****Chapter re-posted 3/23/13 with closer proofreading and editing.****

This story changes course between Eclipse and Breaking Dawn before the wedding. Everything that happened in the books up happened in my version up until then. However, as we go along Bella will begin to see some of the things that happened in Twilight, New Moon, and Eclipse from a different vantage point. I am not going to give away the plot with hints because I want it to be a surprise as it happens, but I will tell you this. Bella will become quite out of character and there will be non-canon pairings. This will also not be pro Edward and possible not pro Cullen coven. It may even become anti-Edward. I have never been a fan of his self absorbed, passive aggressive crap. So if you don't like it, oh well. I would say don't read, but you may come to like it if you do. Warning Rated M for a reason-language and future fucking lemons of course. Hope you enjoy.

I own nothing. It all belongs to Stephenie Meyer.

Chapter 1: Fuck him. Fuck them.

Bella POV

Today is Saturday and exactly one week until I become Mrs. Edward Masen Cullen. These past few summer months have been nothing but a blur of wedding preparations and finalizing my life as a human. Alice has been nothing but a freaking terrorist in my life. 'Bella, we need this. Bella, we need that. Bella, you can't wear that. Bella, what are you thinking? Bella, just leave the difficult decisions to me and this wedding will be a dream come true.' I stopped arguing with her after the first two weeks. I attempted to defer to Edward for backup, but all I got from him was 'Bella, it makes Alice happy to plan such important events. You only need to worry about saying I do. Just let her do all the work and take a step back and relax and be happy.' Of course I had nothing to say to that especially when he turned on those dazzling eyes. I swear that man could dazzle me into walking up to Mike Newton in nothing, but a string bikini and a smile begging for directions to his bedroom. Yuck! Shiver!

Crap! Speaking of the little evil pixie terrorist, "Bella, time for your last fitting." she screeches while smiling with that voice that use to make me think of heavenly bells now only seems like nails on a chalk board.

"Fine Alice, but we have to make it quick. I promised Charlie that he and I would have dinner just the two of use before Renee and Phil arrive on Thursday night." Of course she knows this, but I seem to always have to remind her that I do have a life to attend to outside of her and her wedding mania.

"I remember. Don't fret. We will be done quickly. Then the family is going for a hunt with the Denali coven. They should be arriving in the next 30 minutes. Didn't Edward tell you?"

"Oh, yes he did. However, he did not mention that the Denali's were coming early. Last I remember they were coming on Friday for the rehearsal dinner. What changed?" No brainer on why he didn't tell me about them coming earlier after the stunts that Tanya and Kate have pulled over the summer. Those two bitches are lucky that I am not one for violence. Even though I am a possessive jealous and vindictive girlfriend. "All I can say is that I better not have to put up with any more of their constant flirting with my fiance or their malicious comments about me and speaking down to me. I mean, I know that they are your 'family' and all, but I refuse to be subjected to it this week of all weeks."

"Don't fret about it, Bella. I don't know why Edward didn't tell you they were coming today, but you won't have to put up with anything as you will not be back to our house until Saturday. I am starting to decorate the house for the wedding and I want it to be a surprise for you. So you will not be coming back until it is time for you to officially become my sister."

Alice helps me into my gown. I call it a gown because what my definition of a dress does not do this monstrosity justice. It is a beautiful gown, but it would not have been one that I would have selected for myself. I know I have sold out when it comes to my wedding, but hey I didn't even care about getting married so I guess I don't really care about the show. It is a wonder there won't be a curtain call. I only want to be with Edward for ever and if marrying him is what he needs then I decided that I would go through the motions for him. I had to do some soul searching to come to that conclusion and in the end it was Alice again that essentially made the decision for me. She told me that it didn't make sense that I was willing to die for him, but not marry him. Stupid annoying, nosy, prying pixie.

"Bella if you keep losing weight there's not going to be enough of you left to hang this dress on."

"Sorry Alice, but I have been stressed out recently with everything and food makes me nauseous just thinking about it. It's not like I want to loose weight." She is really starting to piss me off today. Shit, most of the time I don't eat because she has my time planned down to the 17 minutes she allows me for a meal.

I have to get out of here.

"You do realize that you only weight 95 pounds and at five foot five you should at least weigh 110. If you loose anymore weight the dress will not be on presentation as it should. You need to make sure you don't miss any more meals." What the fuck? Who does she think she is? "Oh, I think I hear the Denali's SUV coming down the drive."

I am so glad she changed the subject because I was about to say some shit that would get me in trouble with Edward. "Really Alice? You mean to tell me you know the sound of their car specifically? I would expect that from Rose, but you?" I sit down on Edward's bed while she helps out of the gown and hooker heels. I mean, I know Edward is a lot taller than me, but 5 inch heels. Is she insane. Yes, Yes she is. I can't walk in flats, but does she listen no I only get 'Bella, I see everything will be fine with the heels.'

