This is my first fanfic, so please don't be too hard on me ^^ So I had this homework to do for my french class where I had to write a letter choosing one of 3 differents scenarios. I had no inspiration for myself but I thought about writing it from Blair's POV about Chuck and it gave me some ideas. So yeah, there it is…
Title: Always
Author: Leavingyoubehind
Ratings: K
Category : Romance/Drama
Content: Chuck/Blair
Summary: After Blair learns that Chuck is going to die from an incurable disease, she can't tell him how she feels so she finally decide to write him a letter.
Disclaimer : Sadly, I do not own Chuck, Blair or Gossip Girl. If I did Chuck and Blair would be together right now.
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Dying. I keep saying it in my head over and over but the words don't register. I still can't believe that you're going to die. I don't know what to say or what to do anymore. How am I suppose to live without you in my life? We've known each other since we were kids. When I think of all the time we wasted chasing each other instead of just saying how we felt. But I must admit, I wouldn't trade any of those moments for anything in this world.
We've always had a complicated relationship. Sometimes all I wanted to do was strangle you but even in those moments, I loved you so much.
You're the only person who always loved me for who I was. I didn't have to pretend with you. To be the perfect student, the perfect daughter or the perfect girlfriend...With you I could always be myself without thinking I wasn't good enough.
There are so many things that I would like to say to you before you leave but I don't know how...I can't find the words to explain to you how much you meant to me, how much you still do even after all that happened.
You'll always be in my heart. Remember when you told me that if two people are meant to be together, enventually they'll find their way back? Well someday, one way or another, I'll find my way back to you. I love you. Always have, always will.