I can't believe she's mine. I muse as I twirl my wedding band around my finger.
I can't believe she loves me so much. Love I never deserved
I can't believe how soundly she sleeps in my bed, in my BED. I smile to myself knowing she would correct me and say it's OUR bed.
I can't believe her pet name for me.
I can't believe that I like it.
I can't believe I get to touch her when I want.
I can't believe I get to kiss her when I want
I can't believe that she can touch and kiss me whenever she wants.
I can't believe I get to make love to her.
I can't believe she wants to make love to me.
I can't believe I can hold he so tight never wanting to let go.
! THEN I WAKE UP !
I can't believe I fell asleep here ... again .!
I can't believe her head stone is my pillow...again .
I can't believe I'm wailing for her...again.
" John." I can't believe I hear her softly call to me...again.
" Joss." I can't believe I softly call in return...again.
I can't believe I have to leave her here...again.
I can't believe the pain...again.
I can't believe I have to say good bye ...AGAIN.