After the final torture session with Alice until Saturday, I make my way down the stairs in search of my fiance. Everyone has congregated to the driveway waiting to greet the Denali's. I guess. Oh shit! Is that Irina that just got out of the car? I did not expect her to show up after she discovered the pack killed Laurent. Boy this is going to be a fucked up week. I'm even happier that I won't be back to this house until Saturday. The three succubi are obviously eye-fucking all of the Cullen men and it doesn't seem to bother Esme, Rosalie, or Alice, but I be damn if it doesn't piss me the fuck off. Wait did Alice just growl? Oh, well.

Tanya, the slut that she is, is sashaying over to Edward. What the fuck? She just kissed his cheek and then brushed her nose across his neck while looking directly at me. She then tells Edward, loudly enough for me to obviously hear, "Oh Eddie darling, still getting married. I thought you would have come to your senses by now, lover." Edward visibly stiffened and took a step back.

"It is nice to see you again Tanya. Please don't cause a scene." Edward stated flatly.

I don't have it in me today to even dignify her display with a response. I simply make my way to my truck blowing out a deep breath in an attempt to calm my boiling jealousy. I mean she may be whore, but she is a stunning beauty. In what world would I ever compare to her or any other vampire. Roaring my old truck to life, Edward appears at my door with a worried expression on his face. "My family and I will be hunting and will return at dusk tomorrow. I'll come by your home when we return. I'm sure Alice has informed you that you are not welcome back here until Saturday." He smiles attempting to lighten the mood. Failing miserably I might add.

"Yes. Fine. I'm still having dinner tonight with Charlie and then going to visit Billy on the rez tomorrow. Jacob still hasn't come home and I want to make sure Billy has everything he needs. I will see you tomorrow night then. I love you."

He smiles softly at me then places a chaste kiss on my lips. "I love you too. Please be careful. See you tomorrow."

The dinner with Charlie went well. Of course he wanted to let me know that if I decided to back out of the wedding he and Renee would support me 100 percent. His keen observation skills notice that I am not completely happy about getting married, but he is letting me make my own decisions. That is the reason I love him so much and my one true regret that we will have to fake my death while on the honeymoon. I will miss him with my entire soul, but starting my new existence as Cullen means leaving my old life behind completely.

Sunday morning I woke to an obnoxious knocking on the front door and thunder and heavy rain. Ahhhhhh! Gotta love Forks, WA. I stumbled out of bed. I guess Charlie was called into work this morning. Answering the door in my tee shirt and boy shorts, hair a mess and eyes full of sleep. I am greeted by the 100 watt smile of Seth Clearwater. "Hey Bells! Looking fabulous this morning."

"Smart ass."

Roaring with laughter he asks, "Are you coming or not?"

"Come again?"

"Oh sorry, I guess Charlie didn't tell you. He was talking to my mom on the phone last night and don't even get me started on that, because that is just weird." I know what he means. Charlie has been spending a lot of time visiting Sue lately. I think there is something there. "Anyway, he said you were planning on coming to down to the rez today so I thought I would volunteer my charming presence and escort the beautiful lady." I just gave him a blank stare. "OK. OK. Edward kind of called me yesterday asking if I would keep a look out for you." Of course he did. "So come on lets go, gorgeous, because I am so not running back in this storm."

"Fine. Give me a few minutes. Come in and help yourself to the refrigerator."

Seth and I have become close over the summer. Since the announcement of the wedding the rest of the pack's been avoiding me. Thank you Alice for sending out the wedding invitations before I had the chance to tell any of them in person. I planned on telling Jacob in person, but he received his invitation in the mail the morning I was planning a trip down to talk to him. He read it, phased, and took off, He hasn't been back since. I know the pack blames me. And I agree with them. It should have gone down differently.

Anyway, Seth is the only one that has stuck by me and he has become a true little brother to me. He is the only one that knows exactly how I feel about the whole wedding fiasco. He is the only one I have felt comfortable enough with to bare my secrets to. He doesn't judge and just listens. He is the only one of the pack that Edward somewhat trusts me with. So when I want to go to La Push or when Edward goes hunting he always calls Seth to keep an eye on things for him which seems to be happening a lot these past few months. I don't know why he feels I still need protecting. Victoria was destroyed and the Volturi haven't been back since the newborn battle.

20 minutes and an eye opening shower later I stumble down the stairs to Seth sitting at the kitchen table rubbing his stomach. "Damn, Bella, that left over lasagna was awesome."

