The last Christmas i shared with my family, before that day where Bella walked into my life. I was so lonely, everyone was happy, and maybe i should be too, but i just couldn't force happiness to come. I was a soul less monster, why was i celebrating christmas?
I sat in the living room, on the sofa closest to the door, the other sofas were all together, in corner units, all joint. I just wanted to be alone. Calisle and Esme were sharing an embrace, cuddled up watching the television, Esme chuckled at a comedy that was being shown. Carlisle had his arm draped around her, such a romantic beautiful gesture. Esme's thoughts were so happy, she thought about how lucky she was to have such a wonderful husband and family. Carlisle was thinking of me, he noticed i hadn't been myself today, like any other December the 25th we had shared in the past. I looked over to Alice and Jasper, Jasper was sitting in the corner of the sofa, leaning away from the arm. Alice was sitting on top of him, both arms wrapped around his neck. they were both giggling, Jasper whispered things into her ear, theirthoughts were rude, things i didn't really want to hear in my own head. Finally i looked to Rosalie and Emmett, the couple sitting closest to me, Rosalie was sitting on top of Emmett, legs wrapped around him, she was kissing him, very passionatly. I drove their thoughts out immediatly, that was definatly one thing i did not want to hear. Eventually they creeped upstairs together, which didn't surprise any of us. Alice and Jasper soon followed to go to their own room. I was left, with only my own depressing thoughts or Carlisle and Esme's sickly happy thoughts.
I hated Christmas, everyone was too happy, and me noticing they were happier than me made me even more depressed. I decided to go for a drive, id rather go upstairs and sit in my room, playing my music or reading my books, but i didn't want to hear what any of my siblings were doing up there. I took the keys to my Volvo off the side drawer and pulled on my coat. The roads were clear, everyone was at home, with their families, having fun. I took advantage of the clear freeway by maxing the speed on my car, i took great pleasure in seeing everything outside a blur, a snowy cold blur.
The clock on my dashboard reached 11pm, i turned my car around and headed home, hopefully to find peace in my own room. I flung the door open and dropped my keys on the side. The others were talking in the living room so i ran upstairs and found solice in my room, i closed my door and spoke to no one for the rest of the day. I hated looking like a stroppy teenager, but some days are just not for me.
Then i met Bella, and we shared many happy christmases together, until the present day. Now i love christmas, i get to spend it with my beautiful wife and beautiful daughter, who i wouldnt trade for the universe.