I could
feel the inevitable numbing sensation filter through my heart, as I
breathed the words I never thought I'd say.
"It's over,
Edward. I don't want to be with you anymore."
My eyes never
met his, for fear of the anger and resentment he might shoot at me,
but nothing.
"I understand" He whispered, and placed his cool
finger under my chin, not letting me go until I looked up. I
surrendered. His eyes were full of hurt, but he hid it well, there
wasn't a part of me that wasn't regretting this already, but I
knew it was the right thing to do. He was never with me, always away,
hunting or saving me from monsters, this wasn't a relationship; it
was nothing anymore.
I didn't think I'd want to get over him,
and move on with my life, but since meeting Jacob Black, things had
changed. He was the one who saved me, who held me up when all I
wanted to do was crumble to the ground and wither away. He was my
saviour, when Edward was gone, nowhere to be found.
The tears
welled up and spilled over slowly, whilst he bent his head forward.
"No" I whispered, turning my head slightly to the side. He
stopped, barely an inch from my mouth.
"Why?" He asked, his
cool breath rushing over my wet cheeks. For a moment, I wanted him to
kiss me, to surrender and take him back, but it was wrong, we were
wrong.
"Because it hurts too much" I whispered, now in a full
flood of tears. He stopped then, a final flicker of emotion welling
up inside I guessed.
"I love you, Bella" He told me, his voice
breaking several times within those four words. "You're all I
want,"
"You can't have me." My voice came out harsher
than I'd first intended, but he simply wasn't accepting it. Then
he turned, and walked away. I never thought he'd ever do that, to
give up so easily, but I guessed it was easier on him if he just
accepted it.
