Fearless Chapter 1: My Black Dahlia, a twilight fanfic

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Ok this is a chapter that's going to be in the story later on, i just wanted to give it to you guys as a preface

This is set 6 months after the chapter: Homecoming.

I loved you, you made me, hate me.
You gave me, hate, see?.
It saved me and these tears are deadly.
You feel that?
I rip back, every time you tried to steal that.
You feel bad? you feel sad?
I'm sorry, hell no fuck that!
It was my heart, it was my life, it was my start, it was your knife.
This strife it dies, this life and these lies.
And these lungs have sung this song for too long, and its true I hurt too, remember I loved you!

Song: My Black Dahlia by Hollywood Undead

I had tears in my eyes as I drove over to my second home. I wasn't supposed to be crying. I was supposed to be happy, I had just been accepted into the college of my dreams. But I couldn't feel the happiness. All I felt was the pain, the deep searing pain that cut across my chest. It was tearing what was left of my heart into pieces. I didn't know if I could survive with these broken pieces, where they strong enough to keep me alive? They only seemed to be strong enough to pump this constant pain through my body. The words that I shouldn't have heard but did anyway kept flashing across my mind. Wasn't this my body? Wasn't it supposed to make me better not keep tearing me down? I wiped my eyes as I sped down the highway.

"I don't want her. I never did and I never will. Tanya you're who I want." I heard him say as I made my way to Alice's room. It was our annual start of summer sleepover. I knew I shouldn't have stopped, I shouldn't have listened in. But didn't they say curiosity killed the cat? I heard her nasally voice, "If you want me, then you're going to have to dump her. It's so obvious that she's in love with you. I don't want her around." I heard him speak again, his voice that could always calm me down when I was upset, or pick me up when I was feeling down, replied. "I cant do that Tanya, she's a family friend. Besides she knows that we'll only ever be friends." "Eddie, it's either her that goes or I do." "Tanya don't do that." I heard a set of feet make their way towards the door. I backed up not wanting to be caught eavesdropping. What I heard next broke my heart, I knew that they were talking about me. "Fine Tanya, I guess it's about time that I got Bella off my back. I don't want to be friends anymore." I grabbed my chest. That's when the searing pain started. I heard a set of feet coming up the stairs. I saw Emmett, he smiled at me. "Yo Bells!" He said in his big booming voice. As soon as he said it I heard Edward curse and open his door. I didn't stay to talk to him, I bolted out of the house, I heard both Emmett and Edward shout out my name but I didn't stay. I ran all the way to my car and started it up. I gunned it and sped away, I saw Alice on the front porch with Edward and Emmett.

I didn't want this memory playing in my mind anymore. I continued speeding down the road till I found the Cullen's drive way. I pulled in and parked my car. I took deep calming breathes I could do this. I had to for my on sanity. Never again will I let my heart beat for another. I gotta do this for me. I pulled up my hood on my favorite zip up hoodie and marched up to the front door. I rang the door bell and waited for someone to open the door. I prayed to whatever god that could hear me, that it wasn't going to be Edward. Thankfully it was Esme that opened the door.

"Bella honey! I'm so glad that your here, Alice was quite worried about you when you left yesterday." She smiled and ushered me in.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to upset anyone." I replied putting my hands in my pocket and biting my lip. It was a nervous habit of mine.

"Oh nonsense, Alice is upstairs in her room, and Edwards in his if you want to go up there." She smiled. I gasped at his name. Just his name sent a painful shot through me. Esme looked at me worriedly.

I shook my head no, "Can uh we all just talk in the kitchen? I have some news to tell you." She looked at me again, her motherly instinct telling her something was wrong.

"Sure dear, you go sit at the table and I'll call them down." I nodded and made my way to sit at the table.

I tapped my fingers on the table top and waited for them to come down. I rubbed my wrist where my tattoo was, it was an unconscious thing I did. I looked up when I heard them coming towards me. It was Esme first and she smiled her motherly smile at me. I would miss that. Then it was my best friend Alice, leaving her would be the hardest. But I had to, this was for me. I had to forget all about him. I needed to wipe him from my memory. Speak of the devil, he was the last to come in. He had a guilty half sad smile on as he looked at me. My heart sputtered and instead of shooting pain through my system, it sent anger. Pure red hot anger.

"So Bella what did you want to tell us?" Esme asked taking a seat next to Alice. Alice was on my right side and Esme was on my left. Edward was sitting directly in front of me. I glared at him. He just looked down.

"Well as you know, we just graduated and college is starting soon." I said they all nodded at me, so I continued. "Well I just got accepted to one and I decided to tell you."

Esme smiled so bright, "I'm so proud of you dear!"

Alice squealed, "Oo I can't wait! I knew you'd get in. Now we can be roommates!!" It broke my heart when she said that. Our plan was to go to the same college.

I shook my head; they stopped and stared at me, "Ali I'm not going to the University of Seattle with you. I'm, I'm going to Florida Southern." I said looking at my clasped hands as they lay on the table.

She gasped, "What? Why?"

"Ali I'm sorry, but I have to. I can't stand being here and having my heart broken over and over again. I'm doing this for me."

I expected her to glare and be mad at me, but she unleashed all her anger on Edward. "You did this!! You and your two timing whore! Your making my best friend leave me! I hate you!" She said as she made to lunge at him.

"Alice stop." Esme said. Alice glared at him but sat down. Esme turned to look at me.

"Honey congratulations. I'm so very proud of you. When do you leave?" She asked. I was dreading that question.

I gulped and looked up. "Two days." I mumbled.

"What?!" Alice cried.

"Alice I have too. Practice starts in a week. I'm sorry." I stood up. "But I gotta go." Alice ran over and hugged me.

"We can work around this; I mean we still have breaks." She smiled at me.

" Ali, I'm not coming back." I replied as I hugged her and ran out to my truck. I would call her later. But right now i had to get out of there. I couldn't take anymore of Edwards stares of pity at me.

"Bella wait!" I heard his voice, and for once it didn't make me melt. It made me mad, furious. I turned around to look at him

"What do you want?!" I growled.

"Look, I'm sorry about what you heard. It's better this way right?" He tried smiling at me.

"Better?! How the fuck do you think that?" I yelled at him.

"Look we both knew that anything other than friends wouldn't work."

"Yeah well I wish I could just quit you. I wish I never met you."

"You don't mean that." He looked sad.

"What? You feel bad? You feel sad? I'm sorry but fuck that, it was my heart, my life. And now I'm just fucked up." I yelled at him, "I loved you, you made me, hate me. And I'm done with you." I yelled as I got in my truck and zoomed off. This time I didn't look back.

And I never planned too.

So i hope you all liked it. I loved this song and i thought it would work well with this chapter.

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