"You're welcome. Now lets go I need to run by the Cullen's and pick up my cell phone. I kind of left in a hurry yesterday and forgot it in Edward's room. Their all on a hunting trip so they won't be there. And I have been give orders I am not allowed back in their house until the wedding. So I suppose this is the only chance I have to get it."

"Sure. Sure. I'll wait in the truck."

We made the drive to the Cullen's in comfortable silence. Seth likes to talk, but he just knows when I need to keep to my thoughts. I still wonder why Edward didn't tell me that the Denali coven were coming in early. We arrive at the house nearly 45 minutes later with the storm roaring strong. I could hear my beast of a truck over the thunder and rain. I park next to the Denali's SUV and jog into the house. There is noise coming from upstairs. Hmmm, I thought they were all out hunting. The sound is coming from the bedrooms. Loud moans, panting, and a rhythmic thumping noise is coming from all of the bedrooms including Edwards. I slowly walk up to his room. The door is ajar, I slowly push it open and what I see makes my heart drop into my stomach. There is Edward, Tanya, Irina, and Kate. All four of them are naked. Edward is laying on his bed with Irina laying beside him touching herself. Kate is sitting on his face and Tanya is riding his fucking cock. All of them are moaning and don't appear to notice that I am standing just inside of the door. I'm frozen in place and unable to speak or look away. Tanya speaks with a smirk on her face, "Oh Eddie, I have missed you these past few weeks. You know you will miss us too once you marry that little pathetic human pet. Only we make you feel like this."

Edward answers her with a growl, "oh god, yes, Tanya, yes!" At this feel something inside me shatters and I simply turn around and walk down the hall and down the stairs.

I see Jasper out the corner of my eye exiting his room. I don't acknowledge him and walk out the front door and continue walking down the drive way past my truck.

Next thing I know Seth is driving me to my house while asking me over and over if I can hear him and begging for me to answer. "I can't talk about it now Seth. I just need to go inside and figure out my next move. I assume you know what happened."

"Yeah, I don't know the details but I could hear what was going on in that house and heard a female speak to Edward and I heard what he said back. I kind of filled in the rest. I am so sorry Bella. I would have never thought Edward would do something like that." He finished in a whisper.

"Three of them, Seth. Three of them at the same time and from what Tanya said it has happened before." Surprisingly, I have no tears. Seth is hovering over me as if I am going to vaporize. "Don't worry, Seth. I am not going to become a zombie again. I just need to get out of here. I don't think I can handle anyone right now. And I just don't think I should have to. Will you help me?"

"Anything, Bella, just name it."

What to do. What to do. I can only think of one place I could go that would be the safest from other supernatural creatures and away from the Cullens. Do I want away from them all? Yes. Yes, I do. All of them obviously knew what was going on. They were all home when it was going on. They had to hear as well as smell it too. Shit! I could fucking smell the sex. Fuck him. Fuck them.

No wonder they all up and left me before at Edward's request. They all see me as the pathetic little human pet that Tanya called me. Well no more. I may be human, but I will no longer be their pet and I am not pathetic. "I need to phone Charlie."

I dial Charlie's cell from the house phone since I never retrieved my cell from Edward's room. He answers on the second ring, "What's up, Bells?"

"Char... Dad, I have to leave. I just went to the Cullen's to pick up my cell and found Edward in bed with another woman." Did he just drop the phone?

I think I heard him swearing in the background. "I've got my gun, I am on my way over there. No one treats my kid that way. He was the pressuring you to get married and he does this. I need another clip." I couldn't make out the rest.

"No Dad. He isn't worth it. They aren't worth it. I guess it took this to see him and them for what they are. They don't care for anyone not even each other. Dad, I have to leave Forks. I wanted to let you know what was going on so that you knew I left on my own. Please don't look for me. I will stay in touch the best that I can. I'm so sorry for leaving you again. I just can't stay here and be around everything and everyone. Please call Renee and tell her. I love you, Dad." I now feel the tears welling up in my eyes not for Edward, but for my father. I am leaving him again and probably for good this time.

"I understand, Bells. I will let Renee know. We won't try to talk you out of this, but you know your mother. I can't be held responsible for Edward's health once she finds out." I smile just thinking about what Renee would do if she could.

"No you can't let her fly up here. She'll do something stupid and reckless. Just tell her to stay in Jacksonville and I'll call her."

"Alright. Just please don't disappear on me. Can you tell me where you plan to go?"

"No. I am still not certain. I am just leaving. I have plenty of money and if I need anything you will be the first I call. I love you so much. I am so sorry that I am leaving you like this. Please take care of yourself." I couldn't hold back the tears any longer. I am all out sobbing at this point. If it wasn't for Seth holding me in a tight hug I would be on the floor. He is rubbing my back softly while softly whispering in my ear that he is there for me.

