said smiling at him.
"He's…cute." Kendall said looking at my son in the kitchen sitting with Katie happily snacking and talking to Katie.
Mrs. Knight turned around and sort of did a double take and shook her head a bit.
"H…How old is he?" Kendall asked sort of scared of that question.
"He will be ten in 2 months." I said.
Kendall looked as if he was going to pass out.
Carlos caught him, "Whoa buddy!" Carlos said standing up his woozy friend.
"You okay Kendall?" Carlos asked.
"Um, yeah." He said.
"You sure? You look a little green." His friend asked.
"I'm good Carlos." He said smiling down at his small friend.
Kendall reached behind us and shut the door and took my wrist and led me upstairs.
He took me into a room that I had been in so many times before.
Posters of the boys and old hockey players littered the walls along with about 20 or 30 metals and trophy's for hockey and various other sports including 4 gold records.
His bed was neatly made and on his nightstand sat a picture a very old picture of him and me at some music awards around the time that everything went downhill.
Kendall paced back and forth in his small room, "Kendall you okay?" I asked smoothing out my black skirt and sitting on the bed, he got a VERY serious look on his face…
"Nat, is he…he mine?" he asked.
I sighed and knew this would happen on day,
"Yes." I said.
He wrung his fingers through his blonde hair.
"Why didn't you ever tell me?" Kendall asked.
"Well after I found out everything was going wrong, we were fighting, the band was breaking up, I got into school and well, after you got onto the team, I was 6 months pregnant and didn't want to worry you with it." I said looking down at my hands.
"Nat, why? If that's my son why did you never tell me?" he asked.
"Everything went so fast after we broke up and I think I did really well, he's going to be 10, my mom and sister helped me with him when I was in school and working and after I graduated I was still at home until about 4 years ago when we got our house." I said.
"But Natalie, that's MY son! Didn't you think that I would want to be in his life?" he asked.
"Kendall, not once,
ONCE in almost 10 years have you called and asked how I was. I saw your life play out on sports shows and new broadcasts and we were together for almost 2 years and have you not thought about me once?" I asked tears starting in my eyes, "Of course, all the time!" he said rubbing my shoulders, "Then why in all this time, nothing. No calls, no letters, not even an E-Mail." I said.
"Look, I'm sorry, I know I screwed up, but Nat, you are sometimes all I think about, I always imagine you sitting in the stands at my games and if I go home to an empty house I wish you were there to greet me and I Imagined us married with kids by now when we were together." He said.
"Then why, why did you leave me, why did you not try to get in touch with me?" I asked.
"I honestly have no excuse, I always thought you were moved on, married with family." He said. I shook my head, "I have to go find my son." I said starting towards the door.
"Our. Our son." Kendall mumbled, I shook my head and didn't turn around and exited out the door to be face to face with four faces,
I smiled, "You boys will never change hu?" I asked smiling and I took Makenna and headed downstairs wiping a few stray tears as they escaped my eyes.