Illusion Chapter 1: Fairytale Gone Bad, a wheel of time fanfic

Title: Fairytale Gone Bad
Author: Seraz
Rating: K+
Pairing: Moiraine/Lan Nyneave/Lan
A/N: My first songfic
EDITED: Some grammar and minor flaws. I know it's been long since I wrote something. And that this was meant to be a oneshot.
I'll keep writing songfics and put them up here. I am working on a few at the moment
Summary: Lan's thoughts about Moiraine's death.

This is the end you know
Lady the plans we had went all wrong
We ain't nothing but fight and shout and tears

Moiraine, I can't believe you're gone.
That I am standing here alone.
I want to scream out loud:
Show you my tears and hollow soul.
You left me bleeding inside.
I have nothing left to live for.

I feel you in my heart that you are alive.
But in the same time I feel Myrelle's bond to me.
I saw you fall through that thing.
You should be dead, but deep
in my heart I feel you.
You can't leave me like this.

We got to a point I can't stand
I've had it to the limit; I can't be your man
I ain't more than a minute away from walking

I should have protected you.
I should have had my mind and eyes on you.
You're the one I love.
I should have felt your emotions
and thoughts.
I never suspected this, never saw this coming.
You shouldn't have died on my watch.

Light, I am from Malkier, I should have sensed
the Dark coming.
What kind of man am I, who can't protect a Lady?
Sure steel don't bite on the Source, but I should
have died with you.

I took an oath; we were going to go through
everything together as one.

We can't cry this pain away
We can't find a need to stay
I slowly realized there's nothing on our side

My life has always been chaos.
Before I met you I was leading men to their deaths.
Waiting for my time to die.
I never expected to live long.
Then I met you and my life changed.
I lost my dearest friend; the last man from Malkier.
Except me, of course.
I killed my other friend, who had turned to the Dark.

That was the first time I saw you afraid.
I saw you hesitate, your warm soul and heart.
You wished no harm to anyone.
You wanted to protect everyone, save them from the Dark.
I saw you fail, I saw you grieve.

We had both faced the death, and survived.
We were wounded inside.
Together we healed and become one.
We were strong together.

Out of my life, Out of my mind
Out of the tears we can't deny
We need to swallow all our pride
And leave this mess behind
Out of my head, Out of my bed
Out of the dreams we had, they're bad
Tell them it's me who made you sad
Tell them the fairytale gone bad

I realize now that I have always loved you.
The girl doesn't mean anything to me.
I see now that she is a kid and you
were a Lady.
But it's too late, you're gone.
I can't feel your inner anymore.

I will never loose my hope
that you one day will return.
But until then I will revenge you.
I miss you more than I can describe.

Wherever you are I hope that you can feel
my love for you.

Another night and I bleed
They all make mistake and so did we
But we did something we can never turn back right

I like the girl I admit that, but I
love you Moiraine.
But you won't come back, will you?

Find a new one to fool
Leave and don't look back. I won't follow
We have nothing left. It's the end of our time

I am considering proposing to the girl.
She is after all a lot like you.
I can see parts of you in her, which
makes me want to hold her.
She is you in an immature way.
You were sophisticated and had style, a real Lady.
Compared to you all women in the whole world are brats.

We can't cry this pain away
We can't find a need to stay
There's no more rabbits in my hat to make things right

I really wish I could do something, to bring you back to life.
I want to hold you in my arms forever.
In my heart I will always love you.
Forever you will be my dream.
Until my last breath you will be my Lady.
You will be my hope and future.
I will live to revenge you.

And if I get a son with Nynaeve,
he will continue my revenge.
I am sorry that I have married her,
but I had no choice.
She is too much like you.
When I close my eyes, I pretend that it's
you I hold in my arms, you I kiss.

My blood will flood through my son.
He will feel my love for you and revenge you.
I will teach him everything.
With that mother he will become a male channeler.
I will get him to Rand, whom will teach him how to weave.

I will win this war for you Moiraine,
in one way or another.
I will never give up my hope on your return.

I hope that you can feel my love and forgive me.
My mind has been clouded and now when everything I crystal clear;
I long for you.
I want to hold you and kiss you.

I dream about you. I want you.
I need you. I have never needed any woman, but now I want you.
But you're not here, you will never come.
I wish I could turn back time, and make everything alright.
At least so I could tell you I love you.

Because I do, I love you like a madman.
I wake up sweaty at night, remembering your face.
How beautiful you were.

I have woken up.
Everything is clear to me.
Everything has a reason and my reason is you.

I love you Moiraine, you were and are my soul mate.
I realize it now.
To bad I was too late…

A/N: "Fairytale Gone Bad" by Sunrise Avenue

This is the end you know
Lady the plans we had went all wrong
We ain't nothing but fight and shout and tears

We can't cry this pain away
We can't find a need to stay
I slowly realized there's nothing on our side

Another night and I bleed
They all make mistake and so did we
But we did something we can never turn back right

Find a new one to fool
Leave and don't look back. I won't follow
We have nothing left. It's the end of our time

We can't cry this pain away
We can't find a need to stay
There's no more rabbits in my hat to make things right