"I will, Bells. You take care of yourself, kiddo. And don't forget the pepper spray I gave you." We both let out a forced chuckle. Leave it to Charlie to make me laugh at a time like this.

"Yeah, I just wish I had a riot size canister of pepper spray to detonate in the Cullen house. I love you, Dad. I am going to go now. Seth's driving me to the airport and will bring my truck back to the house. Goodbye, Daddy." I whisper. This is probably my final goodbye.

"Goodbye, sweetheart. I love you. Be careful." We hang up and I continue to sob into Seth's chest. I come back to myself several minutes later knowing that it won't be long before one if not all of the Cullens show up.

I run upstairs and throw some clothes in a suitcase. I grab my laptop and a photo from my desk of Charlie, Renee and me from last Summer when Renee came up for my bridal shower. We were all so happy that day.

I hurry down stairs, grab Seth by the hand and fly out the front door afraid to look back. I hop behind the wheel of my truck knowing this will very well be the last time I drive it. I push my old girl as fast as she will go toward the Forks First National bank. I withdraw $25,000.00 from my account. Stupid, high handed Cullens. They deposited $250,000.00 in my checking account. I threw a fit of course, but they argued that I may need it for spur of the moment wedding stuff and in the event of an emergency. Yeah, I had lived 17 years in and out of emergency rooms on mine and Renee's meager incomes. I caved once again simply vowing to never spend it. Well, I guess now is as good of an emergency as it gets. I see it as this will be the probably be the most expensive foursome Edward will have ever had. Fuck him. Fuck them.

With several questioning looks from the bank teller (who just happens to be Jessica Stanley) as she returns from the vault with the money for me. She can obviously see that I have been crying and not in the best place mentally right now. Thank fuck she doesn't say a word for the first time in her life. Well, I guess it won't be more than a couple of hours before the good news spreads through Forks. Oh well, I am getting the hell out of here. Fuck him. Fuck them.

I leave the bank with the Cullen's cash and make my way to the airport in Seattle. "Do you know where you are going?"

"Yep." I answer flatly.

"Gonna let me in on the secret?"

"Nope."

"Any reason why? You know I would never tell."

I give him a 'are you stupid or something look,' ah and now he finally gets it, "Oh, you don't want Edward to pick it out of my head."

"Exactly and I need you to stay close to me, but with enough distance so you don't hear or see where I am going. Alice obviously can't see what I am doing or deciding while you are with me." Gotta love those wolves and their capability to block the prying pixie. "And I want it to stay that way for as long as possible."

"I'm with you for the long haul if you'll let me. You don't have to do this alone."

"I know you would be and that is just one more reason why I love you so much. But I can't put you in that position and before you jump to conclusions it has nothing to do with you only being 15. It has everything to do with your position in the pack. You are needed here. I'll stay in touch and try to phone at least once per week. Don't worry about me. I am stronger then most think. I've had to be. I just have forgotten over the past two years."

We arrive at the airport and Seth maintains a safe hearing distance while I purchase my one way ticket and check my suitcase. I walk over to him, "Hey, I'm all set. My plane leaves in 15 minutes."

"Damn! That soon, huh? I thought we would have a few hours so I could talk you down off the ledge."

"Smart ass."

"I know. It's just that I'm going to miss my big sister."

"You still have Leah."

"Now who's the smart ass." I couldn't help but giggle. Seth loved Leah, but he really didn't like her. "I'm going to miss you so much, Bells. Please be careful. And you better stay in touch. No matter what and you know what I mean."

"Yes I do and yes I will. Take care of Charlie for me and don't get between him and your mom. You know as well as I do that there is something there and I think they could be good for each other."

"Yeah, I know, but you have to admit that it's weird. I'll keep watch out for him no matter what. You just come back to us. No matter how long it takes. I'll wait for you to return to us, Bells. This will always be your home even though it may not seem like it today. You will heal. Then come back to us. I see the strength in you and always have. I mean, you have to hand Edward his ass sometime. He can't get off this easy." He smiles at me and lifts me into a bone crushing hug. I don't even have it in me to ask to breathe. I feel so safe in his embrace. I don't know how long it will be before I feel this way again if ever. He places me back on my feet and touches his forehead to mine, "I will stay here for 30 minutes after the plane takes off so that the pixie doesn't see."

"Thank you. I love you. Goodbye little brother." I walk away while he carefully watches me. I round the corner and he waves to me.

I continue through the airport and board American Airlines flight 204 bound for New York City. Then next stop Rome. Then onto Volterra.

Fuck him. Fuck them.

TBC

AN: I will be bouncing back and forth between this story and Fae Triplets. This story would just not get out of my head. Reviews cause my keyboard to light up. Give 'em to me and be honest even if you don't like. I am always open for suggestions as well.